the-past-in-words

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I’ll take you messy, I’ll take you clean, I’ll take you sober, or I’ll take you mean. I’ll take you old and everything between. You’re mine, and I’ll take everything.

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What’s done in the dark,

Will always seek light.

Evil deeds plant seeds.

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Your jagged love

Cuts me and I bleed

I’m weakened

Soaked with red stains

But you’ve got

What I need

This love hurts

And I can’t leave

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And just like that

Our future became the past

A distant memory of a chat

That we once had

A dream we shared

A plan we made

Gone when we said goodbye

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I would rather

Burn out in flames

With your light

Beside me

Than smoulder

In the dark

Choking on my pain

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It hurts

Not for the reasons you might think

Even though it would be easy

It’s

Not because we had a fight

Or because we didn’t see a future

It’s

Not because of the things you said

Or because we were broken people

It’s

Not because we said goodbye

Or because we are moving on

It’s

Because I fell in love with you

And I couldn’t say it first

It’s

Because I’ll miss every good morning

And every single goodnight

It’s

Because you always saw me

For who I really am

It’s

Because you always loved me

Even

When I was my own worst enemy

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I could have sworn that this was something,

With the way that we embraced.

But it turns out you were smiling,

At another person’s face.

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You ask me how I’m doing

And I tell you that I’m fine.

Because I don’t know how to tell you

I want to step out of my spine.

Every day is overwhelming

And I keep it all inside.

That every day I’m dying

But I just tell you that I’m fine.

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It is here in the end,

When hearts are broken

And all you see is pain,

That you realize love

Is a battle.

Not to be won,

This battle

Can only be fought.

To hold the line,

To fight for love.

Or to lose it.

And when love is lost,

The battle ends.

You see the battlefield

In new light.

You see the beauty

And all the pain.

And you wish for either

Just so it wouldn’t be over.

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I can’t stop looking for you

In everyone I meet

Even between their thighs

It doesn’t feel like home

The way that you did

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The truth is that

I’m afraid to fall in love again

The chemicals feel great and

It’s so easy

But when they fade

And when I realize you aren’t her

What then?

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I have so many thoughts in my head

Sometimes it’s hard to pick

Which ones deserve to be on paper

And which ones need to die

So that I may live again

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Too good to be true

My smile faded

Just like the memory of you

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I had forgotten what love is

Then I met you

And now where my face once stood

Without emotion

I smile again

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You didn’t like that thing I used to do

Said that it was embarrassing to you

So I hid myself from you

The things I used to do

I became small

And you still left

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My heart searches for you,

My soul yearns to find yours.

But my body craves flesh,

I am a zombie to lustful desire.

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I can see your sorrow

Hiding there behind your smile

A life you try to borrow

Trying to hide it for a while

But scars,

They make you beautiful

Even hidden from the world

It’s the imperfections that I love

That make you special to be held

Your pain has been your beauty

Even when you didn’t see

The hardships you endured

Make you beautiful to me