thehiddengardenofme

[thehiddengardenofme]

sometimes it feels like life has stopped completely for me like life seems so good when you see it from outside like i’m surrounded by good people and im happy mentally but also like something is missing or is about to go wrong. it’s like im minutes from my life from exploding but idk what from what really. is it friend that has stopped talking to me or something more internal.

[thehiddengardenofme]

and my final act of love would be to force myself to never speak to them again.

[thehiddengardenofme]

"I want to tell you I miss you with no subtext. No guilt, no anger, no expectation that you'll fix it. I don't want you to feel bad or to tell me it will get better. This is where we are meant to be right now - me apart from you, my hands a little empty and my heart a little sad. I just miss you. I wanted you to know."

— @anneisrestless

[thehiddengardenofme]

just created this today as form of an online dairy because sometimes you need a place to vent and still be public incase people relate. i’m not going to say who i am for privacy reasons but im a gay latino man (ish) who is currently in college. i have always been going through a lot mentally being a first generation in everything and having people not understand most struggles. I had to struggle with being the first one in college, sexuality stuff, grief, gender identity crisis, and more alone because the people in my life seem not to get it. i’ll probably post when my life is about to tip over.