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Really fun fact about me:

My most recent dream I remember was a very vivid experience of watching D. Trump get assassinated.

Like he was giving a dumb as shit speech at my college outside and there was this really big building behind him with all these windows and suddenly in one of the top right windows I saw a tiny red lazar light and then BANG!! Motherfucker was dead and everyone was running a screaming. Eventually everything calmed down and I remembered kinda celebrating with the people around me.

But yeah that is the only time the mf has been like present in a dream of mine and it was just to watch him die.

Anyways I hope Apollo gets me on this one (although he is NOT speaking at my college any time soon lol)

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Shoutout to my dad who accidentally moved into an up and coming black lgbt neighborhood and was very disappointed to learn that all of his “new friends” weren’t actually interested in how to use iNaturalist or where he saw coyotes on his walks 😔🙏🏻

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this cut made me WHEEZE. what are they doing.

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inspired by this post (by @dolphinlegs128 ) i offer you all yet another example of bdubs being this tweet

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Hehehehe me

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I made more Magnus archives art work, this is part of an assignment for a class but thought I’d share!

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No but like annoying and bullying your friends is the best kind of affection

POV: you dont know how to show your best friend affection unless its being a complete nuisance and asshole <3

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Man was so famously a slut, the day he died the brothels in his area closed for a day or two to mourn him

“Be curious about what you’re writing about” is not stock Common Writing Advice but it really, really should be. There are a lot of written works that fail due to the authors just being obviously incurious about what they are writing about.

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My friend you could very well be doing all those things you admire, we are all negatively biased against our own work due to the need to be our own critics in order to improve. What you see/ read in your work is naturally going to be very different than what everyone else sees/reads because of that bias. Of course it is healthy to recognize where you need to improve but don’t sell yourself short. ❤️

*reads fanfiction with the most incredible description, most incredible inner monologue, most incredible dialog, most incredible pacing, most incredible world building, and just most incredible writing*

*looks at my own shrimpy writing skills*

*looks back at incredible fanfiction*

*blinks*

*shakes it with unyielding force*

"HOW DO I DO THAT?!?!?!??!?!!?"

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I’m pretty sure at least 90% of what I think about can be summarized as HERMITCRAFT!!! ✨trans✨ omg I have friends 💕💕music💕💕

Sometimes I have a lot of fun being autistic as hell

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I think so many issues regarding the “trans debate” could be fixed if the people so scared of trans people just knowingly spoke to trans people. This is an obvious idea and solution.

HOWEVER, I have a more fun and imaginative solution (imaginative because it’s impossible). I want more than anything else to project into people’s minds the experience of being trans; the discomfort, the misery, the constant never ending ‘mild’ disrespect and misgendering, the feeling of being misgendered by a stranger so you just have to let it go because that’s the 20th time that day, the difference of how you see yourself and what you see in the mirror, the deep distrust that gender dysphoria gives you about the people who care about you because ‘how can they see a man when they look at me, I don’t even see a man’, just the constant brutality of being young and trans.

Then once they can fully understand that insane level of misery, I want them to experience transitioning; the feeling of slowly being able to recognize yourself, the sounds of voice cracks and drops for the first time, finally being gendered correctly a majority of the time, the dramatic shift in mental health and stability, how the people who care about you react to you changing, just the serene overwhelming euphoria of finally becoming yourself in a way you never thought possible. 

I don’t think anyone with any amount of decency could go through all that for even a moment and still find such issue with trans people existing and receiving the care they need.

(Below this is just additional me rambling for fun the point has been made)

Of course this is all clearly from a trans man’s pov and I can imagine it would be different for trans women and definitely for non-binary trans people, but the idea would still apply.

I also want this to apply to more than just transphobes. My cis friends fundamentally cannot fully understand what it even feels like for their sex and gender to be 2 different things. They can see my struggles and my joy, but they don’t know truly what it feels like to have that discrepancy. I had a conversation with a good friend a few years back about my transness, when he first met me he couldn’t tell if I was a boy or girl (his words (most of this will be his words)) and so once it was clarified to him that I identify as a man (I was 18 boy is probably more accurate) that’s what I was no problem and I have no memories of him disrespecting or misgendering me. But when we finally got to talking about it the idea of separating sex and gender was something he could not for the life of him grasp, he understood that I was born a girl but now I am a man and again that was fine, but he just could not separate them and eventually I just dropped it and we’ve never talked about it since.

God what I would give to be able to subject my mom to my struggles with gender dysphoria that I was dealing with as a teenager that she was only making worse, and then show her genuinely how much better testosterone made my life despite her apprehension regarding me going on T. Whenever I try to talk to her about how T specifically made my life better she tried to credit other things in my life and tried to frame it like it was a small boost instead of the world changing miracle drug that it was for me.

I’ve talked about the effects testosterone has had for me a million times at this point and probably at least 5 times on this account already but I just will never get over how much it changed. My experience with T started out with the worst depressive episode of my life only about 2 months in and that lasted like a month and a half, but once I got out of that it was like I was a whole new person. I started showing up everywhere more consistently, my friends saw me more regularly, I became so much more sociable. Then my junior year started (3rd year of university) and I went from getting a 2.4 gpa the semester prior to getting a 3.9, I was turning in like 95% of my homework in on time, I had almost perfect attendance, I was successfully taking and getting As in my 8:35am classes where previously I had dropped/ failed any class before 10:45, I was really trying to be successful in school because I WANTED to be. That following summer I for the most part held down 3 jobs and made new friends and connections everywhere I went and I was PRACTICING, something that I have always really struggled to motivate myself to do. Finally starting this school year I was back in my private lessons so I had to go through ensemble auditions and for once I really cared about the outcome. The first thing my lesson teacher said to me after I finished my audition was “wow, I am so proud of you, you are so much more confident than I’ve ever seen you” and that praise has followed me to every person who has worked with me for solo playing. And I’ve still kept up most of the academic momentum from last year I’m still doing pretty good, I will say some degree of senioritis has caught up to me and I really could be doing better this semester, but like if it wasn’t for T I probably would have dropped out a year or so ago.

TLDR: (for just the rambling bits) I want to project my experiences onto everyone not just transphobes. And, testosterone is genuinely the best thing that has ever happened to me and I love being trans now!

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I love how both of them use twitter because it’s in very different ways but both are odd. Like Tango rarely posts and most of his posts are just like “had a lovely day” “ate cheese” or whatever. Then Doc’s in the corner loosing his mind at a moments notice and trying to fight everyone but tags no one.

angry vs unbothered

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This isn’t a guarantee that everything will be ok for the parks, but this is some good news in a sea of bad.

The parks still need us

Volunteer or donate if you can

Find ways to get involved

The fight won’t be over for a MINIMUM of 4 years 2 if we’re really really lucky

The national parks are one of the greatest things this country has ever done and we will not let a stupid orange puppet fuck them over for future generations

https://www.sfgate.com/california-parks/article/judge-says-park-service-reinstate-fired-employees-20220040.php

Public outcry works. Protest works.

Keep raising hell!

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As many posts you see talking about the problems trans women face, never forget that it has been worth it. Every trans women i’ve talked to has said they wouldnt reverse their decision to start hormones or get surgery or whatever. Its worth it. I feel so much better about myself generally. I didnt think tjat would happen. You expect nothing to change. You expect to keep being the same depressed boy with no light. But genuinely hrt has added a brilliance to my life i never thought possible. I used to think it would be the same bleak shit. But it isnt. Everything is in color now. Just dont die wondering, ok?

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This is so real

the voice of the devil

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he folded so fast after that voice are you kidding me

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This is very much a political rant post but I need to let this out.

I am experiencing a red hot level of pure rage at Trump and Elon’s attack on our national forests and parks. Like everything else they have been doing have angered and scared me don’t get me wrong, I am a trans person in this country shit is bad, but this is on a completely different level. Like I so far past ‘go fuck yourself’ and I fully at the ‘I’ll fucking kill you’ type of anger. Our national parks are probably the single greatest thing this country has ever done and we lead the movement towards protecting the natural beauty of our land, and they want to cut it all down, let it burn, and sell it off to the fastest bidder. I don’t think I’ve ever been more disgusted and angry in my life. I care deeply about all the other horrific things they’re doing but like, before I cared about anything I cared about the beauty of this country. I am from Idaho, I am from forests and rivers, I am from wildlife that will kill you but deserves protecting and they are going to try to take all that away for the sake of money that will never see the American people. I will kill them I will shoot them fucking dead I have never wanted to own a gun more in my life I will fucking kill them I will kill them I will kill them I will kill them I will kill them I will kill them I will kill them I will kill them