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winter loneliness doodle art 

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Short ranting.

It is said that once in your life, you will meet someone who will take your breath away. I have met this person but never have I imagined that things will be so complicated. You possess qualities that will make any girl fall head over heels for you. You are intense, passionate, gentle and caring and you make me feel so complete. At the same time, you get controlling, suspicious, jealous and possessive making me feel as if my existence depends solely on you. Why are you such a difficult person? Why so much ego? Why is it so difficult for you to trust me? Our relationship is at stake. I don’t know what the future holds for us. It feels like we are growing apart by not talking to each other and yet missing each other so dearly. But can we get back together? Or should we get back together?

Our relationship was not a healthy one. Change was presumably going to happen but at the end of the day, words being superfluous were never put into actions. Even though I dearly miss you and at many times I’m depressed, I am more at peace with myself right now than when I am with you. Yet, I love you deeply and it’s not easy. Perhaps, living without each other is a lesson for both of us. Hopefully, we will become better persons.

So be it.

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A different kind of love note

13/02/2015

Dear lover of mine,

Wherever you are,whoever you might be, please hear me out. All my life, I have longed for three great things: 1) understanding spirituality, 2) finding true love and 3) going on little adventures. With spirituality, comes wisdom. I have knowledge but I don’t have wisdom yet because I’m flawed, like any human being. But my goal in life is to follow a path which will make my soul happy. I want to feel connected to the universe. I want to feel the omnipresence of the world, God around me, in me. Secondly, I have craved all my life for, an unconditional love. I want to love passionately, without any limits and forget about the ego, the me and finally lose myself in the you and feel our souls unite, connect. It is all about merging, two hearbeats being one. It is all about feeling complete in the eyes of the beloved. My longing for love has always been a passionate fiery one and spiritual one at the same time. Through instances of wild love making, I see both of us, lovers, tamed. We become so gentle yet everything still holds the passion. Love making becomes a spiritual escape, an experience beyond pleasure. I long for the cosmic high given and taken. I long for a love of a different kind. I long for a love which does not possess but completes. Last but not least, I always find it a must in me to go on little adventures, be it travelling, reading or any creative thing which kills boredom. I have the urge to keep myself busy and connected to my passions else I become depressed, dull and lose my zeal to life. Art, travelling, connecting with others, makes me feel alive. I know that I am living not just merely existing. And there, I just be. And so be it. Me, being at peace with myself. Me, losing myself in my creative side. Me, trusting in my own instincts. And me, coming out of my shell, blooming, shining. All in good vibes. So, that was it. My 3 longings. All three are connected. My lover, I hope we both embark in a spiritual journey throughout our lives together. I hope that, even though, our paths and choices might or might not differ, we respect each other and find each other’s way of seeing life beautiful. And I sincerely hope that sex is not indulged in for just pleasure, that we transcend that level and evolve on a more spiritual level of merging together. And I hope that we can go on little adventures together, find time in life to travel and have our own independent passions so that we complete each other but at the same time, we spend time on our own, individually, embracing life and acknowledging that we are alive and a blessing of the universe.

Wherever/whoever you are,

Know that you are in my thoughts and that I love you.

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A new horizon, a new hope.

First month of 2015 already over. My list of resolutions & my timetable are not ready yet but well, thought of dropping some words here and becoming more active and connecting to people with good vibes. So, what's new in my life? It's been now 5 months since I left home to pursue my masters in Bordeaux, France. Life is nothing as before. There are many setbacks, many challenges. At times, i feel like giving up and often, it does get lonely here and this really does not help.

Some afternoons, I like to sit on my bed for hours and stare at the gloomy rainy weather for sometimes hours. I noticed a weird thing that made me strangely sad. I saw one particular bird perched on a branch in the rain. It was getting soaking wet and yet it did not move. Nature is strange, isn't it?

But then again, I push myself and remind myself why I'm here in the first place. I have a goal to gradually fulfill and it took me a while to get where I am, right now. So, even though it's hard, I am still grateful. Because, i trust in the universe no matter what.

Deep down, even if it's not okay.. I believe that it is a trial, a trial for growth, for survival. This is why, I welcome you, with open arms, 2015, Bring it on! I'm ready for you. I'm ready for your laughs, your heartaches, your tests and your lessons.  And to all of you beautiful souls who are reading this, know that pain is temporary.. and doubt is an illusion created by our minds. Do not lose hope, have faith, always. Love, Pooja

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The one I need vs the one I love

The one I need makes me dance in the rain

where every raindrop tastes like champagne.

But the one I love makes me cry in the rain

where every tear drop reminds me of pain.

The one I need holds me when I’m down

making my fears run away and never come around.

But the one I love looks down on me

Making me confused and wanting to flee.

The one I need paints colors in the dark

and each color becomes a beautiful spark.

But the one I love switches off the light

And quickly, he is out of my sight.

The one I need shows me how to fly

always keen that I reach so high.

But the one I love is a different knight

always clipping my wings so tight.

The one I need listens to the song of my heart

and everything suddenly feels like a work of art.

But the one I love hears the song of my heart

and everything suddenly reflects only the weak part. 30/01/2015. From Her. For Him.

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This is sick! I absolutely love thissss!

Immerse | Kimsey Price | Mixed Media

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sooo many colours... beautiful :)

this is amazing.