thelocal-trashcan

[thelocal-trashcan]

[Might contain some spoiler]

So far one of my fav Kdrama.

There was no unnecessary drama nor romance and I LOVE IT.

Tbh beomseok is at fault. Tho I might understand where this feeling was coming from: he was bullied at school and on top also abused at home. When switched schools he wanted nothing more than to be accepted and respected. When he found friends Beomseok felt offended by the way Sooho was joking around and teasing. Never having any friends and unaware that not everyone who's teasing you does this to hurt you. To Beomseok all those jokes were registered as an attempt to bully him. Adding on the fact that Sooho didn't follow him back on SM. All this scarred his ego. So he started to despise Sooho.

Till this point, I could understand Beomseok but things take an ugly turn.

To make this short, he had too many chances to stop. Both, Sooho and Sieun, repeatedly warned him. Beomseok never saw Sooho's personality as a sign to change his own perspective in life. A damaged perspective caused by all the traumas in his life: a need to prove himself. Nor did he talk to them about their behaviors.

There were plenty of ways to work this out but Beomseok chose to 'punish' Sooho for 'looking down' on him. The point when Sieun got dragged into this and got beaten up was the point where he crossed the line.

Sieun, a true friend that was ready to forgive him for the sake of their friendship.

Beomseok harmed and bullied others as well as his own friends. Paying people to beat Sooho up. Till he ends up in something like a coma.

Their beautiful friendship was destroyed by a simple unspoken thought.

[thelocal-trashcan]

I've been listening to hollow alot recently.

To describe the vibe of the song I'd call it calm, relieving, but somehow melancholic. I noticed the lyrics and I didn't quite understand the meaning.

At first, I thought the lyrics was about life. I interpreted 'hollow' as the way to exist for a short time. Just like a shooting star, that just shines for the moment. A shadow that eventually will be forgotten . A life in which everything you do, archive, and all all your hard work go to vain. Nothing in this world lasts and so will you and your life. A ephemeral moment or just a shadow.

As I digged deeper into this. There was another meaning: the lyrics is telling a story

The lyrics hits really hard as it tells a story full of disappointment. Hollow - emptiness.

"Hollow

Carve the words from your tongue

Fall on your misfortune

Don't speak

Shadow"

It's so vague to clearly identify the situation unlike the message: a deep dissatisfaction with the honesty of someone. Words from someone. Words from a trusted person that ends up backstabbing and taking away your happiness. So the writer tells to spare him from those unfaithful words, so that person may fall into the same misfortune they put the writer into. In other words, tasting their own medicine.

"Who

Who's to blame a promise

Spoke when it was honest

Then broken the same

Oh, All I ever wanted

Was to crawl into your arctic

And hold you unscathed"

The lyrics speaks for itself: A promise is nothing but words. The one to blame is the person that spoke every words as if they were sincere. A person that broke your faith, when all you wanted was to hold them close and safe.

"Hold the air in your lungs

Innocence is undone

Slowly"

To hold your breath. In other words, keep all those told and untold lies. Keep them to yourself. Lies that left a huge scar filled with sorrow and regret. Which leads to mistrust as the truth unravels. Confronted with all that the way they used to look in your eyes changes. A person you thought was filled with innocence, just to stumble upon their true face.

"Swallow

The secrets you've been guarding

Time will leave you starving

And hollow".

Personally, this part hits me the most. It's about to 'swallow' all the pain and sorrow. During the whole lyrics you get to see the pure hurt of a person that was truly loving. But eventually it came to an end and now it's time to start healing. It's time to accept everything and go one.

All the "secrets you've been guarding". Things or memories you kept to yourself. Things you won't tell anyone else anymore. "Time will leave you starving". And as much as you try. Something will always be missing

"And hollow"

a huge hole.