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That HPD feel when you're trans masc and have extreme top dysphoria but refuse to wear a binder because if you do people won't look at your boobs

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that hpd feel when you have a perfectly sized group that you can control and dominate conversations within, but they have the AUDACITY to bring their best friend along

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June 4th is Histrionic Appreciation Day

Last but not least, today is about HPD, which is a pretty underrepresented disorder, exemplified in part by my difficulty finding much for this day.

I couldn’t find any histrionic YouTubers but here’s Ryan Liberty’s video! (You may remember him from NPD day.) 

And some wonderful histrionics on tumblr:

@mysproutbeeps @princesssluna @thathpdfeel

This is by no means a complete list so feel free to comment, reblog, or send me asks with promos!

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Would you say that disliking going to other people's birthday parties because you know someone else is the center of attention is a very hpd thing to hate?

YES

I relate to this so much. It almost physically hurts to see someone getting more attention than me.

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Thpdfw you download tinder just because you like the attention but have no real intention to ‘go out’ with people you don’t know cause you scared

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How would you describe romanticizing a mental illness? & Is it bad to romanticize my own mental illness(es)?

It's really hard to define when it comes to personality disorders, as it is a huge part of who you are and how your brain works. Symptoms won't go away, even with medication. So I'm not sure how to define it in this context.

I wouldn't necessarily consider it "bad", but it might be something you want to examine more deeply within yourself. Ask yourself why you feel this way, and why you're romanticising it. It's really hard to have that insight, but not impossible to learn.

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Do all people with hpd struggle with lying?

I can't speak for everyone as it's not part of the criteria, but I know I have that issue. It used to be a lot worse before I started therapy, so it's definitely something you can improve on with the right resouces.

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That hpdfeel when you barely go outside on your period because even pointless flirting when you can't have sex feels weird

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Since Harley Quinn has hpd, is it weird that I want to pretty much BE her? (I loved her even before I knew abt that). Shes not the only character/person I try to be like. I try to be like celebs + characters. I change myself to be them (act like them + wear something they’d wear, try thinking like them, pretend I’m them, etc). Is that weird? Does anyone else do this? Is this part of hpd? I mean, I think I do this because idk who I really am. I feel like I have no sense of self a lot of times?

Not having a stable sense of self and how you act with that is part of the diagnostic criteria. So you're definitely not the only one! I've done this a lot throughout my life, and I still struggle to define myself without taking on a whole other identity just for that person. Followers, what's your experience here?

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Is this blog active?

It is now. bless quarentine i guess?

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that hpdfw you’ve started looking into the disorder and oh, oh shit and it’s very unknown and gets a lot of hate and a bad rep and everyone online says you’ll cheat, so now you’re worried you’ll never find love and you’ll always cheat no matter what and that the love and attention you so desperately crave will forever be out of reach, explicitly because you crave it, and everyone will see you as eccentric and unlovable, so you hope you don’t have it but you probably do and should die,F

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i know that with BPD you can have an FP, and with PPD you can have a safe person- is there a similar term for HPD?

I'm actually not sure! I've never heard of one. I know with NPD its chosen person. I guess you could use any of those terms? Followers, opinions or responses?

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Finally going through the inbox on this account. Sorry about not posting them sooner, I forgot about this account for like 4 years lmao.

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When you have no sense of self and a fluctuating sexuality so instead of always being pan you're sometimes lesbian or asexual but still flirting with men and engaging in sexual acts with them because it's so easy to get attention and validation from them and then feeling disgusted with yourself afterwards because you're such a fucking whore that you'd fuck a man even when you're not sexually attracted to them in any way 🤢🤮

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that hpd feel when your reputation is completely tarnished, so you literally up and left to start a new life in australia

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me: doesn’t feel like i get enough attention online for a few days

me: “guess it’s time to leave all my group chats and delete all my accounts lmao i’m healthy and don’t need social media”

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when someone wishes they could be as confident as you, but little did they know i'm dying on the inside about how insecure i am and how much i actually fucking hate myself but lol Okay