thatsysfeelwhen

[thatsysfeelwhen]

Mate, you don't have DID, you're 100% mentally ill, I've seen it firsthand, but what you don't have DID, you have dissociative amnesia and strong mood episodes. DID is REAL, but you're a pathological liar who uses their OCs as crutches to act terribly to people. You went to a psychologist, they told you that you don't have dissociative identity disorder, and yet you persist.

You DO have severe trauma, and you DO have amnesia, and you DO have severe mood episodes, but you're incorrect with your self DX. You used the idea that you were more than one person to shelf the blame, you used it for sympathy, and for attention.

You clearly like roleplaying, you just like roleplay, and that's okay, you're not LITERALLY the characters you make. It's okay to just roleplay.

Please do not do this anymore, seek professional help. There are people who care about you, but this is very very very unhealthy.

whoever sent me this just dm me on discord rather than TUMBLR ASKS. @.monachopsis13

[thatsysfeelwhen]

Sigma sigma boy sigma

god, mascha, youre so gay.

/silly

[thatsysfeelwhen]

tsfw: you randomly discover 1 alter is actually 2 alters that just fronted together coincidentally at first

and you only discover that because one of said alters says, "i'm not that guy!"

GOD THATS SO REAL. THIS HAS HAPPENED TOO MANY TIMES PLEASE STOP THE SUBSYSTEMS.

[thatsysfeelwhen]

thank you!-G

no worries! its scary to discover you might have a dissociative disorder. please make sure to take your time and not worry about how other systems present as every system is different.

[thatsysfeelwhen]

looking into osdd to see if i have it, if you’re willing to give advice(no pressure), is there anything specific i should be looking for or focusing on? i really don’t know a lot about it so i’m just goin round asking people who look like they know what they’re doin -G

i recommend meditation and symptom tracking. if you think you have alters you can use apps like octocon (android, ios has yet to release) or simply plural (ios and android) journaling is also helpful.

i also recommend doing research: this is a google doc with links

also PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE DO NOT GO ONTO DISBOARD TO FIND SYSTEM SERVERS. it seems tempting but please wait until you have a handle on your system as they can be very gatekeepy, if you want to interact with more systems tumblr is usually tamer and i like the r/did and r/osdd reddits.

there are some servers i know which are nice and wont gatekeep things much:

this one i own (its 18+ but sfw)

this one is the all ages system server

[thatsysfeelwhen]

tsfw: am i really a system or is it something else

(sometimes featuring me ignoring the grosns and yelling from headmates as they have to deal with this bs once more)

- Dylyn ✨ he/any | @thebluestreetboys

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tsfw: everything is so, so quiet and i miss my headmates </3

even though ive never had real internal communication, i still miss the feeling of not being alone

[thatsysfeelwhen]

tsfw you all Walk Differently

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[thatsysfeelwhen]

Reminder that DID, like every mental illness, is on a very wide spectrum. There's such a strange emphasis in the community on stuff being a "DID thing" vs an "OSDD thing" or it's "P-DID actually". People get wrapped up trying to catagorize themselves when it really actually has no tangible benefit to you. Therapists make the distinction to formulate their therapy approach, but to you, the system, it makes no difference. Going "oh but I just have OSDD not DID" does nothing to help you cope, recover, or process your symptoms. Your symptoms are your symptoms regardless of if they're following these arbitrary lines in the sand. You and your system should be focused on healing, not on what checkbox in a book you fit best.

[thatsysfeelwhen]

tsfw: people should stop fakeclaiming; it harms people more than helping them.

[thatsysfeelwhen]

tsfw you have so many head mates in a system that you lost track..

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tsfw: chat im so mean for blocking an abuser :(

/s

[thatsysfeelwhen]

ok??? lmao??? idk why its my fault that u were weird with my bf but whatever. ofc u wanna "defend" urself when u were clearly in the wrong.

sorry i didnt immediately forgive you, especially when ure a big part of my trauma over the years.

i was taking time to sort out my feelings but if you have to go all "fuck you" on me then it shows that i shouldnt have forgiven you anyways lmao.

glad this is sorted out

ure not entitled to forgivness when u did the same thing u got mad at luna and vice for doing. just because im not 4 years old doesnt mean i wouldnt still want to b asked for consent before u do that shit??

u know i have sexual trauma, i know u have sexual trauma too. thats why i assumed u wouldnt be petty ab being told ab my feelings on this, tho ig i was wrong.

and i didn't "guilt trip" u if ure convinced i did, im just not in the mood to fight or argue when ure in the wrong, so i said my opinion and if u cant handle it - that's ur fault. literally u have always done this. you always do this. every single time w/o fail. i bring smth up that i have an issue w, ure always pissed bcuz u dont wanna be in the wrong. and i know you didn't bring up anything ab me guilt tripping, but i know that someone probably did since they always do at some point.

u can say "fuck you" and block me and whatever, throw away years of hard work. just know im not gonna forgive u anymore. im not. this is it. this was your last chance. there wont be "i wonder when he'll come back" or "i wonder when we'll talk again." i wont be dming you a year or two from now, and if u try to reach out then im not gonna respond trying to be bestie-bestie with you.

yeah, i'll admit. i've done bad things in the past and i'm sorry i hurt you when i did. but you can never seem to show that same remorse when you've clearly done something wrong. you never wait for me to heal or come to terms with what you did, you always just blame me for feeling like shit when u did something wrong. yeah, when i confronted you, i used a lot of cursing. i was angry. it triggered my ptsd, i felt gross and dirty, and i was upset. im sorry that i've taken days to recover and i'm still not even fully recovered from the situation. however if this is how you want it to end, im fine w it. i can still be happy w/o your friendship.

i didnt want to end our friendship, because u were the only person who went thru all of that horrible shit with me. but, honestly im ok with it because half of the time u were apart of that horrible shit that happened to me.

hope u have a good day or whatever.

lol, get better soon bestie xoxo

stop playing the victim, youre almost a damn adult. you should know better, you selfish prick.

p.s. dont ever contact me again, ill ignore you with no hesitation. i see through your lies and abuse.

[thatsysfeelwhen]

tsfw

wait the host didnt do the simply plural? 😱 like for the 10000th+ time this week? 😱 like cause xyr busy? (busy playing games and talking to friends (xe call that work.)) 😱😱😱😱

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[thatsysfeelwhen]

tsfw you're taking a test and your handwriting ✨️magically✨️ changes to completely different one

too relatable

[thatsysfeelwhen]

tsfw a system tells you your a system (fuck you coco (you know who this is)) /silly

ERM BUSTER YOU ARE SO ERM

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Tsfw

*looks at pk*

I am not learning ALL THAT.

fair enough tbh