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so happy to know I wasn’t the only one to find Love, Death, +Robots gross and misogynistic

I think it oughta be addressed more than porn isn't the only form of media that culturally conditions people to find violence against women sexy (I say people instead of men because this also plays a role in women being aroused by being brutalized as well as conditioning men to find violence against women sexy)

And one of the main forms of media guilty of this is a lot of violent media includes sexualized violence against women. It's important to note the difference between sexual violence and sexualized violence. Sexual violence is another way of saying sexual assault, but sexualized violence is when media makes violence against women sexy such as by having a mostly or in some cases completely nude young and conventionally attractive woman gored with a machete or something of that nature. A lot of older slasher films from the 70's and 80's are especially guilty of this. And a lot of violent video games predominantly marketed towards men also tend to include heavily sexualized violence against women, especially older games.

It's more prominent in older forms of media, arguably the reason it was so popular in the 70's and 80's was a cultural backlash to second wave feminism and men having revenge fantasies against women's growing power and independence in society. But newer media coming out today and in recent years still has it. I had to stop watching Netflix's Love, Death, + Robots because there was so much sexualized violence against women in it. And the new horror movie about Winnie the Pooh "Blood and Honey" that's coming out this year also features gorey violence against sexually objectified bikini clad women. And of course arguably the most popular show of our time, Game of Thrones, is just littered with sexualized and gazey scenes of women being assaulted.

And the thing is ofc mainstream libfems are quiet about this and gleefully promote this media as cool and fun without mentioning the misogyny of the sexualized violence it contains.

Goes to show even if you avoid porn our culture is still shoving the sexualization of violence against women at us from so many angles. Is it even possible to avoid if it's in so many of the most popular shows, movies, and video games? How can parents raise children without them being sexually conditioned to be aroused by violence against women when it's everywhere even if you can keep porn away from your kid?

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no new show withdrawal

So I’ve been a tv and internet addict pretty much my whole life. I’m pretty emotionally dependent on tv for distraction and fake social company since I’m such a loner, and I’m well aware of it.

Most of the time this is nbd, I’m pretty sure there are LOTS of people like me. The problem is, I’m a picky bitch, and I finally ran out of stuff to watch that fits my very narrow preference. Now I feel like there’s nothing to keep my attention away from the darkness

Part of the problem is that everything is OLD. I was just on a deep nostalgia bender, and before that the shows I’d been following for years pretty much all ended. All those quirky heart-felt animated series of the 2010s are finally over and their spin-offs done. The golden era of animated comedy is also over - the big ones like South Park, Family Guy, and Simpsons have been past their prime for a decade and their creators are clearly burnt out.

The problem is there seems to be no replacements. I’m sure it’s something to do with the algorithms helping dictate what gets made and the increasing financial pressures on these platforms to turn out guaranteed profits and rewatches. But the number of new comedies is plummeting - it isn’t just my imagination. There’s way more “dark comedies” and the wholesome ones don’t seem to exist. We have gritty, real, twisted.

My brain is so bored of rewatching the old stuff, too. I keep blogging about it but it’s really freaking me out that I’ve kind of stuck my head out of my little proverbial box I live in for fresh air only to find... there’s no more fresh air? Or only tiny gasps?

I even hopped on my old facebook account to see if people were posting about new shows and ... nothing.

I honestly think it’s increasing the sense of ennui everyone is feeling. TV is a necessary cultural campfire and there’s nothing wrong with that - storytelling has been our literal campfire culture since the most ancient of times. What’s going to happen to us in the future, if we lose our ability to tell new stories? The old ones won’t work for long, we get bored, we need fresh stories, that’s why we’ve always continued to invent new ones.

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Why I love and hated the Broad City Finale

SPOILERS AHEAD!

Broad City was a wonderful, rare show about female friendship with raunchy comedy that still maintained a sweet wholesomeness.

The series finale was bittersweet, but I would say it was more bitter than anything, at least for me. Abbi’s decision to leave New York to do art and grow makes perfect sense. Ilana’s decision to stay in New York where she’s happy also makes sense. Seeing them part ways was so painful.

But what does that say about modern values around the life decisions we make? Abbi and Ilana both admit they might not necessarily want children or families. Their own parents will age and die. They have no friends but each other.

So what choice are they left with? Compromising their individualism for their relationship with each other? Fair enough. And as we see, individualism wins.

But was this a good choice? Are they both better off and happier, are they going to form another friendship as close and reliable as the one they left behind? Is a life of professional fulfillment worth the loneliness and distance?

I don’t think it is. I think this was a bad decision, and a bad message. Every famous loner, every philosopher humanity exalts, has come to the same conclusion - humans need other humans. We are no one without each other. I do think that’s only possible people are free to grow and try new things. But I don’t think it should be pursued at the cost of our relationships in the long run.

The message that there will be continuity of what they had in the friendships of other New York 20-somethings in a transitional period of their lives is sweet and beautiful. The truth is that the only comfort in change and death is that new things may be born. But did Ilana and Abbi’s friendship really have to become a long-distance remnant of its former self?

I feel like, rather than finding ways to find deeper meaning in life and attain true love and contentment, we are urged to go on these steps through life. You can just have fun forever, you have to have a career. Friendships die so you better get a family otherwise you’ll be alone. Money and possessions are necessary so keep organizing your life around them.

This series finale left me in a lot of pain.

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Daria withdrawal

Binging Daria for the first time since I was a preteen was a wonderful experience. It hit the spot like no other show has in years. But after two play-throughs of the entire series and both movies, I started feeling that sad hollowness that there’s no more of this world.

I went searching for anything left related to Daria (montages of mtv cameos, behind-the-scenes stuff, even youtube analysis which I never seek out) and it was all surprisingly good stuff.

There's definitely a void where shows like that one should be. Not just because Daria represented an under-represented demographic, but because it was staunchly critical of the system we live in.

There's been other shows like that, but they're so few and far between. And so many shows in the newer generations of "realness and cultural critique", there's zero coziness like Daria had.

Maybe it's because Daria was still so low stakes - set in high school and Daria can go running to her mother when things go really wrong, who provides an almost perfect role-model and moral compass.

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i guess i’m gonna discontinue using this as a personal diary since my neocities one is so much fun. not sure what to do with it now but I don’t reeeeeaally want to delete it.

HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

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i think i’m using this platform wrong. from what i can tell, this SHOULD be the place to find more people with common interests

it seems one of the most likely platforms for women in my age demographic to end up on besides facebook.

but i can find ways to find people who hate the same things as me politically, like (some) of the same shows, but i don’t know how to like... get to know the people themselves on this platform? it seems like so many profiles have little to no info on them, it’s just a feed of random pictures with no explanations

maybe i should dig more? neocities seemed like just weird surface stuff at first. granted, even the better websites i found are hard to get into

well my heart did get it’s little wish and that guy on neocities followed me back. i keep thinking of sending him a message

ugh. i just keep coming back to the same conclusion over and over again that the majority of people my age probably had kids and are busy with them. like, if i want friends my own age i need to wait another 10-15 years for their kids to grow up and fuck off. where are my fellow anti-natalists?!

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sleep is coming for me but I DON’T WANT TO GO TO BED YET

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still can’t stop compulsively checking social media over and over

it’s funny considering i’ve been clean for years at a stretch, then i’ll get just lonely and bored enough, and BAM i’m in the whole. powerscrolling every platform until i literally start running out of content

of course it’s blowing out my dopamine receptors and i keep going back for more and more. and i’m still lonely so it’s like being near a crowd of voices, except i get to pick out the interesting ones

god this shit is so bad for our minds and souls

BITCH GO FOR A WALK

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OH MY GOD you can’t get on instagram with a vpn

i think they officially defeated me

*charlie brown scream*

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I know it’s mostly the dopamine addiction, but I miss my instagram and I’m really sad it’s gone

I should really phoenix it tonight

THE WORLD NEEDS ME(MES)

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such a bummer to realize most people my age aren’t doing fun things because they’re so busy between work and kids that they literally don’t have time for anything else, except a little tv and other escapism

having kids a trap ladies!!! don’t do it because you are bored and everyone else is doing it!!

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we don’t belong. we do not have a place in this system.

we are told we will have a life. males are told they will live under the boot of other men, but they will have a woman. women are told to just worry about taking care of a man and sticking by his side.

this deal has been a terrible one for women. it’s also been a pretty bad one for men. they recognize the ways they suffer, but they have a hard time blaming the actual guilty party (other men) so the blame circles back to the easier target - women. the males don’t mind the boot on their neck, but they DO mind not having access to their promised female.

this causes a split by “unsuccessful” men into two groups - those who never get laid, and those who become that which they wish to possess (they become trans, though a minority are gay males wishing to escape their own homophobia)

Females, of course, do not desire this deal. Those who attempt to escape have two roads - radical feminism, or becoming trans men.

the human condition is to want love. we have a compelling instinct to breed and couple. incels do not understand how they have failed. they think that nature cheated them by not allowing them to be chads (warrior archetype) and get “stacys” (stereotypical feminine women). but that was never their destiny. they are already born desirable - they are the sensitive lover/artist archetype, most have just not come into their own. but the pain of life and reality warps them, like the Elves of middle earth being twisted and mutilated into orcs. they cannot face themselves, they cannot see any other path than the one they feel was closed to them. or they simply become locked in a negative mental feedback loop with no help out.

of course, one of the failings of radical feminism is that not only does it NOT help women to see this, many branches actively discourage attempts to rehabilitate or even interact with males. and maybe the philosophy is right, maybe even if i wanted to help others see the truth, it would waste far more time than it would be worth spending. it feels like in our own way, radfems are also just punching the weakest target by lashing out an incels.

and yet... sigh

I don’t know what to do of the gender specials. they seem lost to a cult. they were one of us, of that i have no doubt. but trans ideology is a potent force within the mind, like religion. i think they might be able to willingly leave the maw, but i dont know if anyone can go in and save them. god knows the radfems already try on every platform. they also receive approval from authority and mainstream representation. as long as they play along with that game, and help reinforce the notion that womanhood is submissive domestic behaviors, they will stay supported and endorsed.

we don’t try with the incels, though. we don’t even engage. same with them on the other side. we give each other disgusted looks across the ideological room and never speak. i wish we would.

but one of the issues with incels is that their entire world becomes the very things that poison their thoughts. even if they desire to be emancipated from the darkness in their minds, where do they go? anime, most mainstream media and culture, most other males, porn, are all deeply infected with the same misogynistic mindset that traps incels.

incels share radfem views on trans people - that they are confused and in need of treatment - as well as holding hatred for the system we are in. but they understandably place the blame on the easier victim to punish. most humans do. rather than question a system that encourages them to dominate a subordinate and force their submission, they could have one that encourages true equal love.

both radfems and incels have a reaction to patriarchy that teaches us to hate one another, even though i think we ultimately need one another to take the system down. both communities are fun yet miserable. i wonder if any of them have ever thought to themselves that they would viciously fight for their own rights if they had been born female instead of male. sadly, i doubt it. i’m sure pornography has done a more than adequate job programming them to see us as subhuman. and thus is the crux of the issue. they have literally be conditioned against being able to love us.

it is so sad to think that the more sensitive and intelligent of the millenials and later generations that, due to their very nature of being more perceptive and having higher emotional acuity, resist what helps them to fit in and thus fall into lives of loneliness and lack of fulfillment. pitted against our potential soul mates, ugly in each other’s eyes, hating one another with a burning that should be reserved for the system itself and those who rule it.

i think if radblr saw this post they’d collectively vomit then shoot me

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time for me to finally tear myself away from the glowy screen, both beloved and terrible, to be unconscious and wake up for a (probably) terrible day at work

i know it’s stupid, but i hope the guy i followed on neocities adds me back. i want to get to know him.

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upon further reflection, what has happened [with diaries and personal blogs transforming into special interest blogs] is that we’ve been encouraged to become reflections to brands and products rather than actual people

you can only exist as a person on the microblog platforms like instagram and twitter. or the ultra-invasive facebook. but all of these are still overflowing with more opinions than posts about people’s lives now

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such a funny thing. I’m reading this diary, and it feels homey. It feels more familiar, like there is soul and substance behind it.

it’s an incel.

so, i have this theory i started writing in a previous entry and deleted.

i think incels, radfems, and gender specials are part of a tribe that was split and divided. all three are deeply unhappy under patriarchy and do not fit in. i keep trying to explain it but i don’t think i can right now

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I’m also noticing, as I’m reading this diary, that there’s a lot less charm in it than there was in old internet writing. I’ve been reading old websites and blogs and the difference is so stark it’s actually a little painful, like right in my heart.

There was this silly, fun, unembarrassed quality to earlier writing. I think this holds true for even normal literature, magazines, and news. Everything is so goddamn utilitarian in how we right now. And cold. And mean.

Like i’m so happy to have found this online diary, and yet, it feels so cold and devoid of personality. it reminds me a lot of what i’ve made, which felt like i did a good job creating it because it was nice and neutral while technically interesting. but it’s sanitized and lacking soul.

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reading something like an online diary i found linked from neocities. it resonates with what i’ve been feeling.

it’s written by someone taking a look back at the evolution of online communities. personal websites and blogger started out with tons of personal online diaries and communities based around people maintaining theirs. they mention at some point it started becoming considered “vain” (and, as i remember, even juvenile) to maintain a blog about one’s personal life. i felt the same way.

this is a reflection of the dark turn culture was taking. sure, it can be considered vain to talk about one’s self if it goes on to an extreme. but i think it’s more indicative of the fact that people just stopped giving a shit to know about the personal detail’s of other people’s lives.

that’s what i’m finding on the internet now. i’ve been on this search for personal websites and i’m weirdly coming up short. i’ll go to website indexes and find no sections for personal pages or diaries. we can blog about things but not ourselves.

this was fun at first but i feel like it’s reached a hollow feeling (again, i know the problem is i need to reinvest in real relationships and stop trying to suck my fill out of online communities).

it’s normal to talk about oneself and be interested in the lives of others. it’s human. we should. i’d love to read a real day-to-day diary from another person again. or see another personal website that’s more than what’s essentially a professional portfolio.