#youstillholdmyheart

[sweetnsexy19]

I’m writing this to give everyone some advice as I’ve recently needed my own advice and I took it too late.. sometimes things change in life it could be financial or emotional it could even be both. But when your in a relationship those scars and hurts and issues shouldn’t be held from them because as much as you care and need them your afraid because you can’t give them everything they will leave. Don’t take that route I was recently in that relationship where I changed my financial situation changed I had more bills than I have ever had and I feel drained and run down I had to switch jobs multiple times and I’ve been left with a part time job (sometimes more full time) that brings me no joy and no contentment. I spent the half hour (or so I wasn’t clock watching) talking to him about my heart telling him I needed him even though I didn’t act like it. He said he couldn’t see it, do I blame him not at all I’ve been an ass and I haven’t shown myself to him like I did when I was younger. We were through a lot together thick and thin madly in love but somehow I changed. I went back to school and met some people and didn’t give him time. Then we split sure I’ve harboured some anger over the break up it hurt me a lot but that’s on me too. I went and changed and hurt him. I’m tired of the way I acted.. I worried him and his family now I’m in a state where I’ve told him to leave me if it would help him. I’m the one to blame.. I’m not sure if this would give anyone advice probably on what not to do rather than what to do or if it’s just airing my own stuff and needing an outlet tonight but I hope this helps someone.. #dontactlikeme #LDR #hownottoact #ilovehimmorethanhefeels #advice #LDRadvice #heneededme #dowhatsbestforyou #longdistance #longdistancerelationship #whathaveidone