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I was born gay, did not choose to be. I am open about it, but I do not flaunt it. I had the courage to come out 2 and a half years ago. That decision was one of the most biggest mistakes of my life. I lost a majority of my friends and I feel like my family is ashamed of me. I grew up in a small country town in Texas, a very religious town. I always knew I was different, but coming out during that time would not have been a good thing because how homophobic that town is. I was always bullied because everyone knew that i was different. I dealt with depression through middle and high school, hell I'm still dealing with it today and I'm 25 years old! There are days that I think about what my life would be like if I never came out. I deal with a lot of issues because of how depressed I am for being gay, but I do not show it. I have issues with alcohol, self injury, stress, anxiety and some other shit. I have attempted suicide several times because of this, but they're always a failure. I honestly don't know which direction my life will be in the next couple years People say "it gets better", but when will it get better? I finally come to terms this life is no longer for me.