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(I’ve been reading Naoto’s arena quotes (especially the character specific ones) and she tends to find a way to compliment everyone’s fighting styles when she’s victorious. And the only person she doesn’t do that for is Yosuke-- to whom she says: "I've won, so you'd best promise to stop calling me "squirt"!")

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The wounded child inside many females is a girl who was taught from early childhood on that she must become something other than herself, deny her true feelings, in order to attract and please others.

bell hooks, all about love: new visions  (via dostevsky)

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❝ Leave me alone. Can’t you just leave me alone!? ❞ //shoves in spoiler territory marie for the angst

| BIOSHOCK STARTERS |

Even from a distance, she could tell that Marie’s biting words were empty. Naoto braced herself, attempting to peer through the fog. She didn’t know Marie for as long as the others did. To understand her entirely– that would take more time. Time they would not have, if they failed here. It could be painful, to open up to others. Every single one of them understood that, after everything they’d been through in the past year. Naoto herself was alone for as long as she could remember, up until she met her friends. And while she could respect needing some privacy every once and a while– this did not qualify as one of those times.“I cannot. To leave you alone now, while you’re suffering, would be cruel.”

She took a breath. She never needed to console any of her friends after a harsh confrontation with the truth, she’d never witnessed one of her friends’ shadows. This was not exactly the same, considering the circumstances, yet it was similar enough. Perchance, this was new territory for her. The detective was determined to offer Marie support; in the same way she’d once been helped. She owed it to her friends, to follow their example. 

“I have a hunch, Marie-san, that you don’t really want to be alone.” She took a step closer, “If you’d just rely on me– on all of us, we’ll do whatever we can to help you.”

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(I made that one post about Naoto and leadership the other day and, as I was rewatching bits of golden, I came across the part where they were doing the Junes concert. And as they’re talking about stage fright, Naoto says that doing a tv interview was easier for her. And her reasoning is because it’s less pressure if you make a mistake when you’re all by yourself. If she were to make a mistake at the concert, then it would affect everyone in their group-- and that makes her more nervous than taking the fall alone.)

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Oh no, what ever shall he do with Naoto when she is currently under a pile of a thousand fluffy bunnies. (i'M SORRY NOT SORRY)

“W-what--” She’s too flustered to form comprehensible words beyond that. It seems she was taken off guard and now, for the time being, trapped in an unpredictable situation. It was all out of left field-- where did all of these rabbits even come from? 

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WHAT ARE YOUR MUSE’S AESTHETICS?

BOLD any which apply to your muse! Remember to REPOST! Feel free to add to the list!

tagged by: @aragakisan thank you for tagging me!! ^o^ <3

tagging: by all means, feel free to steal it if you’d like to try it! c: 

[ COLORS ] red. brown. orange. yellow. green. blue. purple. pink. black. white. teal. silver. gold. grey. lilac. metallic. matte. royal blue. strawberry red. charcoal grey. forest green. apple red. violet. navy blue. crimson. cream. mint green. bubblegum pink. sky blue.

[ ELEMENTS ] fire. ice. water. air. earth. rain. snow. wind. moon. stars. sun. heat. cold. steam. frost. lightning. sunlight. moonlight. dawn. dusk. twilight. midnight. sunrise. sunset. dewdrops.

[ BODY ] claws. long fingers. fangs. teeth. wings. tails. lips. bare feet. neck. shoulders. freckles. bruises. canine. scars. scratches. wounds. burns. fingernails. spikes. feathers. webs. eyes. hands. sweat. tears. feline. chubby. curvy. short. tall. normal height. muscular. piercing. tattoos. athletic.

[ WEAPONS ] fists. legs. sword. dagger. spear. arrow. hammer. shield. poison. guns. axes. throwing axes. whips. knives. throwing knives. pepper sprays. tasers. machine guns. slingshots. katanas. maces. staffs. wands. powers. magical items. magic. rocks. mud balls.

[ MATERIALS ] gold. silver. platinum. titanium. diamonds. pearls. rubies. sapphires. emeralds. amethyst. metal. iron. rust. steel. glass. wood.  porcelain. paper. wool. fur. lace. leather. silk. velvet. denim. linen. cotton. charcoal. clay. stone. asphalt. brick. marble. dust. glitter. blood. dirt. mud. smoke. ash. shadow. carbonate. rubber. synthetics. ribbon.

[ NATURE ] grass. leaves. trees. bark. roses. daisies. tulips. lavender. petals. thorns. seeds. hay. sand. rocks. roots. flowers. ocean. river. frozen lake. meadow. forest. desert. tundra. savanna. rainforest. caves. underwater. coral reef. beach. waves. space. clouds. mountains. snow.

[ ANIMALS ] lions. wolves. eagles. owls. falcons. hawks. swans. snakes. turtles. ducks. bugs. spiders. birds. whales. dolphins. fish. sharks. horses. cats. dogs. bunnies. penguins. praying mantises. crows. ravens. mice. lizards. werewolves. unicorns. dragons.

[ FOODS/DRINKS ] sugar. salt. candy. bubblegum. wine. champagne. hard liquor. beer. coffee. tea. spices. herbs. apple. orange. lemon. cherry. strawberry. watermelon. vegetables. fruits. meat. fish. pies. desserts. chocolate. cream. caramel. berries. nuts. cinnamon. burgers. burritos. pizza. ambrosia.

[ HOBBIES ] music. art. watercolors. gardening. smithing. sculpting. painting. sketching. fighting. writing. composing. cooking. sewing. training. dancing. acting. singing. martial arts. self-defense. electronics. technology. cameras. video cameras. video games. computer. phone. movies. theater. libraries. books. magazines. cds. records. vinyls. cassettes. piano. violin. guitar. electronic guitar. bass guitar. harmonica. harp. woodwinds. brass. flute. bells. exploring. playing cards. poker chips. chess. dice. motorcycle riding. eating. climbing. running.

[ STYLE ] lingerie. armor. cape. dress. tunic. vest. shirt. boots. heels. platform shoes. leggings. trousers. jeans. skirt. jewelry. earrings. necklace. bracelet. ring. pendant. hat. crown. circlet. helmet. scarf. brocade. cloaks. corsets. doublet. chest plate. gorget. bracers. belt. sash. coat. jacket. hood. gloves. socks. masks. cowls. braces. watches. glasses. sun glasses. visor. eye contacts. makeup. ribbons.

[ MISC ] balloons. bubbles. cityscape. light. dark. candles. war. peace. money. power. strength. percussion. clocks. photos. mirrors. pets. diary. fairy lights. memories. madness. sanity. sadness. happiness. optimism. pessimism. loneliness. family. friends. assistants. co-workers. enemies. loyalty. smoking. drugs. kindness. love.

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x. RISE-SAN:

She couldn’t quite place why she had such a hard time leaning on her friends. Or maybe, she did know the answer. Even if she was mostly in control of her image, it wasn’t like things had completely changed. Years of condition from her company wouldn’t just disappear over night. To be perfect, to be happy, to be everything the fans wanted. Rise was slowly working towards undoing such thoughts. However, she was still bound by a contract. She wanted this. And yet, it wasn’t everything she had hoped it would be.

Her gaze lingered on Naoto, for a bit. Then back towards the open sky. She fidgeted with her scarf absently. It wasn’t that she didn’t want to confide in the other. She never quite knew where to begin. The idol industry was so complex. It gave her headaches, just thinking about it.

Her eyes fluttered back to the detective. Naoto could be so direct and straightforward. Rise was envious of that. “Hm,” she hummed in thought, “I… don’t know.” At least she was being honest, this time. “Sometimes I wonder if I shouldn’t have gone back. It all just feels so complicated some days.”

Naoto watched her friend sort through her thoughts with quiet concern. It could be hard to translate feelings into words. Her formal way of speaking often killed a mood– or made her out to seem distant, maybe unreachable for some. It was never her intent to give that impression. So she was patient in the silences between their sentences, and was patient as she listened. And the word that became of it was-- complicated. Despite having done some research on the subject in the past, Naoto couldn’t imagine how it felt– being an idol. It was such a different world from hers. Solving cases and performing were practically day and night; each with their own sets of rules and hardships. So she couldn’t say she understood exactly how it felt.

However, Naoto wanted her friend to know that she was on her side. And if there was anything she could relate to, it was dealing with complicated matters in regards to her occupation. Of course, there were still people who would look down on her for who she was. Just because she accepted herself didn’t mean that the rest of the world would be willing to do so overnight. At the end of each day, though, she kept pulling forward. Because she was a detective. Because she couldn’t leave an unsolved case alone once her curiosity was piqued. That’s part of who she was. Perhaps it came down to whether or not Rise felt the same way about being an idol.

By looking at the whole picture-- at both the pros and cons, she’d likely have more perspective. Naoto didn’t particularly want to sway her in one direction or the other-- she felt she’d rather respect Rise’s opinion on the subject. 

“...If you don’t mind my asking, Rise-san,” Naoto started, “what do you like most about being an idol?”

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Florence + The Machine - All This and Heaven Too

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(I remembered hearing that Naoto’s link could be reversed and i’ve never actually gone to look at what happens before and. I looked it up just now and... oh?? my god?? I think my heart’s in pieces and it’ll take me a few days to recover but--

it’s when she starts talking about her side ‘phantom thief’ quest and how she’ll let it play out-- and she starts to imply that she wants the protagonist’s help. If you cut her off to say ‘you’re on your own’ she ends up recoiling and pulling on her cap, saying ‘oh, i’m sorry... it’s my problem isn’t it.’ and ‘I suppose this is what comes of being unaccustomed to dealing with others’. then she apologizes again and says goodbye before running off and ; ^ ; her link reverses as a result. She’s letting herself open up to the idea of having friends for a change and for the first time starts to admit that she wants to spend time with someone... only to be shut down so blatantly. The hurt little ‘oh’ her voice actress made for her reaction made me flinch. ;; And I think the fact that she apologizes so much after that says a lot about her-- and how she pins most of the blame for the disappointment on herself.)

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❝ What did you think was gonna happen? ❞

| BIOSHOCK STARTERS | 

What did she think was going to happen? Naoto openly criticized the police’s official statement about the case in a televised interview… and then she went missing. Evidently it put enough of a scare into everyone, convincing them to look over the case’s inconsistencies again. However– upon being summoned for questioning after her kidnapping, she was also notified that her services with the case were thenceforth unwelcome. She’d been so concerned with her scheme, with risking her life, that she overlooked the consequences. She’d clearly caused everyone more trouble than they bargained for.  

Adachi’s quirky, sideways grin could be read as sympathizing. Yet something about it made her gut twist and turn. Perhaps it was because the men on the force always talked down to her and treated her condescendingly– it’s just what she was accustomed to. She’d never paid Adachi enough attention to know exactly what opinion he had of her. Taking a deep breath, she brought herself onto her feet. 

“I suppose I should have expected this.” Naoto said cooly. She would not leave in a pitiful, defeated state. For she possessed a new ability– a means to pursue the true perpetrator. Despite the difficulties she faced, despite being rejected by the police– she did not regret her actions. Not even a single bit.

“I believe the truth will come to light. It’s only a matter of time now.” She spoke firmly, refusing to falter. She dipped her head in a silent ‘farewell’. “If you’ve nothing more to ask, Adachi-san, I’ll be taking my leave now.”

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Bioshock Infinite Sentence Starters

 A mix of things said in the BIOSHOCK INFINITE games.

❝ I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. ❞ ❝ Are you going to just sit there? ❞ ❝ You expect me to shoulder the burden? ❞ ❝ Not all debts can be repaid. ❞ ❝ I’m not busting down any doors. ❞ ❝ I know why you’ve come. ❞ ❝ I know how it ends. ❞ ❝ I’d greatly appreciate it if you would assist. ❞ ❝ One day, a man came to you and offered you a chance at redemption. ❞ ❝ Stop it. Will you stop it!? ❞ ❝ I’m not here to hurt you. ❞ ❝ Who are you?  ❞ ❝ I never find that as satisfying as I’d imagined. ❞ ❝ Are you real? ❞ ❝ Feats of wonderment are at the tips of your fingers. ❞ ❝ I’m real enough. ❞ ❝ You don’t want to be here when he gets here. ❞ ❝ Bring us the girl, and wipe away the debt. ❞ ❝ This will end in blood. ❞ ❝ It always ends in blood. ❞ ❝ You killed those people. ❞ ❝ I can’t believe you did that. ❞ ❝ You’re a monster! ❞ ❝ What did you think was gonna happen? ❞ ❝ You think people like that are just gonna let you walk away? ❞ ❝ What am I? ❞ ❝ It’s a bad place. ❞ ❝ From here on, it’s only gonna get worse. ❞ ❝ I’m not you. ❞ ❝ What about me? ❞ ❝ Did I ever even have a choice? Did you? ❞ ❝ I will never escape it. ❞ ❝ It’s like a wheel of blood spinning round and round. ❞ ❝ You’ve come to wipe your slate clean. ❞ ❝ Time will walk backwards before you find redemption. ❞ ❝ Some sins can’t be forgiven. ❞ ❝ The deal is off. You hear me? ❞ ❝ It wasn’t my fault. I didn’t do anything. ❞ ❝ Leave me alone. Can’t you just leave me alone!? ❞ ❝ I heard you screaming. ❞ ❝ I was coming to get you. ❞ ❝ Put the gun down. ❞ ❝ I don’t understand. ❞ ❝ I never should have left you. ❞ ❝ Shut down the machine. ❞ ❝ What are the odds? ❞ ❝ We’re not animals, you know? ❞ ❝ Please just don’t leave me here. ❞ ❝ We’ve got nothing but time. ❞

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Naoto sighed as she went through her notes a second time. She’d made it clear that she wanted to spend the next few years prioritizing time with her friends. Spending as much time as she could at home-- in Inaba. However, there were certain people who knew exactly which buttons to push when soliciting her services. The temptation to pursue a case was one she had trouble pushing aside; such was her nature, as a detective. Alongside that fact was the speculation that this case surrounded the entities known as Personas and Shadows. It was, perhaps, those words that inspired her to take the next flight to Tatsumi Port Island. 

The last time she’d visited, she’d been with her friends on a school trip. It had really taken her off guard, that they tried to include her. Despite how admittedly odd the night they’d spent together had been-- it was almost enough to put a small, nostalgic smile on her face. However, the business side of her reminded her that she was not here for leisure. She was here to investigate a series of unexplainable murders. The conditions of the victims were vaguely described and unidentifiable. And given her ability to assist with the similarly described serial murders in Inaba, the officials seemed to believe that she would be an asset on this particular case. Alongside these cases, they’d noticed a inclination of stolen drugs-- drugs they’d called suppressants. And they weren’t a simple brand of cold medicine. For some reason, the name stuck out in her mind, like a red flag. There was very little on record about them and their function. Vague descriptions-- very much like all the elements of this case thus far. Many claimed it had side effects, lethal effects. However, it didn’t seem to have any purposeful function beyond that. 

Suppressants. Their namesake had to have a meaning. But what, exactly, was being suppressed? If Personas or Shadows happened to have an effect on this case; perhaps it was something beyond what the average person could see. That, however, was just a theory.

So, she’d done a fair amount of research. She had various notes on similar incidents that had happened in the area and was asked to speak with those involved. Some went as far back as 2007. And while she knew it’d give her more insight, she knew those involved wouldn’t appreciate having strangers treading through their pasts. Just over the course of the last year, she knew that people were capable of changing. When trying hard to move forward, it can be difficult to reflect on the past. And hearts locked in the past tended to struggle most.

Still, she had to ignore the ache in her chest and keep moving. Her duty was to ensure that these peculiar murders came to a stop-- to protect any future innocents from getting hurt. One person her research had led her to was currently participating in a ‘cooking workshop’. She waited outside the building, scrolling through a series of all caps notes on her phone. Hearing a door open and close nearby, she immediately caught sight of the person she was searching for. His height and style of dress made him hard to miss, if nothing else. The detective swallowed and adjusted her posture, moving quickly to keep up with his long strides. 

“Ah, pardon me. If I’m not mistaken, you’re Aragaki-san--” Naoto promised herself a while ago that she’d let some of her old habits die in her work. However, this man’s intimidating height might have inspired her to force her voice an octave lower than she should have. Now wasn’t the time to doctor it, though, “--correct?”

    [ @aragakisan ]