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one of my twt moots called me thinsp0!! love it sm

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i am over the cold, i need summer back!!

i miss wearing tank tops n shorts im so sad rn

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my life rlly is like a fuckin smut book, this shit is so fun omg 😆

also, does cum have calories?

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finally hit my gw of 100 lbs!! what do i do now tho? maintain?

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metal head is ab to get herself fired dude. she just screamed at john cena for no reason, i dont get it. managers cut her for the day n r sending her home.

all he asked was for her to stop throwing tickets on the ground, and she got in his face saying he need to get his own fucking friends.

again, i dont wanna be friends with a teenaged 26 yr old. thats embarrassing.

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was having a conversation with john cena and literally in the middle of it, metal head came up and stood hugging me while we continued talking. im not gonna acknowledge u, i know what ur doing.

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hot manager just walked in and he looks so fucking good today oh my god he’s wearin glasses n a black long sleeve and his hair is done oh my god he’s so hot. that’s why he’s called hot manager 🙂‍↕️

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went to a hockey game with a friend (who will now be known as mist) today for her bday!!

it was my first hockey game since elementary school, and i honestly had so much fun!! i dont rlly know anything ab hockey, but it seems pretty straight forward. could be how many times ive read the foxhole court. exy is literally a fake sport, but it seems kinda like hockey. maybe its time for a reread.

MAJOR TANGENT!!

omg, talkin ab the foxhole court, god i love that series. i have a music playlist for that series. dude my TRUCK is literally named neil (the main character). i remember reading that book at softball tournaments, praying that my college team would even be a tiny bit like those books. i set myself up. i dont wanna talk ab this anymore.

BACK TO ORIGINAL STORY!!

anyways, all i could think ab the entire time tho were all those smut books ab hockey players (im not immune to the propaganda).

we got margs after the first period, and two were $45?? actual theft. got me decently tipsy, but i have the worlds lowest tolerance so it doesnt take much.

team ended up losing the game, and they played like ass (according to mist, again, i dont know shit ab hockey) so it was kinda a shit bday game for mist :-((

afterwards, we went to a bar n got some drinks while we waited for uber prices to drop. had another wonderful drink, n then hot manager texted us!! he said we arent allowed to go to anymore games, which funnily enough, when me n my sister were younger, we convinced ourselves that if we watched the cowboys they would lose. anyways, it reminded me of that. we joked ab his bday (which i think i know what im getting him now teehee), n then asked for a ride bc uber prices were so fucking high. he was honestly willing to come get us which was so fucking sweet, i love him fr. n then he joked ab me finally getting to go to a sports game this week, and yeah no he isnt wrong. i was happy bf wasnt invited this time.

he told me not to drive home, but bf texted n said he went out drinking with john cena. so i just ended up driving to the bar they were at, n leavin neil there. john cena n a bunch of other friends were there so i ended up havin more drinks :-))

then, omg so fucking weird, this random girl came n sat down with us n said it was her bday n asked us to sing for her?? we did bc we were drunk n why not, n she hung around talkin. after last call we decided to go to waffle house, which i was super excited for bc i had never been. random girl wanted to come so john cena gave her a ride. we all ate, which omg, waffle house is so good. maybe it was bc i was drunk, but the hash browns were actually crispy?? gas. after we ate, john cena offered to give random girl a ride to a homeless shelter.

anyways, that was my night!! very fun, very good time :-))

and dnd session tomorrow at 12!! gotta figure out what food to get.

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bf kept asking me to take pics n i told him no bc i dont wanna remember anything ab this trip.

im gonna try n block this all out.

we’re going out for breakfast before we leave tomorrow. im so embarrassed i dont want to go. i hope they have alc there.

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he keeps trying to fucking talk to me. i dont want to. leave me alone. here’s the one picture i got before we left.

its just the sunset.

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on another fucking note, STEPMOM FUCKING LIED TO ME I FUCKING KNEW IT THAT FUCKING BITCH HOW DARE U TELL ME MY DAD HIT U IN THE FACE. UR NOSE WOULD HAVE BEEN FUCKING BROKEN. UR NOT EVEN BRUISED. DONT U FUCKIN DARE LIE TO ME AB THAT SHIT.

i wanna go home this has been horrible, just like i knew it would.

cant decide if i wanna hug from my dad or hot manager rn.

also, hope his half marathon went well!!

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he had a fucking panic attack before the fucking football game even started bc we had high seats n made me leave. im gonna kill him. im gonna fucking kill him.

literally my dad just wasted money on parking and tickets for me n bf. im so fucking beyond mad. this isnt fucking fair. i wanted to watch the game with my family. he’s such a fucking bitch boy. i genuinely cant fucking believe it.

i wanna scream and cry and yell and fucking kick him in the face. this isnt fucking fair. this is the whole reason we fucking came. this isnt fair, this isnt fucking fair.

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every time im around my sister, im reminded how much alike we r n how much i love her :-))

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been an interesting first night visiting my stepbrother in college.

he was drivin me n bf to dinner and got pulled over on the way which was so funny. he didnt get a ticket thank god, but this motherfucker cut off a COP and went like two lanes over it was so fuckin funny.

the other interesting thing of the night, is my stepmom told me my dad hit her. in the face. and the worst part is is i dont know if i believe her. but im kinda scared to ask my dad. i dont know if i wanna know the truth. but i need to. i dont feel like my dad would do that. but again, i dont know.

this will be a long weekend.

also, me n bf have to share a room with my sister n her bf.

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no longer caring ab doing disordered things in public, i will check nutrition labels and i will make my orders complicated as hell.

it makes me feel better. literally yesterday i paid $15 for a salad and refused to eat it bc they put a high calorie dressing on it. i dont care anymore. i need the peace of mind, i need the control. just for this one thing.

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YALL!!! i finally had my first dnd session last night and i had so much fun!! its literally just roleplay irl.

im a tabaxi bard named star, whose only goal is to be famous and have lots of jewelry n clothes. she is literally so easy to roleplay. me n my bf were havin a fuckin blast.

our other two members tho… yeesh brother i can tell they have never roleplayed. they kept trying to describe their characters actions instead of just talking. and it seemed like they were scared of being cringe which makes no sense. me, bf, n john cena were trying so hard to make them comfortable.

luckily, next session is gonna be combat and less roleplay. hopefully that will help them get more into the game and their characters.

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didnt get to bc the mid hadnt gone home yet :-((

hot manager brought my favorite pizza to work, oh he is gettin his **** ****** for that 🙂‍↕️