I've done it
What if I was a bit more careful?
Why couldn't I be more truthful?
Why do I always took the best of me?
How could I be so mean?
Everybody knows and
Everybody was hurt by it
Because my mixed feelings
took the best of me.
I understood what I did wrong
but never can make it whole again
I never can take back those feelings
I never can take the hatred back
My feelings
Why couldn't I control them?
They were just too blatant
So hard to ignore
Like a loose cannon
I was hunting for revenge
And what did really happen?
Did I achieve something with this?
No! I came back empty-handed.
I cry about the way it happened
I cried so many nights and days
I can never make it right again
There are so many things I do regret
and If I could change them, i would do it.
Because I had all the time and I did nothing with it
I never deserved myself,
I never deserved what I've done to me.
What I've done to her.
I can never take that words back again,
I can only scream for an hour, in four
meaningless walls, that took the best of me.
I am focusing more
on history and all the things
i have missed and all the things
i did, they were wrong and
sometimes I think to myself
How can I move on?
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It is what it is
You waking up
You feel alone
Your best friend,
is not their for you
You see your face
The one who appreciates you
Go take care for yourself
cause no one else will.
You feel the tension
of your desperation
and you feel tired
and bruised too
But you don't see scratches
You don’t feel hurt
People just care,
when you know them,
And even on the most lonely and cold day
There will be no one waiting for you.
That's just how it is.
But It's not your fault.
No one told you, you were invisible.
And that's what you are, when you isolate
yourself and feel miserable.
Believe me It is what it is,
Sometimes you're invisible
When you don't take action
there will be no reaction
That's just how it is.
You are not boring
You are not ugly
You are not awkward
They just don't see you
They are not afraid
They are not hateful
They are not ignorrant
They just don't see you
You're blending in with the scenerey,
You become a part of their identity,
No Matter what you do, they just don't see you
But maybe you are afraid of them,
But I'm sorry to say this
They only will take action when you do too.
There was no one to talk to
There was no one I am not afraid of
And if you don't start a conversation
you will never have one.
And even on the lonelist and dead place
you're the only one seeing yourself.
you may get a drink
you may sit their and think.
but you still didn't fit in.
But It's not your fault.
No one told you.
You just were invisible
And that's what you are,
when you're afraid to talk to someone
And even on the most lonely dead place
There will no one waiting for you, that's
just how it is. But It's not your fault.
No one told you, You just were invisible.
And that's what you are, when you isolate
yourself and feel miserable.
there is nothing to gain
when you don't take action
Believe me It is what it is,
Sometimes you're invisible
When you don't take action
there will be no reaction
That's just how it is.
Believe me It is what it is,
Sometimes you're invisible
When you don't take action
there will be no reaction
That's just how it is.
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I haven’t spoken in weeks
I don't remember what I used to say
Because nothing ever happens to me
As times passes by I kept my distance
I'm so ashamed to even listen
I bottled it all up like an angry child
Not understanding: Why Why Why
I stare at people without being noticed,
It seems I am too hard to deal with.
Fuck those guys i wanna sing, because no one's ever talking to me
Fuck the world cause I can't do it, my pretty face won't do it
Give me something that I can feel, at least those guitar strings are speaking to me. I may be an outcast and even pale but at least they can't take that away from me.
I am boring as hell and I am soft
And I haven’t spoken in Weeeeeeeks
I’m pretty sure my emotions won’t grow
Cause I don’t seem to remember how
I think about it at least a dozen times
And asking myself Why Why Why
Can Somebody please release me from this
I’m not that hard to dealt with
I start to nagging like an old man
on things that keep me waiting
Fuck those guys I wanna sing, because no one’s ever talking to me
Fuck the world cause I can’t do it, my pretty face won’t do it
Give me something that I can feel, Maybe you will speak to me
I may be a loser but I can play, and you won’t take that away from me
I am weak and I suck at talking
And I haven’t spoken in Weeeeeeeks
I cut short of my emotions
I keep standing without any motion
Everyone else having a blast
and I keep lacking fun and can’t grasp
Why they are so full of emotions?
I’m standing here without any motion
Everybody is giving it all
What the fuck am I doing here?
I keep feeling stupider and stupider
Because I can’t feel anything
And It keeps getting harder and harder
To actually feel something
And I feel stupider and stupider
Because I feel nothing
And It keeps getting harder and harder
to actually feel something
And I feel stupider and stupider
Because I can’t feel anything
And It keeps getting harder and harder
to actually feel something
And I feel stupider and stupider
Because I can’t feel anything
And It keeps getting Harder and Harder
To actually feel something.
I am pathetic and I hide from People
And I Haven’t Spoken in Weeeeeeeks
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Was du tun kannst
Und es ging schon einmal schief
und ich hab kein Plan mehr von,
aber das ist mir ganz egal, denn
ich weiß auf was es ankommt.
Bin zwar richtig schlecht im
schätzen, doch verschätzen,
das kann ich gut. Ich muss
noch viel mehr leisten können,
nur fehlt mir manchmal der Mut.
Doch ganz egal wo du jetzt stehst,
ich werd immer bei dir sein.
Ich hoff, dass du mich siehst.
und ich fange endlich an.
Ich werd noch viel mehr leisten.
Werd mir noch jahrelang den Arsch aufreißen.
Wer nicht kämpft hat schon verloren
Das weiß ich mittlerweile schon
Ich bin jetzt endlich beruigt, denn
ich weiß wie der Hase läuft.
Ziehe einen Schlussstrich
und fang wieder an von vorn.
Doch das beunruigt mich nicht mehr.
Weiß jetzt wie es um micht steht,
kenne einen kleinen Satz, der mir sagt
wie es weiter geht.
Ich werd noch viel mehr leisten
Ich habe jahrelang gepennt
Jetzt wo ich es weiß, ist
das ein Kinderspiel
Alles ganz einfach, einfach mehr
den Arsch aufreißen, siehst du mich
verlieren, reiße ich mich wieder zam.
Ich werd noch viel mehr leisten
Ganz anders als die Meisten
Diese Welt ist richtig hart.
Deshalb darf man keine Schwäche zeigen
Werd noch viel viel viel mehr leisten
Ganz egal was auch passiert
Sich jeden Tag den Arsch aufreißen,
dabei kann man nicht verlieren.
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Braces
I feel so old and yet I look so young
I have the most fun
I'm a failure and I'm still in school
what the fuck am I doing here?
And no, i don't have braces.
And the girl next to me is 16
and the actual girl my age is 26
and i still look like I could be her
valentine and my age says I'm her dad.
What the fuck is wrong with me?
The girl who looks as old as me
is actually younger than I thought
What the fuck is wrong with me?
the older woman which I think is too
old for me, is actually my age
And she thinks I could be her younger lover
maybe when I'm turning 30
Girls will understand
And I lie because no one is my age
so young yet so old.
and so confused of what kind of girl I like.
It confuses me, standing next to a woman my age, everytime
and it feels so strange when a girl from school wants to be
by my side, Maybe she thinks, yeah he's a handsome boy
but not a man, oh no, I look like I have been to school
and always failed
I'm a failure and I'm still in school
what the fuck am I doing here?
And no, I don't have braces.
And the girl next to me is 16
and the actual girl my age is 26
and I still look like i could be her
valentine and my age says I'm her dad.
What the fuck is wrong with me?
The Girl who looks as old as me
is actually younger than I thought
What the fuck is wrong with me?
the older woman which I think is
too old for me, is actually my age
And she thinks i could be her younger lover
maybe when I'm turning 30
Girls will understand
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