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soldier-poet-king · 2 years

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emotionally i am facedown on the floor and like nothing is objectively /wrong/ but im being strangled by my commute and i really need my own place. even a shoebox like i had in collegetown....just control and routine and the smallest of things make it all bearable and even maybe joyful

#jokes on me tho bc i wont be leaving til september 2023 at earliest #yes yes i am saving so much money and gonna put a fuckton downpayment on student loans #like a SIGNIFICANT portion paid off #and im so fortunate in that way #but the brain is clawing at the walls of this familial prison #truly! i am a person who likes control over my food + routines + living space!!!!#i would rather my tiny barely 200sq ft apartment back than have extra space at my parents but no control #yes i should be rejoicing that my boss wants to extend my contract which was supposed to be 4 months #to an additional 12 months #at higher pay!#i am v grateful #but also. fuck me please let me leaveeeeee #I KNOW beggars cant be choosers esp when starting a career #but i rlly wanted to....leave the city #so i had an excuse to move out #having a job anywhere accessible by transit from my parents is like...well...im gonna be guilted #and told im wasting money if i move out and pay rent somewhere else #and city rent is crazy expensive

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