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Really wish I never let myself go like that.

I am pro-r3cov3ry for others, just not for myself.

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every time you think you’re hungry, take a good look at yourself in the mirror.

does that look like someone that needs to eat?

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Binge=feel miserable=nothing changes

Fast=feel miserable =everything changes

chose your miserable.

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pls flood my inbox or dms with meanspo I need it REAL bad..

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anyone have any tips on not binging after a fast? i didn't go too much over my zero net limit but i still went over and i was so full i threw up without trying🥲

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broke my fast early (38h) for school lunch thar wasn't even good but luckily i burned double the calories in my tennis match! im also still eating dinner tn bc i have the SAT tmr, but ill make sure to keep it under the extra 500 i burned so it's net zero

i am however very anxious for tomorrow bc my bf wants to take me to taco bell 😭 im just going to get the lowest cal thing on the menu and eat like a quarter of it so he can't be omd for not eating

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back to 107, i will never forgive myself for losing control when i was so close to my gw and gaining 7lbs

when my lw is now my gw🥀🥀🥀

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“recovery!” i say as i binge every day for two weeks, gain ten pounds, and immediately relapse harder than before and hate myself because of the weight i gained

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No because when did this turn into a low-key binge ed..

Take me back to when I was losing 11lbs in 3.5 days and could fast a whole week no complaints 🙏😖🙏

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tried to recover but i honestly miss being sick so much. i miss the feeling of my stomach rumbling and being empty, having anything at all in there makes me feel so heavy and sluggish. i miss the feeling of control and precision and superiority and ofc I miss my lw more than anything. im going to fast for as long as I can starting tmr and going for a minimum of 4 days

hold me accountable!! xoxo

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the aftermath of the “fuck this ed” mindset is devastating.

i just binged so hard 😭

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how to undo +6lbs from a 3 day binge no glue no borax

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now why did i binge the night before the dance .... ikyfl

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they were right, fat DOES last longer than flavor…

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why is one (1) slice of pepper jack cheese 100 calories like what on EARTHHH

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had an "eat normal" day today to prep for another long fast and to shift suspicion from my family (ab 1100-1200 cals id estimate, burned ~600 at practice)

the big takeaway is my dress for a dance on saturday came today, was too big around the waist and you could see my chest bones I'm elated

trying 2b normal ab the amount of food i ate td i feel like such a pig tbh, and im even more nervous for tmr bc my sister is visiting for spring break and will inevitably bring and offer a bunch of yummy food but for now im fasting until i eat dinner on the night of the dance