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Nagito’s Birthday

Nagito's Pov

BEST. DAY. OF. MY. LIFE.

Wanna know why????

"HAJIME LET ME BE MOANA!!!!!!" I half yelled half screamed at Hajime. Today is my birthday, so it is only normal that I can do whatever I want with no restrictions. And that includes wearing that outfit I saw at the party store, which is absolutely a must. We all currently plan to spend the day at our favorite bakery. I'm usually never allowed inside the bakery or any public place for that matter so today is just fantabulous.

"Why are you like this?" Hajime sighed. I think I can get him to let me be Moana.

"Because it's my birthday, after all. So I'm hoping that you'll let me be Moana." I said innocently.

"Fine." Hajime said exasperatedly "You can be Moana."

"Thanks Hajime!" I said while giving him a hug.

"Yeah, yeah." Hajime shrugged "But only this once. We are going to a bakery so as long as you don't get us kicked out.. Again,"

"I won't!" I reassured him, knowing that I probably will.

I usually try to behave but we usually get kicked out. We also usually get kicked out of everything we go to, but at this bakery we try not to. So I instead yell at people in the parking lot and accidentally try to murder Makoto. It's not my fault he's so small. Hajime likes the coffee there so he always tells me to behave. It's not like he's treating me like a child. It's just that I sometimes get carried away and he has to remind me.

I really do try to act like a normal civilian but when you are with a bunch of talented people such as my group, you have to stand out. That being another reason why i'm going to be Moana. Only Hajime doesn't need to know that I already bought the costume a while ago for future use. Now we can start the celebration early.

It definitely wasn't some sort of extravagant party. No we were much too classy for that. We were going to sit in a bakery with me dressed as the one and only Moana.

After my talk with Hajime I quickly ran home to grab the costume. I will be an actual pretty princess. It's only in our group of 7 but I already know that i'm going to be the best dressed for certain.

I approached the bakery to see most of my friends waiting in the parking lot. Shuichi, Kyoko and Kirumi were talking about who knows what, while Kaede and Makoto were having a heated discussion probably about Keeping Up With The Kardashians. It's not that they like the show, they don't really. I guess they like to see how celebrities act and how they easily snap. Hajime and I got out of the car (which he drove, of course) and walked to our friends. I went up to Kaede and Makoto and they didn't even notice me because of their discussion.

"I'm sorry but she was being so fake." Kaede shook her head.

"Of course she was! She was just salty about her dating her ex boyfriend!" Makoto continued ranting. "She wanted to make the other girl feel bad. She also always has temper tantrums just so she can have more camera time. Or they think it's so smart to wear expensive diamond earrings in the ocean and they lose them to have drama in the show. There are people that are dying, Kim."

"I know right!?" Kaede yelled "And you need to catch up on that show where a bunch of brides getting married go crazy."

"I am caught up, thank you very much! I can't believe how people get so wrapped up in getting married! Everything has to be perfect for them while they ignore how their fiance feels. Ugh, I totally think half of the people on Keeping Up With The Kardashians would be like that." Makoto sighed

"Don't even get me started! Kaede ranted "They totally would! Those self centered-"

"Umm guys?" Hajime interrupted. At this point everyone in our friend group stopped talking and were just listening to them for a good five minutes.

"O-oh... Hello Hajime.." Makoto spoke with his face red, just like Kaede's "and Happy birthday to you...NAGITO?!" all the attention went from Kaede and Makoto to me. I'm guessing it's because I'm dressed up as Moana. Makoto, Kaede and Shuichi started figuratively dying while Kyoko looked very concerned.

"Nagito... why might you be dressed as Moana?" Kyoko asked.

"Because Moana's the best and It's my birthday." I said honestly, which caused everyone but Hajime and Kyoko to die even further. Even Kirumi seemed amused.

"I can't even say I'm surprised." Shuichi says between wheezes. They all continued laughing for a good five more minutes before we entered the bakery. We wanted to seems as casual as possible since my costume would bring enough attention already, but seeing how we are all a big mess, that didn't happen. As we were all entering Shuichi tripped on a part of the door and fell, taking Makoto with him. Everyone in the bakery turned to look at Shuichi literally on top of Makoto on the bakery floor while I was in a Moana costume. A lot of people were there, since the bakery had a lot of spots to sit and the food was really good. So many people turned to take photos of this chaotic scene in front of them.

"Ahh, sorry Makoto!" Shuichi apologized while attempting to get back up. Instead of getting up, he tripped on his shoe lace and fell back on top of Makoto. As this was happening, someone was trying to get in so instead of walking by they tripped over Shuichi and fell as well.

"Umm Shuchi? Are you okay?" Makoto said to Shuichi who was still on top of him."

"No." Shuichi said trying not to panic. "My shoelace is wrapped around someone's chair and I can't get up."

Makoto was silent for a second. "I can't get up if you can't get up."

"Oh no, sir are you okay?!" Kaede went over to help the man that fell but instead tripped over him and fell too. Kyoko, Kirumi and Hajime looked into this scene stunned. I wanted to help, but I was too busy laughing.

"Wow Shuichi, are you cheating on me?" Kaede said laughing on the floor. It did look awkward since Shuichi was trying not to crush Makoto.

"Dear lord, you guys are a mess." Hajime sighed. "Here, let me help." He went over to help but then tripped over Shuichi's shoelace that was caught around the chair and fell on top of Shuichi.  "Oh. Well looks like I'm a mess too." Hajime got up and went over to Kaede. "Why aren't you getting up? Are you hurt? Stuck?"

"No, I'm just too thicc to get up." Kaede sighed and Hajime helped her up. Shuchi managed to get up even with his shoelace caught on the chair.

"Oh yes! I did it!" Shuichi went to go help up Makoto until he realized what happened. His shoelace went with his foot as he was getting up and pulled the chair out from someone else while they were sitting in it. "Oh no! I'm so so sorry!" Shuichi said as he went to go help that person. Until he went to move forward and tripped over the chair back onto Makoto as he was getting up. And they all thought I was going to attract too much attention. Everyone in the Bakery was laughing and they had an employee help Shuichi get unattached from the chair. Shuchi helped Makoto get up successfully and we found a place to sit before we got our order.

Our table sat in the middle of the Bakery. It was the only table that could fit the 7 people tolerating each other. We were basically already acquainted with the others in the building. A huge scene was caused before we even got our seats. At least this time Hajime can't blame me for being the cause.

I adjusted a leaf crown on my head. I was doing this as a joke. It was planned to go completely full out. Suddenly I heard a voice from the table next to me.

"Um excuse me sir...ma'am? Can my daughter take a picture with you she loves Moana." The mother looked less than pleased but I looked down to see a little girl happily smiling up at me.

"Of course you can young waterbender!" I excitedly jumped out of my seat to stand with the girl. The rest of the table looked amused or plain confused. I took a picture with the girl who had stars in her eyes. How cute. Before I knew it I had a whole line of people. Looks like I'm Moana now. I was about to take a photo until Hajime went up to the crowd.

"Hey everyone!" Hajime yelled "Five dollars for a picture with Moana. It will be seven for a photo and an autograph!" I looked around to see all of the moms getting out their wallet. Never thought Hajime was the one to make money off of little kid's excitement. But I went with it. In the end we had almost a hundred dollars.

"Boy am I glad I allowed you to wear that." Hajime smirked

"Hajime, you savage!" Kaede scolded him "That's so mean!"

Kirumi spoke up for the first time. "Not necessarily. After all, weren't you the one who charged drunk people five dollars for an autograph at a Meghan Trainor concert since they thought you were Meghan?"

Kaede sighed in defeat "They wouldn't leave me alone! That was different. And anyways, it's all about that bass"

Kirumi smiled "Or so you think. Anywho, Hajime what are you going to do with the funds?"

Hajime held the wad of cash in his hands. "Well, what do you guys want to buy?" We all gave our orders then decided to get even more. We got three cups of black coffee for Kirumi, Kyoko and Hajime, three cups of black tea for Makoto, Shuichi and Kaede and I got a hot chocolate. Then we got a whole bunch of desserts. We pretty much used all of our funds for free food. Not only did we provide free entertainment but we provided a lot of money for the bakery. Happy birthday to me.

*Timeskip to when they were leaving*

"Do you really not feel guilty for doing that to innocent mothers?" Kirumi asked yet again.

"Maybe on my grave I will. Nows that time to live a little bit"

"Wow Hajime! For once you don't sound like a dad!" Kaede beamed.

"Yeah, yeah. Well it's not my first time and it surely won't be my last." Hajime opened the door for all of us. We were all going to part our own ways before Hajime stopped. "Guys. My keys are gone. I think they are in the car." We all had no idea on what to do. (Kyoko wanted to hotwire the car but we all gave a hard pass to that one.) We were thinking on what to do when Kyoko found something out.

"The sunroof is open. Could one of us get in and go in the car?" All of us immediately looked at Makoto.

"Please don't tell me I'm climbing through the sunroof." Makoto sighed. "Fine. Can I have some help getting up there?" Shuichi helped Makoto get the top of the car's roof.

As Makoto was trying to climb through he accidentally fell through the top and hit the bottom of the car.

"Uhh you okay Makoto?" Shuichi asked.

"I sure hope so." Makoto sighed and found the keys. "Got them!" He exited the car and we were all relieved since he didn't die from the process. Knowing him, he probably would.

"Thanks Makoto. Where are you guys even going after this?" Hajime asked.

"Makoto and I were planning on dragging Shuichi to my place to watch random shows where celebrities act self-centered and go crazy about the literal dumbest things." Kaede smiled while Shuichi looked borderline afraid. (which he should be)

"I have work." Kyoko said curtly, as usual.

"I have my maid work to attend to." Kirumi seemed happy about being a maid, which makes no sense to me.

"I'm just going to hang out with this dweeb" I elbowed Hajime and he had his usual look of annoyance. He did seem happy though. We all said our goodbyes and left the parking lot. I couldn't have asked for a more hope-filled day.

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Valentines Day (Shuichi x Kaede)

Shuichi's POV

Valentines day huh. What a weird holiday. A day full of love or at least the best excuse you have for it. I've never experienced anything like that. Definitely not in this situation anyway. The only real thing anyone's focusing on is just staying alive.

It was morning which means that it was time to join everyone for breakfast in the dining hall. We had only recently been thrown into this killing game a few days ago. Learning that you have to kill the people you just met and that they can kill you is a horrifying feeling. Luckily no one has left us yet but I know that our peace will perish soon.

Opening any door is a frightful activity. You never quite know what is on the other side of it. This time it hopefully wouldn't be my end on the other side of that door. I looked around the kitchen. Himiko and Angie sat talking at one of the tables while Kaede was seemingly searching the kitchen for something.

"Are you looking for something?" I asked her as I pulled my hat down further to cover my eyes.

"Nothing really. This school just seems to have everything we could ever want or need." She searched through another box of some kind of food.

People started flooding into the dining hall at an alarming rate. I guess I hadn't realized that an announcement had been made while we were searching through storage. Apparently if someone didn't kill tonight there would be serious consequences. Luckily for me though, Kaede and I had been working on a master plan to catch the mastermind, and it would all go down tonight.

We left the dining hall and headed over to the classroom where we would station ourselves for the evening. The vent along the floor and a receiver in my pocket allowed us the utmost leverage against the mastermind.

"Why don't we sit down while we wait." Kaede beckoned me over to the desk next to hers. I obliged and sat down watching as she took something out of her pocket. A small box with writing across the top.

"What are those?"

"They are conversation hearts. I found them in the kitchen this morning and I thought they were cute." She smiled a signature smile. "Isn't it kinda cool. You can talk to people through candies."

She reached her hand into the box. Taking a heart out and putting it on the desk in front of us.

"Chill out" it read.

"That's awfully relevant to our current situation." She laughed.

Taking more and more hearts from the box became a game of trying to form sentences with the random phrases. It ranged from animals to other stupid sayings like "Ur A Star" or "Cool Dude." It honestly took my mind off of everything that was happening. Just being able to sit down and actually have fun in this world is something I never thought I would see.

Eventually we reached the more romantic type hearts in the box. Sayings like "My Love" or "You & Me." Of course we too tried to form sentences out of the nonsense wording. When that failed Kaede sighed and grabbed the last heart from the box. Looked at it. Smiled to herself before clearing the table of hearts. Leaving the last one the only one remaining.

"Be Mine" were the words on the heart. I felt myself grow more confused by the second as she tilted her head in question.

"So what's your answer?"

"...Yes." Her smile widened as she pulled me in for a hug.

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Chapter 3

Makoto’s POV

I heard a rustling at the door and my nerves raced back to me. Within seconds the door opened to reveal dark purple boots or at least that's the direction I was looking anyway.

"Kirigiri?" I asked to nobody in particular. I really hoped that it wasn't her but then again as long as it wasnt Nagito then I was fine. The only thing that wasn't fine was literally everything else. My face and eyes were bright red from crying and I ended up soaking my sweatshirt in the process to now which it lay on the floor next to me near the tub like a wet towel. I was starting to drench the random t-shirt that I decided to put on today that happened to be light blue was now a dark blue with tears and there's no way I was taking that off. My head rested on my hands that were upright on my knees. I was such a failure. I was just waiting for Kirigiri to say it. Then all of a sudden I heard the heels of her boots get closer until she sat down next to me on the edge of the bathtub. I wouldn't meet her glance, I couldn't, I wouldn't, I shouldn't. I didn't deserve to speak to her. I was just wasting her time. In my peripheral vision I saw her doing something with her glove. It took me a while to realize what was happening until she said something. "You can call me Kyoko you know?" She said quietly as she glanced down at her hands. Only then did I realize that she had taken off her glove and taken my right hand away from my face. Our hands laid intertwined against the cold ledge of the tub. Only then did I meet her glance and she quickly looked away.

"What are you doing in here?" She asked.

"What does it look like?" I muttered into the space that was this room. There was a heavy sad aura as I tried to move my sweatshirt on the floor into an out of sight position. Only then did I realize that it was underneath my foot which made me have to stand up to move. As I did I remembered that my hand was still connected to Kirigiri's which made me end up getting pulled backwards, knocking both of us into the bathtub with a thud. As I opened my eyes I realized that our hands were no longer connected, but our lips. I retracted my face as a shocked look passed between us both before we smiled. The peace was short lived as Kyoko than began to move from her place against the bathtub's wall. I looked down as I was practically almost sitting on her and quickly moved to get off of her. I was stopped quickly in my attempt as I felt a sharp pain on my arm. She had found out. She found out the reason that I never took off my sweatshirt. She had found out what had happened to me. She had found out that everyone at school hated me

"Uh hey Makoto you in here WOAH GUYS COME HERE!" I heard Nagito's stupid voice from the bathroom door. Within seconds everyone had appeared inside *Shuichi's* bathroom. Kirigiri and I could only watch from our awkward position inside this bathtub with sheepish faces as their own faces of shock appeared. They couldn't know what happened. I would never live it down. I quickly tried to think of a way to explain this to them but i was honestly so stuck. I felt like a zoo animal on display that you could take pictures of. I watched as they glanced from me trapping poor Kyoko to the scars that layed on my arms.

"What happened here?" Hajime was starting to sound more and more like a dad every day that I knew him.

"I-I ah fell. I tripped on my sweatshirt and you know the mini river and then I fell on Kirigiri and now were he--"

All of a sudden Kyoko did something that I never thought she would do in front of people she practically just met. I was cut off by her lips again meeting mine and I heard loud gasps fill up the decently small bathroom.

"ITS CANON BOIS ITS CANON!" Nagito's obnoxious screeching was probably the loudest voice you heard in the midst of all the commotion.

"K-K-Kirigiri!" I stuttered. My face resembling that of a rose.I looked up to see a woman addressed as Kirumi smirk at us, and if a smirk could make a noise it was certainly a loud one. Tears still rolled down my face but for some odd reason I felt really happy. I still felt terrible but that melted even for a split second when our lips touched. I don't know what to feel but for now...I'm just going to be happy for everyone.

"I CALLED IT YOU OWE ME 20 BUCKS HAJIME!' Whos voice I expected to hear was Nagito's actually wasn't.

"SHUICHI!" I screamed as I stood up and helped Kyoko up along with me. I quickly put my sweatshirt on luckily without anyone noticing. Nagito had a beaming smile and was practically shaking with happiness. Shuichi and Hajime were apparently dealing with a bet of when me a Kyoko would get together or something like that. Kirumi had disappeared for a while until there was a small knock on the door. All the screaming stopped as she stepped in.

"Everyone please do care to join me in the living room for some group therapy." Kirumi said a small smile never leaving her face. Everyone walked out of the bathroom with Kyoko and I following last which made Kirumi approach us.

"I shall clean and dry your sweatshirt for you Naegi." Kirumi commanded more than suggested. Kyoko and I's eyes met as i pulled off my sweatshirt which was only to be quickly replaced by Kyoko's leather jacket, Its size even bigger than I was. It seemed like we broke all gender roles in this not yet existent relationship. Kirumi then walked away with my sweatshirt in hand.

"Hey Kyoko what's your last name?" I turned to face her after all the commotion and decided to try something that I never thought that I would ever say.

"It's Kirigiri you know this already, what are trying to do?"

"Well what if it wasn't." I tried to say this with a straight face before I started laughing. I had heard my sister raging about that one pick up line to my mom when I was home for winter break.

"Makoto Naegi what has gotten into you!" I saw an almost shadow of a smile on her face. This would be an interesting relationship. "Why are you such an open book you short stack?"

We then made our way into the living room of Shuichi's dorm. Now He would have to third wheel all by himself. I took a breath before fully stepping in. I practically awaited the teasing I was going to get from my friends as I entered the long awaited group therapy.

Nagito laughed "Hey lover-boi, whatcha wearin there?"

I sheepishly smiled hoping that they would just forget what they saw on my arms "Oh just Kirigiri's jacket." I hope they won't talk about it and just forget it. I know we're doing "group therapy" and all but there are some things I'm not going to talk about. I'm not going to talk about being bullied and if they talk about my arms then I will just have to admit it. I guess I'm pretty okay at lying so if I need to I will. It's not like I don't want to cooperate, it's just some things don't need to be talked about. I just don't want to freak them out or have them be mad at me for never telling them. It's been going on for almost a year now so there's no doubt they'd be upset.

"Well let's start off." Kirumi announced as she gestured for everyone to come sit in a circle on the carpet with her. I awkwardly sat down next to Shuichi since I felt like I could relate to him the most currently. He had his head down and was wearing a completely different expression from when he and Hajime were exchanging their bet money. After everyone was settled on the floor Kirumi left with Kyoko following suit. How they did this without words, I have no idea I guess it was just some weird girl language that I couldn't comprehend. All I knew was that it was about to get real awkward in here. Oh lord what should I do?

Kyoko's POV

I ended up following the lady in a black dress into the dorms kitchen. I sensed that it was going to get really awkward so it's probably best if I just let the boys work it out amongst themselves. As I walked around the kitchen helping Kirumi,  many questions flooded through my mind. One of them being how was she so good at her talent? I had heard she was good but how good was she really? Questions like this took my mind off of things that I didn't want to think of. As I was passed a cup by Kirumi those questions flooded my vulnerable thoughts again. Why did I do that? What made me do that? I honestly just want to smash my head on this cup and let the glass go through my skull. I just ruined my reputation and if this gets out no one would look at me the same, especially my father. But most of all I ruined any chance at a friendship with Makoto.

Makoto POV

Well this is the most awkward silence i've ever experienced in my life. No one spoke we all just stared into space. The "fun" we were having before at the bakery almost didn't exist anymore. Was all that for nothing? Did they really hate me that much? After all the risks I took today one more couldn't hurt.

"Are you guys mad at me? Do you hate me?" My voice stopped suddenly as I got choked up on my tears. They were freely flowing down my face as the silence still continued. I got no response. I guess they didn't want to hurt my feelings anymore because they probably still did hate me. They looked like they wanted to say something but instead kept their mouths quiet. It seemed that I was right. I was all alone. Aren't I so lucky? I remained in the living room. My knees digging into the carpet as my shoulders shook as I desperately tried to repress my tears.

Another pov switch to Kyoko (Sorry)

I walked out of the dorms kitchen with Kurimi and I holding round trays with drinks on top of them. This would be my attempt of softening the blow of what we were going to experience the second that we walked into the living room. I thought that leaving for 5 minutes wouldn't have presented me the sight I saw but boy was I wrong. There they all sat still in the circle, all looking in different directions with different levels of distress on each person's face. It ranged from Makoto shaking from where I stood behind him to Shuichi's deadpan expression towards the floor. Then I was motioned to hand out the drinks that rested on our trays. I grabbed the last cup and bent down next to Makoto's shaking form and put an arm around his shoulder. Of course you know who wanted to speak now. Nagito.

"Makoko needs to drink teh hot cocoa!" It seemed that this was able to break the heavy air and earned uneasy laughter from the group. What should I do?

Makoto's POV (I think we are done with the fast switches of POV's now)

I was right. Everything I knew was right, it had to be. I feel like laughing, everything hurts so bad. My surroundings and everyone in them just faded as I sat there alone with my thoughts. I know what I need to do but yet I won't, not for now. Nothing is right, everything I ever knew was a lie. I honestly don't know what I can do right now. I really just want to run away from my so called friends and just be alone. I feel paralyzed as I sit here crying but I'm also trying to hold back my laughter. My emotions are all over the place and I feel like I'm going into hysterics. I failed them, I never wanted to let them know how I was feeling. Now they hate me along with every being and existence in this world. I feel miserable and humiliated

Then all of a sudden Kirumi came back with my sweatshirt in hand as she walked over and handed it to Kyoko who still sat by me even after how I looked in front of everyone. So I may or may not have made a mad dash into the corner after screaming at everyone to "close their eyes or they would no longer be drinking that hot cocoa"

"Woah dude what's your problem?" Hajime asked finally breaking the silence since my panic attack outburst.

"Nothing! Just mind your own hecking business not your average Joes!" I snapped at him finally getting him to turn around. I got my sweatshirt on and tried to calmly walk back over to the circle by my foot may have or may not have made contact with Nagito's head in spite of my full anger.

"Look Makoto, I'm not saying that I fully hate you but if my phone was at at least 50% I would unplug your lifespan to recharge it. Did you know how much joy you gave everyone when you left the room for once in your life!" I would have been offended by Nagito's insult if I wasn't so numb from all the pain. I looked over to see Shuichi nodding his head in agreement at Nagito's comment.

"You just need to calm down Naegi." He started to say but on no I wasn't done I told everyone to stay out.

"You stay out of this it doesn't concern you!" I screamed through the room.

"Face it Makoto we've told you before. You let people walk all over you. You are the reason that they invented double doors to add up to all the times that you fall." As I continued my outburst I heard a loud voice over all the commotion.

"ALRIGHT CHILDREN THAT'S ENOUGH!" Kirumi yelled at us as we continued arguing. "Everyone just sit down and shut up!" We obeyed her and we formed the circle again. I didn't realize how badly that silence affected us until it finally hit me on what I had done.

"I..I'm..sorry.." I started even though I knew that no one wanted to hear my apology. This is the worst I felt in ages. I honestly didn't mean to be rude but I guess I snapped under pressure. Why am I doing this though? Are they even my friends? I was really stupid to think I have friends, so that's a mistake on my part.

"So let's start with Makoto." Kirumi announced. "Who are the people that cause you the most anger in your life?"

"Well why don't I get a list. My sister, my mother, Nagito,  Hajime, did I say Nagito already yet? Um lets see who else, everyone whos ever existed on this stupid earth to begin wit-"

"Ok i'm going to stop you there. You seem like you have a lot of anger." Kirumi tried to reason.

"No crap I do I didn't know we had more than one sherlock in this room." I sassily snapped back.

"Well then how about we try a group exercise?" Kirumi suggested. "How about we all share the secret we won't tell anyone to gain each other trust again after what just happened. Who would like to start?"

"Well i guess i'll start.." I looked up to see Shuichi finally taking his eyes off of the carpet as he raised his head to speak. "So uh...as you heard about uh Wednesday's are crying days and i uh lose so much tears that I end up spending most of Thursday's throwing up which means I really haven't had that huge of an appetite. I mean i'm still eating and thats you know...fine but everything is different. I looked up at his face to realize that when he was stuttering that he had actually started to cry in front of us. Something that had never happened in front of us before. The sharing continued on with everyone's mental walls slowly started to crash down on them. Nagito went next and what I thought would be him insulting us ended up being really deep to where he also began sobbing along with the rest of us.

"You know you all are so lucky that you are the physical embodiment of hope. I've always admired hope from a far but i have truly never experienced it. Everyone walks around and smile and their so full of hope, but me, i'm just trash on the sidewalk." After Nagito said this I looked around. There was now a pity party for two and my remaining tears. How did I get here? I sighed awkwardly as I realized that I was next in line to speak. If everyone else could do it then so could I right? But were they even my friends? Could I even trust them with this? The biggest most tragic secret that I, Makoto Naegi had kept for so long was finally not a secret anymore.

"I...uh I guess i'll go next..Well uh I" I tried to speak but it just never ended up working. I flopped back down onto my knees in defeat. They didn't care. They wouldn't care. They shouldn't care. Was I really their friend anyway? I would have to say it fast if I wanted to get it over with. I took a deep breath before saying what I thought I would have never said when I walked into these four walls. "Well you see, everytimeIFallDownThestairsitsbecauseIwaspushedandeveryonedoesthistomeandimjustsosickofit." I took a breath as I saw everyone's shocked faces. I normally just wrote off my injuries on my bad luck and clumsiness but I guess they know the truth now. When my voice was completely drowned out by tears I joined the pity party and upped its members by one. Then all of a sudden something that I would never want to happen in a million years happen. The doorbell rang.

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So we aren’t dead

Hey we are alive and still accepting whatever requests anyone would like to have written. Example of our work is on our wattpad by the same name. We mainly wrote for Danganronpa but other fandoms we are aware of are acceptable.

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Chapter 2

So we are experiencing the sadness of not halving any requests and they are very much open so have another writing sample from our wattpad story.

I scooted over to Makoto's "resting" form by the window and waiting until I saw the smallest bit of life before I pounced onto the seat next to him.

"Oh my gosh Makoto you'll never believe what just happened! That's why I got it on video!" I heard Hajime's low wails voice in protest as he approached the driver's seat at the front of the car. A place forbidden for us to sit.

"You did what now!? OH MY SWEET LORD AND BABY JESUS AND ALL OTHER HOLY THINGS YOU BETTER DELETE THAT VIDEO OR YOU WON'T RISE IN THREE DAYS!" He screamed.

I'm pretty sure that the whole neighborhood heard this argument but did I care, nope it took my mind off my thoughts and that's all that mattered. Nagito then made his way closer to me and asked for a copy of the video which now left Hajime to be the one shaking in anger.

"Wow he even got your screaming on tape. You sound like a dad." Nagito commented as he re- lived the event through the video.

"I SWEAR TO GOd" Hajime started. Then as if I couldn't believe it was real, Makoto awoke.

Makoto's POV

I slowly lifted myself off of whatever I was on. Everything was blurry and I saw a dark shadow in front of me. My entire body felt heavy and I could barely get the energy to move. I felt like I was dying.

"What the-" I started to say as I finally started gaining pieces of my sight. Everyone was staring at me with wide eyes. My hand reached for my pocket only to realize that my cellphone was missing. When my eyes finally started to clear up I saw the positions that everyone was in. Shuichi had his hand in my face which contained a video open on his cellphone. Passed the first cell phone blob was Nagito holding a small blob and Hajime raging against the side of the car.

"So, w-what did I miss?" Only soon after I would realize that this was a question I should have never asked.

"Makoto! You will never believe this! Watch this!" Shuichi shoved the phone more into my face. I grabbed the phone, watched the video, and had no regrets whatsoever.

"Oh My Lord! Our ship is one hundred percent canon! Now kiss already!" I squealed. Within a second my excitement faded into fear.

"Nagito...What did you mean "I for one ship him with someone else so you better back away from my fantasy that I've got the other boys on board with me." Also why do you have my cell phone!?" I screeched. I then heard a girls voice on the phone as Nagito continued his conversation with the mystery girl. I used an email instead of a phone number so the only thing he could have done to get in contact with someone was to FaceTime them.

"Nagito!" My screeching got louder. "WHO ARE YOU TALKING TO?"

"Your girlfriend" He replied calmly.

"My what!?" I screamed. This was news to me! I could feel my face turn an unnatural shade of red as I realized who Nagito was talking to. The only female contacts I have on my phone were my mom, my sister, and...Kyoko. How did he even get her to stay on the phone for this long? Why hasn't she hung up yet? I heard footsteps as Shuichi sat down next to me instead of up in my face like when I was watching the video. I quickly saw that Nagito went over to my door and opened it dragging me into the dreadedvoutside world.

"I now pronounce you boyfriend and girlfriend" Nagito declared as he put *my* phone inches away from my face.

"WHAT?!" I turned to scream at him before realizing that my suspicions were correct. "Hi Kirigiri." I said quietly as I stepped backwards away from my phone. Bad move on my part as I collided with the open door which led me to fall inside the car and in the process crushing Shuichi who was trying to calm a raging Hajime who had made his way to the driver's seat. Since I have the worst luck my face was barely a centimeter in front of his face. Thankfully I hadn't gained the momentum to move more forward. And guess who I did this all in front of. Kyoko, one of the only people that would talk to me. I really wish I was still in that coma. I  quickly apologized to Shuichi.

"Hey Makoto is there a reason that Miss Kyoko's contact has a purple heart on it?" Nagito asked me in a high-pitched voice.

"SHUT UP." I bolted out of the car and slammed my hand over Nagito's mouth. Of course I had to stand on my tip toes but that wasn't the point! He needed to learn his place.

"Give me your address I'm heading over." The stoic girl said a she stared down this mess that was happening. "You obviously are going to end up killing each other if I don't. Also don't ever give Nagito a phone I ended up getting this strange video so just bear that in mind." Cue a screaming whale like Hajime in the background.

"Uh we are supposed to meet at Shuichi's dorm so just cross the courtyard. Um bye" I ended the call and went into the car in silence. A few minutes passed before I screamed bloody murder at Nagito "I'M GOING TO KILL YOU, YOU THOT! BE GONE!"

"Alright, ALRIGHT!" Hajime yelled over the ongoing argument. "We all want to kill Nagito some days but we don't say it out loud! Come on now Makoto, it'll be fine now come on we should head over to Shuichi's dorm. After that I sat silently brooding. Stupid bagel boy thinks there's hope in Kirigiri and I's relationship but he's ruining everything like he always does.

"Somebody get this boy a snickers." Nagito said as he plooped into the middle of the back seat of the car.

"Don't push me past my limits, sir" I glared at him and looked out the window. I wish I could actually stand up for myself against the other people at school so that I wouldn't need people like Nagito to do it for me. Even though Nagito really bothers me sometimes I'm glad that he actually wants to be my friend. Everyone else besides my friend group likes to bully me and make my life a living hell everyday. I wish it was just having people writing "I hope you die" on my desk instead of them beating the crap out of me. That's one of the reasons why I wear my sweatshirt. I'm just glad my friends don't know. I don't want to dump my problems onto them so I will just keep moving on and just keep being there for my friends. Even if it kills me.

Before I knew it Hajime had pulled into the boys dorm parking lot. I really hope that Kirigiri decides to not come. We all walked into Shuichi's dorm and were greeted by a lady who was carrying what looked like laundry.

"Ah Shuichi your laundry from Wednesday is don- Oh you never told me that guests would be over today."

"Um excuse me miss where is your bathroom?" I asked her.

"It is down the hall and to the right." She replied as I ran down that hall and took that right faster than I had ever run in my life. I slammed the door and sat on the bathtub ledge. Before i knew it I turned on my phone to be greeted with three words I wish that Kirigiri hadn't sent me. "On my way." I let my phone fall as loud sobs erupted out of my mouth.

Shuichi's POV

"Hm sounds like Shuichi on a Wednesday. Except he uses the whole dorm to sob." Kirumi commented.

"Well guys I would like you to meet Kirumi Tojo. She is staying at my place while her dorm gets renovated." I ignored her previous comment. They all awkwardly introduced themselves over Makoto's loud sobs.

*ding dong bing bong*

"There are more guests! Shuichi you never give me time to prepare." Kirumi said walking over to the door.

"Ah sorry I guess I forgot." I couldn't tell her the day I'd been having not even if she was starting as my therapist.

The door opened to reveal a girl in mostly all purple with her arms crossed. This would be Kirigiri I supposed. She walked in, took one look around and finally said.

"Where is the short brown-haired flower child that goes by the name of Makoto?" The girl asked in her emotionless voice.

"Oh do you mean the one who made his home in our bathroom?" Kirumi asked her.

"I will take that as a yes." Kirigiri found her way to the bathroom by tracking down the loud sobbing through the walls. "Is there a key to this door?" She turned to ask Kirumi.

"Not that I know of I dearly apologize."

"Well this will have to do then." Kirigiri reached into her long lilac hair and pulled out a bobby pin and started unlocking the door where Makoto was. Now that was a detective if I've ever seen one.

Makoto's POV

My face and my sweatshirt are currently drenched in my own tears. My eyes hurt so bad that I almost can't cry anymore. I will probably just die from dehydration but I guess that's actually good. It feels like I'm making up for lost time that I didn't cry when I wanted and was consumed with fear. Despair is just eating me alive and I feel like I am going to die. Oh well, it's not like anyone would care anyway. No one ever would. Do my friends even care about me or are they just being nice to me out of pity? Maybe they just secretly hate me and want me to die. Doesn't everyone? Would my death make everyone happy? It probably would to be honest, I don't see why not, everyone just uses me as a punching bag anyway. Why am I alive? I don't even know. I'm just a mistake that just needs to be erased, I guess. Kirigiri probably hates me too. I wouldn't be surprised, even I hate myself. Who wouldn't, to be honest? In the world there are so many amazing people who gave up their life saving someone or doing something great. Yet, I'm alive. They deserve to be alive more than I do. I'm just so average. Anyone can replace me. You can't replace people who actually do good for the world. I just make everything worse but I haven't been replaced. But why haven't I? Why can't someone just end me? Nobody likes me anyway, I'm never going to be good enough. It's sad that people think I would be. Their hopes will be crushed to bits. They don't deserve that pain and they'll just hate me even more than they do now. I shouldn't even be an ultimate. Even though I got the title "Ultimate Hope" I'm trying so hard to be positive but I just can't. Maybe I should just give up on everything in my life. It'll benefit everyone. It'll even benefit me since I'm better off dead. But who cares about me, I'm being selfish. That's what people want, so why won't somebody do something. Maybe they were trying to tell me with those times that so many people told me to kill myself. Maybe I'm just so oblivious that I didn't even see it. Maybe I should kill myself for them. It's the only way out. It's been getting harder to hide the cuts and bruises I have. There's way too many just covering my arms. They're everywhere and they haunt me. Every. Single. Day. That's why I just hide behind my sweatshirt like a coward! I wish I could hide from everyone with it! Maybe I should distance myself so everyone can just forget about me. I wish I could forget myself! No one has to see me anymore. I feel like I've hit rock bottom but I'm still sinking. There's nothing I can do anymore. I feel like I'm drowning and suffocating in my tears. Will I ever stop crying? I'm just a mess of a human being that's too complicated for anyone to like! Why can't everyone just leave me alone to die! None of my friends really care about me and they're the only people I like! I guess that's why it hurts so bad. I care so much about my friends and I finally find out that they don't even like me. Am I annoying? I try so hard to smile and act happy for those around me and just pretend that everything's okay! I just don't know how much longer I can handle it! Well I will keep pretending until it kills me! And hopefully that's soon! I just can't take it anymore I can't I can't I can't! Those two words filled my head and just repeated over and over and over and over. I can't! Everything around me faded. It didn't matter anymore. I don't matter anymore. I felt like someone is just ripping me apart! I just can't anymore! I can't live anymore!! Why can't I just curl up and die!?

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Shuichi's POV

      The sunlight flooded through my window and I rolled out of bed begrudgingly. I looked at the clock and I couldn't believe my eyes. I was definitely going to be late. Why didn't Kirumi wake me up? I didn't see her on my way out the door so she must have left already. Kirumi  didn't have anywhere to go due to maintenance so she stays in my dorm with me. Having an "Ultimate Maid" in my dorm is honestly the best thing ever. She had just moved in yesterday so I'll have to introduce her to my best friends Hajime,Nagito,Kaede and Makoto who've I known for awhile. They're the only reason why I'm okay with going to school. I hate how everyone glares at me and looks at me like they want me dead. That's why I always wear my hat. Without it I would just suffocate from pressure. I approached my class. Thankfully Homeroom hadn't ended so I could see my friends.

      "Hey Shuichi!" I heard my friend Hajime yell.

      "Hey Hajime," I walked over to him and I was surprised to see that Nagito wasn't there with him 

      "Have you seen Nagito?"

      "No, I hope he's okay" Hajime muttered. As if he was right on cue, Nagito sashayed over and yelled 

      "DID SOMEBODY SAY HOPE!?" right in Hajime's ear.

      "Wow, you couldn't be more annoying, could you?" Hajime shook his head bewildered. "Now we just need Makoto who should be here in approximately five seconds." As if he was waiting he turned to the stairs. All of a sudden a large blurr came flying down the stairs which obviously was Makoto.

      "Stupid Byakuya tripped me again." Makoto dragged himself up off of the floor and hung out with us for a bit before we all had to go to our own classes. I pretty much ignored all of my classes until Lunch. I already know the material so I don't need to worry about paying attention today. My friend group and I always sit together at this one lone table outside so I at least have something to look forward to. I walked down to our table and met up with my friends. It just hit me now that  I didn't get to make lunch since Kirumi left early and I ran out of time.

      "Hey Shuichi, did you forget your lunch again? I packed extra today so you can share with me" Makoto flashed me a friendly smile.

      "Thanks Makoto" I sat down next to him.

      "Nagito, seriously?" Hajime sighed "A bagel and cheerios for lunch again? You're an idiot. You have to take better care of yourself you know."Nagito laughed 

      "Hey, I'm your idiot." It is always nice to see them together. To be honest it's like they're the protagonists of a romance novel. I turned to see Makoto eating popcorn watching them.

      "You intended on doing that, didn't you?" I whispered to him.

      "Yup, want some?" Makoto handed me the bag of popcorn and we watched them banter for a bit. It's kinda like Makoto and I are third and fourth wheeling even if they aren't dating, but it's fun to watch them, not to be creepy or anything. We ship them but would never interfere with their lives.

      "Oh that's right!" I exclaimed.  "Do you guys want to come over to my dorm later?" We usually go to a Bakery or something and then go to one of our dorms. "You can meet Kirumi who just moved in yesterday."

      "Yeah but, can we get bagels after school though" Nagito inquired.

      "Only you would be obsessed with bagels Nagito. I'll go too." Hajime playfully teased him."What about you Makoto?" When I looked at him he seemed uneasy as if he was looking for someone.

      "O-Oh yeah, uh I can come with you guys but I have a lot of homework so don't mind me." He replied without making eye contact. I decided not to pay much attention though, he was probably just thinking about something. Soon after the lunch period ended I went back to class and waited for the day to end. I couldn't find the confidence to talk to people except for my friends and  Kaede who helps me a lot with my confidence issues. Kaede also corrects me when I say that I'm some apprentice and not a detective but, to be honest Kyoko Kirigiri from Makoto's class fills that role way more than I could ever. She's a textbook detective, one that is totally worthy of being awarded the title of an ultimate. We are practically polar opposites. She would always find the truth and serve justice while I can't even serve lunch no pun intended. The only thing that I could ever have in common with her is a friendship with Makoto. Not that I've met the girl or anything to know much about her. All I know is that she is more successful than I am. But the truth that I found in that was that she always would be. These are at least all the things i've heard from Naegi. He seems like the only person she'll talk to. Everyone else gets this cold hard death stare including me. What did I do? :( Maybe there is something between them. Now thats the kinda truth I can find. I don't spend as much time with Kaede as much as I do with Makoto,Hajime and Nagito but I still like her a lot. After a few hours had passed it was time for me to go meet up with my friends.

      "Hey guys!" I shouted as I walked to them from across the hallway.

      "Hey Shuichi! We might want to get out of here before this little short stack gets crushed again," Hajime laughed and ruffled Makoto's hair.

      "I'm not that short!" Makoto yelled.

      "Sorry Makoto, but compared to us you're a literal bean." Nagito declared.

      "It's kinda sad when people almost trample you by accident." Hajime added.

      "Yeah, by accident..." Makoto mumbled.

      "What was that?" Hajime asked."Oh, nothing important." Makoto uttered quietly.

      "Let's go get bagels!" Nagito exclaimed as he sashayed away. We walked over to the nearby bakery before going to my dorm. The bakery was actually the nicest one we've been to. Most of them look like their barely getting by but there was something about this one that always kept us going back. Hajime drove into to the parking lot and turned to Makoto and I.

      "Okay, can you guys go in? Nagito can't be trusted with going in or being alone so I'll watch him." Hajime then handed Nagito a pen and a pad of paper "Write down what you want you weird bagel enthusiast."

      "My bagel love cannot be quenched okay!?" Nagito then wrote down his order and handed it to Makoto.

      "Wait why us? Why can't we watch Nagito? You're actually good at ordering" I exclaimed. This isn't fair, what if Makoto and I miss out on something.

      "You two wouldn't be able to handle Nagito." Hajime shook his head.

      "Yeah we could! Nagito won't do anything wrong!" Makoto convinced Hajime who was honestly starting to scare me.

      "Okay, I'll go order but don't blame me if your dead before I come back." Hajime walked out of the car and locked it as he went into the bakery. After a few minutes passed hell started to break loose.

      "Hey guys, look at that weird homeless guy over there." Nagito glared at him "He disgusts me." Since Nagito was in the middle seat in the car he ended up crushing Makoto to get to the open window."Hey you! You lowly piece of crap over there!" Nagito somehow managed to get the guys attention while poor Makoto was turning red from loss of oxygen. "You hopeless scrub! Get your life together! Get a job or something! Have some hope in your life for once!" The man then flipped Nagito the bird which caused him to have a heated conversation with his guy.

      "Hey Nagito, give it up already." I told him calmly.  "You're crushing Makoto and he's starting to turn blue." My efforts were futile as he kept yelling at the guy.

      "That's it, I'm going to fight this guy!" Nagito yelled as he went to unlock the door. Fortunately I was fast enough and I grabbed Nagito by his waist and tried to hold him back as he was fighting against me."STOP IT SHUICHI I WANT TO FIGHT HIM" Nagito screamed as he was struggling against me.

      "YOU STOP IT NAGITO, YOU'RE PICKING UNNECESSARY FIGHTS AND KILLING MAKOTO!" I screamed back at him. We continued to fight as Hajime walked out of the store  to see Nagito and I fighting and screaming and a blue Makoto who looked like he was going to pass out at any minute.

      "SHUT UP YOU TWO, I LITERALLY GOT TOLD BY OTHER CUSTOMERS TO MAKE SURE YOU WERE OKAY! SHUICHI, LET NAGITO GO AND NAGITO STOP BEING SUCH A MENACE! ALSO FOR GOD'S SAKE GET OFF OF MAKOTO!" Hajime screeched at us which caused all of us to jump. "I told you guys, I shouldn't have left you guys alone, my mistake" he then sighed in annoyance and held up two fingers "Makoto, how many fingers am I holding up?"Makoto squinted then replied with "Uhhh... six?""Shuichi how long was Nagito on top of Makoto?" Hajime had a look of genuine concern on his face.

      "About five minutes." I said quietly knowing that Hajime was going to scold us.

      "I'm honestly surprised that he's alive right now. Well it makes since he looks like he's stoned and wasted at the same time." Hajime looked over to Makoto "Are you okay?" There was no response.

      "HE'S DEAD OH NO, THE END REST IN PEACE, HAPPILY NEVER AFTER!" I screamed without even thinking.

      "Calm down for once in your sad life! Jesus he will be okay... probably." Hajime's angry voice got me to shut up quickly.

      "My life's not that sad... Is it? I only sink fully into my depression on Wednesday's but today's only a Friday so I should be good by now. I should really see a therapist. Maybe Kirumi could help me with that." I accidentally wondered out loud which caused both Nagito and Hajime to look at me with horrified faces. Crap!

      "Shuichi... Are you serious?" Hajime looked at me with hurt eyes.  "Why...Why didn't you tell us?"

      "It's not like I drown in my own tears every Wednesday or anything."I started nervously laughing. 

      "Shuichi. Please talk to us next time. We really care about you. All of us without a doubt. If you're ever going through something please, I'm begging you to talk to me or any of us." Hajime's voice was calm but the guilt and frustration shone brightly through it all. Nagito didn't say anything but he looked highly upset by this turn of events. We went from the topic of bagels to my Wednesday crying sessions. What have I done? But he also had a glint of evil in his eyes. All of a sudden he exited the parked car and walked over to someone. And I quickly realized that Hajime had forgotten  to lock the car which was rule number one when being in any kind of vehicle with Nagito.

      "Oh sweet lord, NAGITO!" Hajime yelled then quickly turned to me "Don't think your free, we are definitely talking about this later!" He then ran after him to see him yelling at Sayaka Maizono, the ultimate pop sensation and also Makoto's classmate. Is he literally taking out his anger on other people?

      "Hey you!" Nagito yelled "Don't think nobody knows that you stalk Makoto almost all the time! Makoto only doesn't know because he's oblivious to literally everything! Are you hecking five! A dummy  could tell that you like him. I for one ship him with someone else so you better back away from my fantasy that I've got the other boys on board with me so make like a tree and burnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn! So currently your little "lover boy" is in a coma due to this stupid homeless guy trying to pick a fight with me and I have absolutely no tolerance for people who throw away their hope so continuing back to my previous statement burnnnnn he doesn't like you, you waste of space."

      "So, when can I see him again?" Sayaka smiled innocently.Back at the car was me extending my phone out so that it could hear the dialogue. Maybe I could get some followers and take that off the list of my Wednesday session. My camera and I then witnessed a sight I never thought I would see. It was Hajime, in public, being gay?! Hajime literally lifted Nagito over his shoulder in the middle of his shaking rage. But in his eyes was affection toward Nagito that was shining brightly. Hajime always acted like a tsundere but in reality he really loved Nagito will all of his heart. I should talk to Makoto on how to make them confess to each other.  He was probably more gay than Nagito loves hope. Which sounds  impossible. Hajime carried the shaking Nagito back to the car and placed him inside. He was still shaking but not from rage anymore, he was shook from the fact that Hajime carried him all the way to the car. Shook from being openly gay in public! Wow we  knew of no such thing. I am definitely going to show Makoto this video if he doesn't die. We probably should have brought him to the hospital.

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