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wilderness tl nat x fem!reader weeks after the crash you start getting tired and depressed of “living” in the middle of nowhere, nat is there to try and do her best at cheering u up<3

cw: sfw, fluff, hurt/comfort, you and Nat r girlfriends before the crash and jackies gay radar knows that, set before her death(missing jackie hours frfr), reader is a little annoyed that nat has to hang out a lot w travis and it contributes to her loneliness feeling.

tw: depression, reader starts eating less at one point cuz shes just tired of everything notes!!: no mari hate, just her yelling at reader to do something cuz shes also tired of everything, i cant hate my fellow latina prima, i love her smm also sorry if its feels a little long before reaching the main point i wanted to elaborate everything n i started to write recently so im trying my best to not make it feel rushed nskdjsjd

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༘⋆ its impossible for someone like you who used to spend weekdays going to school with the sole purpose to not fail math again and seeing your girlfriend (at that point Nat was your only reason to go to that hellhole), practicing and playing soccer, seeing jackie threaten to quit as a captain for the third time, gossip with nat if Tai and are Van are a little more than friends and betting if coach Scott just looks gay or is actually gay

༘⋆ spend weekends hanging out with your girlfriend getting high, buying alcohol with fake ids, sneaking out and going to parties some random will throw out in the middle of the night and then running away from the police till you both arrive to your home ,having messy make outs in your room while your mom was asleep, just loving eachother in your little room without caring if it's morally correct to be queer and free or not, w/o judging looks from randoms that doesn't understand what true love is, to “settle” to whatever was this…

༘⋆ having to first endure a plane crash where gods know how everyone managed to make it out alive, deal with untreated injuries even though misty tried her best, allergies after accidentally stepping on toxic plants, and the worst of all: Not being able to shower properly and clean ur selves in general, just sitting on a rock everyday waiting for a miracle.

༘⋆ things got “easier” after finding the cabin (with a dead man included that made lottie a little bit more crazier than before) but still, this isn't what you wanted nor everyone, but for some reason it was more difficult for you to get used, a literally 180°change in your life that you didnt expect, and seeing everyone, including nat getting used to this “sweet camp life” made you feel useless.

༘⋆ Mari was always there, giving you and jackie angry looks, reminding you of your chores, sometimes yelling, sometimes just straight up throwing you the bag full of dirty clothes for you wash them, you couldn't blame her, neither yourself, everyone was just trying to move on with their lives, but you were stuck, feeling tired, desperate and lonely, missing everything you once had, even that shithead teacher that always gave u the worst math exercises for you solve in front of everyone.

༘⋆ it was a relief to see that you weren't the only one struggling, seeing jackie also getting on mari’s nerves made you feel less alone in this, but still, she had Shauna, who let her be “useless” and free while she takes care of the rest, it wasnt the same for you, Nat was always with travis, far away and trying to find some deer or whatever so no one will starve, and it annoyed you, you were alone and your girlfriend, the only person who used to understand you was with someone else far away while your mind fog with the same shit.

༘⋆ the same routine, u wake up, nat’s already gone, nothing to eat, mari yelling at you first thing in the morning to go and do something useful, lottie asking and saying weird shit, the same routine every damn day, you stopped counting how many times have you done the same, the same clothes to wash, the same bucket to fill, sneaking from the others at the same time to go and cry under the dusty blankets until the feeling brush off (it never does) the same the same and the same and no one cared, probably not even your girlfriend who has better things to worry about at this point, you were alone in this.

༘⋆ today the feeling was the same, you wonder if this is gonna be your new future, far from home, with a numb feeling that never go away, no matter how many times you sleep and cry under the covers, no one notices not even the only adult who also has his own struggles, you thought sometimes about opening to Nat, but she has her own concerns and you didnt wanna be a burden.

༘⋆ all you do was stare at your reflection in your cracked mini mirror, ignoring all the noise outside, apparently something happened but u couldn't care less, that's until Jackie comes in calling you for lunch, apparently the girls has been calling for you so long that she has to come and get you

“hey.. something wrong?” her voice quieter, like she managed to read you across the room

“oh hey, everythings fine, im just… nothing”

“we've been calling for lunch, u wont believe what natalie and travis brought this time” 

she said with a big grin on her face and before you could even speak 

“and no, do not tell me you're going to skip and give your food to shauna again”

“jackie…” you huff tired “shes eating for two now, and besides im not in the mood right now, i just wanna be alone please”

“youre never in the mood, and neither all of us, but that doesn't mean starve to death, you're barely eating nowadays” she sat beside you, her voice now laced with concern

“I know we weren't the closest before, but if something's wrong just tell me, spending all these weeks stranded here has made everyone closer.. except for you”

“its nothing i swear, just not feeling like it, i just wanna be alone please..”

“nono, don't lie to me, i’ve noticed your behavior and its obvious somethings wrong” jackie says softly, her presence warm beside you like the sunny person she is

“your dim eyes, all these days of not eating anything and just staying inside the cabin after chores”

…

“its for nat right?” she looks at you with mischievous eyes while getting closer

“i know what you two are, GOSHH ITS SO OBVIOUS, and dont worry i get that feeling of seeing the love of your life spending more time with someone, used to happen when i saw jeff sticking to randy’s ass but they're just good friends y’know, and its not like nat has a choice, its either that or letting travis run away and stealing our only weapon”

how could you not love her? she's very good at cheering up people, with her dramatic tone and confidence like you two were the closest friends ever, she's your captain for a reason.

you try and smile to let her know is all good, but it doesn't show on your face

“yeah, but its not only that” ur voice comes in a whisper, your eyes full of sadness that didn't go unnoticed for her, “not to be rude jackie, i appreciate your effort but im not hungry really, i just want to sleep a little”

“mmm… okay”

༘⋆ and with that she leaves, you pull the covers all way to your face, just leaving a little space to breath and close your eyes waiting for sleep to kick in, around ten minutes passed until your hear footsteps and suddenly feel a heavy weight laying on top of you.

“wha- what the fuck” you said trying to get up quickly but that whatever thing wont let you

“no what THE fuck is happening to you” its just nat, you let a relive sigh, for a flash moment you thought it was some of that wilderness things that lottie has been murmuring about

“Jackie came worried looking like she just saw a fucking ghost almost screaming and told me that you were possessed by an emo entity and were on ur death bed right now” she let a giggle while her hand caressed your cheek and acting like being on top of you wasnt taking your breath away “and if i didnt wanna miss your last breath in these world then i should come here and drag you from your feet outside before its toooooo late” heavy on that “toooo” late

“its nothing nat, just tired of being stranded here, i need some sleep and tomorrow ill be a new person” hopefully, but for nat who knows that when you play with your hair like that you're lying and there's something more about it.

༘⋆ your tired eyes, quite behaviour when you used to be active around her, especially after not seeing her days, made her knew something was wrong, the way you barely talk when she came back after being out for hours trying to hunt something, she didnt wanna bother you asking something out of place, but she knew this wasn't you, this wasn't the extrovert girl she met.

༘⋆ she knows she has been absent from your life these past few weeks, but Jackie's pressure on her for not finding something, mari’s looks everytime she and travis came back barehanded, and everyone in general starving in the middle of nowhere put a toll on her, made her feel guilty.

༘⋆ and more guilty after Jackie came out of the cabin, make her drama as an excuse to took her to a private place away from the rest and told her everything that has been happening to you these past weeks.

༘⋆ she thought that after finding a big deer for everyone to eat she’ll be able to spend more time with you, this time for real, but seeing how her absence hurt you made her realice of fucked up things are right now.

“no need to lie, i know when you play with your hair like this is because you need me to take the words out your mouth”

“uh…”

“jackie told me everything… i wanna start this with an ”im sorry”, im sorry for not being there, for made you feel forgotten when thats not what i wanted, for failing as a girlfriend but i know its not enough”

she doesn't sound angry but worried, sadness in her voice that made you feel feel guilty for now worrying her

“its not your fault nat, but i cant adapt as fast as the others, i miss everything, i dont wanna be here i hate this… just wish i can disappe-” 

“don't say that” for a brief moment the air became tense, nat now lying on the mat made you turn around and face her, her eyes full of worry, she hated hearing you saying things like this, especially when you were the most joyful person she ever meet

“i dont expect you to become a master at camp life but neither i want you to give up, to not eat and give your food away, weren't you the same who told me breakfast was the most important food when you saw me smoking and drinking a coffee at six in the morning?”

you let out a small laugh, that was one of the first times you talked, and after that you convinced your mom to give you extra lunch so u can share with her, if there's something that you hate to see was someone you cared for eating first thing in the morning something like that.

“yeah but its not something i can control, you dont know how many times i’ve cried while you were gone, trying to brush this feeling off but it just… dont go away” 

“i know, and im sorry for not being there to help you, even a little” she gives a sweet kiss to your forehead “but please promise me that you wont hide this feelings ever again, even if im not here promise that you will find coach or someone to talk and not just bury yourself here”

“also, i have a stupid plan but before give a few minutes ill be right back” she stands and left the cabin, you didn't realize how much you have missed her till now, having this small talks, ignoring everything, just you and her, sure the context wasn't the same but it now it didnt matter.

Nat came back with two small plates with meat and sat next to you

“alright, i wont let you argue i know youre hungry, so please just a few bites”

you were about to argue but deep inside you know she was right, your stomach has been empty for the whole day, and talking to nat, having her by you side again made you feel at ease again.

“ill spoon you like a baby if it's necessary to make sure you're well fed by now”

and with that you take a bite from her hand, savoring not only the meat nutrients but also the effort made by nat, by travis, by mari to cook and fed everyone

“So what's this stupid plan of yours about?” you ask her a little intrigued, when nat says its something stupid you know it always ended up being something either mind blowing or just problematic

“i wanna teach you how to use that rifle, youre on the best hands, im gonna train you so we can both go hunting and spend more time together, alone, like this, like this beautiful and rustic romantic dinner” 

..woah

“ohh hold on nat you know damn well im not into guns and-”

“i know dumbass but y’know its necessary, we need more hands to hunt, travis is a good guy but a little dickhead, and i want you to go out, this isolation here is not good for you”

well… she's right

“take time your time to learn, no pressure, all i want is you coming with me everywhere, out of here even if its only to be a passenger princess while i try to hunt some fucking rabbit so jackie wont kill us”

༘⋆ and with a sweet kiss the deal was seal, after that you feel how you got better day by day, sure still being trapped there, with a life no one wanted was a headache but now with nat by your side things were more easy, hunting wasn't the most enjoyable thing and using a shotgun was difficult, but at least you now got someone to teach you and didnt care if you actually learn, because all Natalie wanted was to be with you, make up for the lost time and never let you fall again into that sadness ever.

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do not translate w/o permission, copy or use for ai training, train your useless brain instead<3

[tastefuleternallove]

Do you have any rules on requests? Just wanna ask before jumping on the idea. Also do you write for the older versions of the yellowjackets?

i don’t have any rules honestly except for like i won’t write for javi bc like yk that’s a full on child

and yes i’d write for the older versions too! i really wanna write something with older van

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guys all the asks i got were fucking fantastic i’m ecstatic 😩

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guys send me yellowjackets requests 😔 i feel so embarrassed asking a seccond time within 24 hours like smut fluff headcanons anything bro

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thinking about coming back for the summer as a travis gooner 😼 fuck it and the others too

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Don't Touch The Racoons. Eddie Munson x Reader

Don't Touch The Racoons

I DO NOT ALLOW MY WRITING TO BE REPUBLISHED ANYWHERE OTHER THAN MY OWN BLOG WITHOUT MY CONSENT

Summary: Eddie helps his very loopy girlfriend after she dislocates her shoulder.

18 + IF YOU ARE NOT 18 OR OLDER DO NOT READ OR INTERACT WITH MY WRITING. IT IS NOT INTENDED FOR MINORS. I AM NOT RESPONSIBLE FOR THE MEDIA YOU CONSUME.

Warnings: None really? fem reader though no real descriptions, mentions of a 'heavy' medication, but not specified. Just assumed they'd give you something for the pain of having to pop your shoulder back in, and it making you a lil loopy! (IF THERES ANYTHING I MISSED LET ME KNOW)

AN: not proof read, and not based off of anything or a request, just something that I had in mind, and thought it was cute and funny!

Word count: 1.6k

Eddie was working a late shift at the shop, working overtime for some extra cash when he gets a frantic call from Robin telling him you slipped and dislocated your shoulder.

He immediately panics and is about to head out the door when you plead with him on the other end just to finish his shift. 

"We w-wont be long, m'okay Ed's really" you lie. You wanted to be brave for him, and for your friends who are with you in the waiting room of the hospital.

Reluctantly after another ten minutes you convince Eddie to finish his shift and to wait for you at his trailer. 

It's around midnight when Eddies phone finally rings, and he nearly fumbles it across the room with how quickly he grabs it. "Hello?"

"Wakey wakes Munson! Were on our way back with your very, loopy girlfriend" Robin says on the other end of the phone. 

Eddie groans as he sits up from the couch, breathing out a sigh of relief knowing they'll be back soon. "How long till you guys get here?" He asks wearily, standing up from the couch to begin pacing back and forth. 

"Fifteen minutes, barely, were practically down the road" Robin says comfortingly. 

"Okay okay... good... how is she?" 

"Oh insanely loopy" Robin laughs "It's pretty cute though.

"Oh jeez, guess they gave her some good stuff" he shakes his head, thinking of just how loopy you're going to be when you get here. 

"Oh for sure they- no babe, you can't touch that, no stop it, put your hand down for the love of christ-" Robin rambles at you, and Eddie can hear you giggling in the background as Robin tries to control whatever loopy antics you're up to. 

"Is that her giggling like a school girl?"

"Yes! she's being a menace! A very slow and giggly menace, but a menace all the same!" 

Just as Eddie goes to respond he sees the headlights of Steves car pull up into his gravel driveway. He hangs up the phone with out saying goodbye and heads over towards the door. 

When he makes it to the porch, Steve and Robin are helping you out of the car, practically dragging you with your heavy limbs and fogged brain. 

"Jesus Christ, can se even walk?" He says while jogging down the few steps, reaching out towards you to help you into his trailer. 

"teddy teddy teddy" you say while reaching forward with your arm that isn't in the temporary sling. 

Eddie steps closer and wraps his arm around you in a tight hugs, pressing a scatter of kisses to the top of your head. "How's the patient?" he says while looking at you, but he's really asking Steve and Robin. 

"She is absolutely stoned out of her mind right now" Robin says with a smirk, looking over at you while you cling to Eddie, your head lolling against his chest. "They defenitly gave her the good stuff"

"You're if bubble gum was a person" you mumble, rubbing your face against his chest. 

Eddie lets our a snort of laughter and shakes his head. "And why am I bubble gum, baby?"

"Cause you are" you scoff, as if it's obviously 

"Mhmm okay, good explanation" he says shaking his head. "Lets get you inside alright?"

"Insssiiidddeeee" You sing out.

Eddie laughs again, leading you into the trailer slowly, and guides you over to the couch, making sure your sat down, comfortably and safely before standing back up in front of you. "There you go baby, now just stay right here okay? I'm gunna say bye to Steve and Robin" he says while pushing some hair away from your face gently. 

"Don't touch the racoons" you say with a warning tone, pointing a finger at you to emphasize your point of seriousness. 

Eddie stares at you blankly for a moment, attempting to hold back a smile as he gently pushes your hand back down to your side. "I promise not to touch the racoons" he confirms while turning around to the front door where Steve and Robin are giggling at your antics. 

"Did she just say 'don't touch the racoons?'" Robin asks, still trying to stile another round of laughter.

"Yes. Yes she did" Eddie says while trying to keep a straight face.

"Steve finally breaks, letting out a burst of hysterical laughter, while robin just smiles and shakes her head. 

"Well you're going to have an interesting night, that's for sure" Steve says after he's managed to catch his breath. 

Eddie shakes his head, and turns back to glance at you, still sitting on the couch. Your head is lolled to one side, one eye open, and the other one closed, a dreamy, dopey look on your face, that he can't help fall more in love with. "Alright you two assholes can head off now, I've got her covered" he says giving the both of them quick hugs. "Thanks for taking her to the hospital for me, and keeping her face"

Steve and robin wave off his thanks. "Good luck with your walking zombie of a girlfriend!" Robin says with a playful salute.

Once they drive away Eddie heads back inside, walking over and kneeling in front of you on the couch. "Hey there baby. How are you feeling?"

"Super duper" you say with a smile.

"Yeah super duper sounds about right" He says with a smile. Reaching out to tuck some hair out of your face again, looking over your features as you sit there all loopy. 

You lean your cheek against his hand, humming in content at the feeling. The warmth of it spreading across your face. 

Eddie smooths his thumb over your cheekbone as you lean into his touch. Seeing you so out of it like this was definetly a big change from your usual self he had become so familiar with. "The meds they gave you are really doing a number on you aren't they? he asks, but it's mostly him talking to himself. He doesn't expect a reply, let alone a coherent one at that, but you still try. 

"M'all tingly" you mumble out.

"Yeah that's the medicine baby" he says quietly. Taking a moment to just admire your features, and the way you look up at him with those eyes of yours. 

"Where'd you go?" you ask, tilting your head while you speak.

"What do you mean baby? where did I go?" he says confused.

"You weren't at the host-hop-hospital with me" you struggle to get the sentence out, but manage in the end.

Eddies face softens, and he nods his head. "I know baby, I'm really sorry, I was working remember? You didn't want me to miss out so you convinced me to stay" he says while bringing his free hand to cup the other side of your face so he can get you to look at him directly. 

"They stole my blood" you frown.

Eddie has to stop himself from laughing so hard at the words that just came from your mouth, not wanting to offend you in your drowsy state. "They weren't stealing your food baby, that's just how hospitals work, they gotta make sure you're okay"

"Thieved it right out of me!"

Eddie can't help but laugh then at how ridiculous you were being. Normally he'd have at least some idea of what you were talking about, seeing you be all giggly like this when you were high. But right now it was like trying to decipher everything a very small, very stoned child was saying. 

"They were testing your blood for science, baby, not stealing it from you, very big difference" he says, trying to help you understand despite knowing it's no use right now.

"Science! pffft" you snort, leaning forward until your head thunks against his shoulder.

Eddie cradles the back of your head, while pressing a kiss to to it. "Well science is important baby"

"You're eyes are science" you say matter of fact. 

Eddie has no idea how to respond for a moment. "My eyes are... Science?" he repeats with a raised brow. Wondering if all the loops in your brain had finally melted together.

"Yep" you say confidently. 

Eddie is still confused, but if it's one thing about right now is that he's learning to just go with whatever it is you're saying. "Interesting..." he says with a laugh "and they're science because?"

"Cause they sparkle duh"

"Jesus Christ you really are out of it" he says mostly to himself. 

"Hey where's my bear?" You say abruptly, looking around for the blue stuffed bear that is always safely tucked away in Eddies bed for when you sleep over. You frown when you don't see it in the living room. 

"He's in my room babe, where he always is"

"Can we go to him? I miss him" 

Eddie gives you a fond smile and stands up from his kneeling position in front of you while reaching out to take your good hand in his. "Course we can go to him" he says while gently lifting you off the couch. 

"Woah" you say when you wobbly slightly once you're back on your feet. "The floor is melty"

Eddie lets out a loud laugh, unable to keep that one in. Keeping you steady with his arm around your waist he looks down at you with a smile, almost tempted to let you go just to see if you really would fall over, but he doesn't. "No the floor isn't melty" he says "You're just really high"

"Looks pretty melty to me" you say skeptically. Taking a tentative step forward, tapping the toe of your soon on the ground first, just to REALLY make sure it was sturdy enough. 

Eddie looks at you in amusement. It was like every clumsy bone in your body had been amplified to a maximum and he could barely believe it. "I promise you the floor is not melty"

As the night goes on, and you sleep off the drowsy medication, you manage to tell the story to Eddie about how you dislocated your shoulder. All the while he holds you close, keeping you warm and protected and silently vowing to himself to wrap you in bubble wrap when you were away from him.

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YUPPPPP

Geta who eats you out on his throne. Geta has taken over my entire mind and this needs to come out or I'll explode actually! CW : Pussy eating, slight exhibitionism, almost getting caught.

Geta had been showing you the area where he and Caracalla sit during the Gladiator Games. A proud crooked smile on his face. It would be your first time viewing the games from such an angle.

Geta grabbed ahold of your hips and had you sit down in his throne. And when you looked up at him, his eyes flickered with possessiveness. As if you sitting in his throne meant that he owned you.

Geta hummed as he stared at you. His eyes trailing over your stola. "You look good like this, my dear" Geta rumbled.

"I'd hope I look good to you all the time, Geta" you say softly, which makes the emperor chuckle, his hands landing on your knees, rubbing up and down your thighs.

"You know you do" Geta hummed, pushing your stola embroidered with gold thread, up your legs. And you hold the fabric against your lower stomach.

Geta continued to run his hands up and down your thighs, his touch felt as though your blood burned with need. The Emperor always had such an effect on you. His rings sending a shiver down your spine from the chill of them.

"Must you always tease, Geta?"

"Of course I must. I enjoy watching you become desperate for me"

You groaned in frustration at that. Your cunt was throbbing desperately now. Feeling how sticky your panties had become.

You sighed in relief when Geta finally tugged your panties down, his hands grabbing your thighs and spreading them wide open so he'd have all access to what he called, "nectar from the Gods".

you gasped quietly as Geta buried his nose in the tuft of hair on your mound. he always loved smelling your natural scent, despite how flustered it made you.

Then you felt his tongue glide up between your wet folds. Your hips jolting at the contact.

"Geta!" You huffed impatiently. Moaning as Geta began to suck on your clit.

Your hands glided down to his hair, tugged the locks as your hips grind forward into Geta's insatiable mouth. His tongue lapping into you, as if he was stuck in the desert and your cunt was the oasis he'd been praying for.

Geta had eaten you out plenty of times. But this was by far the best. You had the sun shining down on you, Geta's mouth on your pussy, and the thrill of the idea that anyone could see you.

"Emperor?!" a guard called out, you weren't sure from where. But it made you jolt and look down at Geta with wide eyes.

"Geta! Geta, a guard is going to see us!" you whisper in panic.

Geta pulls away, licking his lips. "Then I suggest you come in my mouth before he finds us" he grinned, before diving back in. Making you whimper desperately. Nodding in agreement.

You try to muffle your moans and whimpers as Geta doubles his efforts. Covering your mouth and tipping your head back to rest against the back of the throne.

"Close!" You moan into your hand, just loud enough for Geta to hear.

"Emperor?! Are you up here?! You have a meeting with the council!" The guard called out, just as the coil in your stomach began to rapidly tighten.

Geta then began humming around your clit. Your hand slamming down on the arm rest of the throne as you unexpectedly came.

Your orgasm ripped through you, feeling as though every nerve in your body was alight. Your eyes rolling back.

When you finally came down from the high, Geta had pulled your panties back up and smoothed out your stola. Having stood up as the guard finally found the two of you.

"Ah, Emperor Geta" the guard said as he walked over. "I was worried you would miss your meeting with the council"

"Unfortunately I will be missing the meeting. As you can see, my fairest has tired herself out and I will be joining her in my chambers" Geta said with his usual smug smile. Making you glare at him with a scoff.

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worse thing to ever happen

This sudden little depression when you are reading a FanFiction and you look around to your reality and realize "this never gonna happen"

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hey! i hope you’re having a good new year! i didn’t have the best holiday season, so i was just wondering if you could do joe quinn x reader on christmas or new years? or if possible reader with seasonal depression?

Loved

Joe Quinn x Reader

Summary: your boyfriend has immense amount of love for you

Warnings: fluff / angst, mentions of depression, does not say what holiday is being celebrated or the gender of reader.

Note: i’m so sorry to you and to anyone who had a rough holiday season, i did aswell and i would’ve killed for someone to say these things to me over the past few weeks. Hope the rest of everyone’s year is filled with love ❤️

NONE OF THIS IS PROOF READ IM LAZY

The holiday season was always hard for you, every year you find yourself sitting in your bed scrolling on your phone looking at everyone’s holiday pictures. Reminding you that your behind everyone in life, but also too ahead in the same way. However this year was different, you had joe. He’s the light of your life and the best thing that’s ever happend to you.

But over the holiday season you couldn’t scratch the feeling that you’ve been ruining it for him. The holidays were his favourite time of year and you haven’t exactly had time to share with him how you feel about this time of year. It wasn’t his fault, you just care for him so much. Going to every event, every dinner, every party with a smile plastered on your face hoping to not ruin this moment for your boyfirend

You felt like you were hiding it nicely, never stopping a smile, starting conversations with people, and playing the perfect part. But your boyfriend could see straight through your facade, every time you would slowly dissociate yourself when people would start talking about certain things. his heart ached at the sight of this but he wasint exactly sure how to have this conversation, he didint want you to fully shut him out but he also wanted you to know he cared for you and wanted to help you.

it was new year’s eve and you were getting ready to go to one of joe’s friends party. ask you looked at yourself in the mirror you feslt the exhaustion that crept up onto you from the season, feeling drained and in need of laying down. But on queue Joseph walked into the room, you straightened your posture out and went back to clasping your necklace. Joe knew right when he walked in you weren’t okay, and today was the day he would say something.

“Sweetheart, can you come sit on the bed with me” he said softly, you took note of how he hadn’t started getting ready. “i need you to know that i care about you and that you are in such a safe space when your with me right?” he said with almost a worried look. “yeah of course babe”. you said with a smile, but he couldint shake the feeling thag more was going on. “How about me and you just spend new years together, we can relax, do anything you want and just spend time with eachother, no one else no distractions”. “what! no” you said with almost a fear in your eyes. joseph gave a confused look trying to see i side your mind.

this is something your boyfriend wanted something important to him, but now that you aren’t going to his friends party their all gonna think that it’s your fault because if it wasint for you joseph wouldint come. Your chin quivered quick as you shit your head down releasing everything in a huge eruption. tears streaming down your face as you let every emotion from the past couple of weeks consume you. Your boyfriends heart shattered at the sight of this, because he didint know what was happening or how to get you to tell him. He wrapped his arms around you and pulled you into his chest, trying to make you feel grounded so you knew he wasint going anywhere

He rubbed your back in small patterns and tried to steady your breathing. “look at me” you glanced up at his freshly shaven smooth face. “It’s not your fault, you can’t control how you feel during this time of year and it’s selfish of me that i didn’t say anything sooner about how you’ve been feeling. That’s why i suggested about tonight, spending the new year with my amazing partner, i couldn’t ask for a more amazing person that i get to share my life with, your always there every step of the way and you must know that you are what leads me to every step of my life. Everything is for you and i love you with everything in me”.

You looked at him in awe, he cared, he listened , your worries of showing your true emotions melted away as you truly realized how important and loved this man made you feel. He placed his tender hands on your cheek and gave you a soft kiss on your forehead and continued to keep rocking you back and forth, easing you out from your stress.

[tastefuleternallove]

Hi!

I hope everyone’s having a good new year

i just wanted to say that my inbox is open for any requests, and i’ll make a post about who i write for

but also that you are welcome to request things to happen in my underneath the roman sun series, i want your guys input on stuff you wish to happen in it :) ❤️❤️

Much love - A

[tastefuleternallove]

Beneath the Roman Sun

Part I

Parings: Geta x Reader

Summary: your one of the woman being show to the emperors of rome

warnings: none

It was a hot summers day when the end of your travels enden. You received and invitation that the two emperors of Rome have taken notice of you and they wished for you, among other royal women across the world to come make their impressions with the emperors. Allowing them to expand their land and rule together.

On your journey you shared a carriage with another women, who was technically your competition however she was actually very kind and you could tell that she was very nervous about this, picking out little details about herself that she hated and making them reasons why she would never be picked by the emperor’s. In your country, it’s extremely frowned upon to look at others and themselves in a negative way, believing that our bodies are capable of so much and we should always be making sure that we are treating it the ways it needs to be.

It pained you to listen to her, because in your eyes you would never even think of those words to say about a human body. You keep quiet though and not too much interest because it’s a sickness and you have more important things on your mind.

If one of the emperors takes a liking to you, you will get married to them which will expand your land and allow you to give more to your people which is something you so dearly want.

The chariot stops quicker than you expected pulling you out of your thoughts and you look out the window to see all sports of marble and gold, the most shiniest things you’ve seen in your whole entire life, much more luxurious then your palace back home.

You get out of the chariot first which puts you next in line to make your entrance into the palace. You take a a deep breath trying to take in all your confidence but there’s a crack in your facade. You’ve heard all the stories about these men, these emperors. You know that Caracalla has a taste for blood, you wince at the thought of that knowing that if you do slip up and make one wrong move with him that he will have your head.

The soldiers around you lead you up to the entrence, you listen and wait for your name to be called and you walk into the room. Vines and gold twirl around the columns that you stand symmetrically in between, taking in the room and everyone in it. You meet eyes with a familiar face, a man with brown hair and a beard who stands beside the brothers, the man who came to inform you of the emperors request all those days ago.

You continue to walk closer to the men keeping your chin up as you walk past all of the soldiers and staff. Once you arrive close to them you bow in their honour, you notice that the these men are very different. You’ve heard your stories about caracalla and you can see how he looks at you, with hunger in an animalistic way, but as your gaze leads over to Geta you notice how he looks at you with interest, infatuation and almost even respect.

Caracalla goes to speak but Geta stands up cutting him off in confusion “princess” he reaches his hand out for yours giving it a tender kiss as he looks up at you. Caracalla makes a noise in annoyance, looking like he’s seeing red with fury about how his brother is about to take something from him again. The soldiers speak before Caracalla lets his anger out signalling that the next woman is ready to be introduced. A young woman comes up to you and brings you away

The woman leads you to the baths silently. You find comfort in her silence just looking around the palace as she leads the way, You step into the bath and let yourself soak, feeling all the pain from your journey start to slip away. You get lost in your thoughts thinking back to earlier, the difference between the brothers demeanour towards you. How is it that these two men are from the same woman but are very un alike.

However all that you can think about was the warmth of Geta’s lips when they met your hand.