thearksys

[thearksys]

ready for another day of torturing myself and wasting my own time

[thearksys]

can you take my white ass to funkytown

[thearksys]

FACTS

[thearksys]

im fine or something

doing something risky tonight. if I die tonight, remember me or something

[thearksys]

doing something risky tonight. if I die tonight, remember me or something

[thearksys]

i'd be more comfortable if I was in a cathedral right now, quite honestly.

[thearksys]

priest

vivid red lights lingerie on late nights the priest wears my heels and secretly he kneels and he lovingly keels i light my cigarette "you and me, a duet?" i dance with his holiness and i couldn't care less afterwards I cry i hope this is not goodbye secret affair and I still smell the scent of his blood in my hair

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[thearksys]

So not the vibe but I was reading Devotions by Mary Oliver and this made me think of willmack

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Whoever told you love would drench you in gold,

weaving warmth and light into every fold,

fooled you with promises too grand to hold.

Love is no gilded cure for pain,

it burns as much as it sustains.

It leaves you raw, exposed, and bare,

a fragile hope held in the air.

And yet, we reach, we long, we crave,

for love that blinds, for love that saves.

But whoever told you it’s always divine,

forgot to mention its sharper design.

[thearksys]

I'm yearning for romance, for love, again... What pathetic feeling. In such fragile moments I would rather not to exist. To feel like a complete failure, a non-wishable person or something like that is also to feel insecurity and fear... There are fewer things I fear more than romance. To consume and be consumed. To touch and be touched. To see and be seen. I miss love and romance. I don't want to feel ashamed by that but I can't help it. I hate to be in vulnerable positions... But when the night comes I miss someone's arms around me...

I guess is time to listen to some Mitski songs or something like that.

[thearksys]

i love you more than anything the birds caw when you sing and when the church bells ring they will call us king no longer am I somber for I am a poet with a wife! again and again I will ponder this happiness couldn't last for longer i am perfect where I am, divine thing we make a powerful duo! blessed be!

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the love I desire

the love I desire is rotten but sweet because we are both broken, darling we were both meant for falling you will hold me in bed with your human hands but I know you are divine inside you do not have to hide yourself from me, my love you are perfect to me the hands that have held the apple aren't broken they're perfect even when they're frozen and when we go to the underworld we will go together but for now we lay in silence mourning the angels who came before us i love you to death, my dear

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GIRLLL THE GIRL I GAVE AN EVIL EYE TO TODAY IS SAGING HER ROOM RN I SMELL IT I CANNOT

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I do not need you anymore. You are no longer part of my spirit’s tether. I reclaim my energy. You were once someone I loved. I will no longer let you linger. I am myself now fully without you. Likes charge, reblogs cast.

[thearksys]

im gonna do a cord cutting ritual soon lmfao I gotta I can't deal with this shit no more

[thearksys]

in my dreams there will be death and rotten apples, im sure