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my bf comes to my job all the time and every time him n hot manager talk i start having a panic attack. both of them know too much ab me in completely different ways and if they were to ever cross check information i would be done for. luckily, hot manager somehow also knows this and avoid talking to my bf now. things r very strange!! i made a joke earlier ab how hot manager told me i need to take better care of my hair (he grabbed one of my curls and called it cute n i said i wish i knew how to take care of them and he said oh i have curly hair lemme give u some product recommendations n then he let me feel his hair) and my bf got weird ab it and in that moment i was like “damn, time to not mention hot manager for a while” bc i also mentioned that hot manager made me these rlly good salmon tacos yesterday so i think ive talked to much ab him. anyways im insane and delusional and i love lore dumping on tumblr!!

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frothing at the mouth whY DID HE CARESS MY FACE LIKE THAT AHHHH

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MY LIFE IS LIKE A WATTPAD STORY THAT NEVER FUCKING ENDS WHAT DO U MEAN HOT MANAGER HAS A PAST WITH SH?? IT WAS A WHOLE THING GOD FUCK ME FUCK ME WHY DO THESE THINGS KEEP HAPPENING TO ME I FEEL LIKE THE MANIC PIXIE DREAM GIRL IN EVERYONES STORY BUT MINE

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i feel myself getting crazier and more delusional as i sink deeper into whatever mental health issues i got going on rn

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coming here to scream to the void OH MY GOD MY DADDY ISSUES HAVE NEVER BEEN MORE NOTICEABLY THAN THEY R NOW WHAT IS MY DEAL WITH MALE AUTHORITY FIGURES THERE IS SOMETHING VERY WRONG WITH ME

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the way he have me an ice cream pop and watched me eat it and called me adorable when i got it all over my face GUYS AM I INSANE AM I CRAZY?? BC I FEEL THAT WAY EVERY TIME WE WORK TOGETHER

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update on hot manager: WEIRD THINGS CONTINUE TO HAPPEN?? he follows me on insta right, and i post this intro of a monster fucker book (no good way to say that) ok my story, and he DM’D ME AB IT AND ASKED FOR THE BOOK TITLE WHEN I SAW HIM AT WORK THE NEXT DAY AND THEN RECOMMENDED ME ANOTHER PORN BOOK HE RLLY LIKES GUYS COME ON NOW AM I INSANE?? AM I CRAZY?? shit feels like a wattpad fanfic FR

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once again, a very wild interaction with hot manager caused by the necklaces im wearing. HE SAID MY NECKLACE LOOKED LIKE ANAL BEADS N THEN ASKED ME IF ID EVER TRIED IT AND I ?? very informative conversation i wont lie, but holy shit dude i cant exactly go up to my bf and be like, “me n hot manager had a conversation ab anal and i think he convinced me to try it.” LIKE I GENUINELY CAN NEVER BRING THIS UP TO MY BF EVER

me n hot manager just had a very deep conversation ab anal… AM I INSANE?? AM I CRAZY??

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me n hot manager just had a very deep conversation ab anal… AM I INSANE?? AM I CRAZY??

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no little punk girl don't walk into the lightning storm! your outfit is so conductive! little punk girl nooooooo

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so blessed to have so many people care about me to ask about my weight and how im eating, but i want to get worse. leave me alone and let me get worse.

my manager just pulled me to the side and gave me the “are u eating enough” speech, during which he told me HIS WIFE HAD/HAS AN EATING DISORDER!??!? so now hes making a vitamin/food list for me and he also told me he’s gonna keep an eye on me and make me food thru out our shifts together. wonder if he’s asking his wife ab it. u think shes gonna be a girls girl and let him finish that list or is she gonna be smart and realize that a vitamin list will now give me more of an excuse to restrict?

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omg edblr sucks im going back to edtwt

thinkin ab the chickfila meal i wanted to omad yesterday but couldn’t… sad :-((

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thinkin ab the chickfila meal i wanted to omad yesterday but couldn’t… sad :-((

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I WANNA TAPE MY MOUTH SHUT a bitch never knows when to shut her fucking mouth i hate her

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DID IT AGAIN AND THIS TIME HE SAID “its a habit now” IM SCREAMING AND INSANE AND DELUSIONAL FUCK ME FUCK

tumblr is the only place i can post and NOT worry about people seeing it so OH MY GOD NOT MY MANAGER THAT I LOWKEY FIND HOT FAKE CHOKING ME MULTIPLE TIMES TODAY BC I WORE A CHOKER HE HAS A WIFE AND KIDS AND I AM INSANE WTF

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NO BC HE LITERALLY DID IT AGAIN THIS MORNING AND ALSO NOT TO FAN THE FLAMES OF MY EATINT DISORDER BUT HE ALSO CAME UP BEHIND ME AND LIFTED ME UP AM I CRAZY AM I INSANE I FEEL INSANE BC WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENING

tumblr is the only place i can post and NOT worry about people seeing it so OH MY GOD NOT MY MANAGER THAT I LOWKEY FIND HOT FAKE CHOKING ME MULTIPLE TIMES TODAY BC I WORE A CHOKER HE HAS A WIFE AND KIDS AND I AM INSANE WTF

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okay so this is gonna sound insane (bc i am and this is) but he had to leave early bc his son mightve broken his arm and im not even joking he walked to the door to leave, turned around, said “one more time” and CHOKED ME AGAIN and i fucking giggled and he laughed and left AM I INSANE?? AM I CRAZY?? i need fucking help what the fuck

tumblr is the only place i can post and NOT worry about people seeing it so OH MY GOD NOT MY MANAGER THAT I LOWKEY FIND HOT FAKE CHOKING ME MULTIPLE TIMES TODAY BC I WORE A CHOKER HE HAS A WIFE AND KIDS AND I AM INSANE WTF