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2017.02.11

It’s been long since I’ve updated? Sigh. I just wanted to type out what I’ve been feeling recently.

I’ve been feeling lots of adoration for Yoongi recently. I keep wanting to give him more things, more stuff, actually do things for him. So I did. I bought birthday gifts for him and got it delivered to him via a fansite. The gift is nothing huge honestly... But I really hope he likes it. I want to give him something more next year. I want to hold a birthday project for him next year. I’ve been looking up for advertising companies and it wasn’t very fruitful to be honest. I only managed to find one company. And after finding out about the company, I keep thinking about how I want to execute this. Is it possible for be to single handed-ly pull off a birthday project for him next year? If I start now, will I be able to do it? 

Honestly I’m hesitating between donating to a reputable charity under his name for his birthday and having a advertisement board or digital poster up and running for his birthday. The advertising one sounds a little too overwhelming for a one man show so maybe I will go with the donations in the end. But I really want to do up an advertisement board for him... Maybe I’ll find people who want to do it as well then we can work something out together... I was thinking of starting a union so that people who want to help out for the advertisement board can work together but I honestly don’t know if anyone would... I also thought of using a photocard project to help fund for the board but I don’t know how many people would want to buy and participate. 

Mark my words, if they come to Singapore for concert, I will print out photocards and give them out for free on the day of the concert. I just really wish to do something for Yoongi.

Okay that’s it. That’s all I wanted to say. I just wanted to say how strongly I’ve been feeling about wanting to do something for Yoongi these days. 

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2016;

Haha, it’s 2017 already and I’m writing about 2016. Look how organised I am.

Anyway, I just wanted to do a reflection? A recap? Of what happened in 2016.

2016 was a year where I really asked myself ‘Is this really who you want to be?’ There are so many things that I have done and some, I have regretted. Some have made me think if what I did was really the right choice. But then again, I feel like 2016 was also a year where I found out a little more about myself. Found out about what I like and dislike. More accurately, found out about what kind of traits I like in someone and what I really hate when working together with someone. Honestly, nothing much happened in my life. It just revolved around school work, holidays and bangtan. I also met quite a few new people in 2016 and I’m really happy about that. Although they are fandom friends, I really am thankful to have met them. 

Dedication post for them maybe? They probably won’t see this but :”)

To Natashah: I’m really so happy to have met you in 2016, really. I think we interacted way before 2016 but still. I’m so thankful to have you in my life. Thank you for being such a great friend and company... I really can’t wait to see you again and also I can’t wait to drag you to bangtan’s concert with me. Also, you’re the only one I can talk about rated stuff to. HAHAH. Thank you for being in my life and I sincerely hope you don’t die while studying for Os this year.

To Nicole: I figured out you’re not really my fandom friend AND I didn’t meet you in 2016 but weLL AHAHHAHAHA. I really wanna thank you for listening to me rant. ;;;; I seriously appreciate you so much. Thank you for always being such a good friend. I always have so much fun talking to you and calling you my child. MY CHILD. Let’s hope we bump into each other again in school. HAHAHHA. Also, good luck to you since you will be entering year 2 in poly real soon. HEHEHEH.

To Wen Qian and Jing Ying: Honestly, I don’t know what have I done in my previous life to have two you talented dancers as my friends. I’m so proud to have you guys as my friends, really. Thank you for all the spams we had ;;; I will forever remember that one time we started talking in Korean for like a good half and hour. HAHAHHA. I miss you guys. ;u; 

To Sherry: MOM. I don’t know how you became my mom and we didn’t meet in 2016 lmfao but I’m adding you here. I just wanna tell you how I find you to be a really cool person and I’m glad to have you in my life okay. /u\ Also, it was really cool to actually know someone who has the same name as me soooo. Good luck at work!! Gonna be a year since you became a working adult already HAHAHAH. 

To Jun Ning: We haven’t really talked much but I really wanna tell you that I support you so much and I am super happy to have known you in 2016!! Please, whenever you feel like you need someone to listen to you, know that I will always be more than happy to hear you out. I hope everything goes well for you this year, especially since it’s O levels this year!

A dedication post for my real life friends too? Lmao, this is becoming a dedication entry.

To Qiu En: We definitely didn’t meet in 2016 but I feel like 2016 was a year where we got even close to each other. Hehehe. Thank you for always being someone I can rely on!! Really never thought that I would meet a reliable friend in poly but thank you for proving me wrong. I really appreciate you so much. You know that right? Even though I’m always like super mean to you. ;u; I have a goldfish memory and can’t remember all the exact details of our outings but I really treasure those times where we went out. Thank you for being there for me in 2016! Hopefully it will be the same in 2017 as well. HEHEHE HAPPY 1 YEAR + 1 DAY ON SNAPCHAT!! 

To Circle People: We don’t really talk anymore but I really enjoy reading your tweets on my timeline and keeping myself updated with what you guys are doing. As for cass... I will be diligently stalking her instagram. HAHAHAH. But really, miss you guys and I really hope everything would go well for you in 2017!  

There are really more people that I wish I could write about but I just suck at maintaining contact with people so... Jiayi, Tani and Naq I really hope you guys will have a great 2017!! I’m so sorry I suck at maintaining contact and I literally the worst. Didn’t meet you guys in 2016 but yeah, I hope everything goes well for you guys in 2017!!

Okay I think I’m done with the dedication posts. HAHAHA. Back to my recap.

2016 was really an interesting year because I had a lot of first in 2016. Started working for the first time in my life, bought my first fansite goods, tried on makeup for the first time ever, tried playing that dance machine in the arcade for the first time ever, dyed my hair for the first time, walked to sentosa for the first time, went to the klive sentosa thing for the first time... There really are a lot of new experiences in 2016. And I’m so grateful for that. I really hope I would try out even more new things in 2017 and create even more memorable experiences for myself.

Honestly, writing this post made me realise that my 2016 was actually not a bad year. Certainly had my ups and downs, but overall, it wasn’t that bad of a year.

Hopefully 2017 would be a better year!!

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16.09.27

Let’s just ignore the fact that this post is nearly one week late. I suck at being on time and updating okay.

Anyway, I went out with En to go on a Pokemon hunt at Vivo and Sentosa and really had a lot of fun that day!! 

So when we reached Vivo, we grabbed lunch at Monster Curry and honestly the portion is so big that I can’t finish it so definitely worth the price HAHAHA. After that, we got Starbucks and went to the rooftop to catch some Pokemon. We really caught lots of Pokemon there!! There were like non-stop spawning of Pokemon!! And there were also lots of camp activities lmao. Anyways, after a while, we decided to walk over to Sentosa and there, we saw the K-Live Sentosa shop!!! Me and En were totally embarrassing cause we were taking pics of the GOT7 standees they had outside and we totally made a lot of noise lmao. I’m pretty sure we were standing at the shop for around 5 mins or so?? We were just squealing and taking pictures lmao. I’m not a iGot7 but I really like Mark, BamBam and Jackson so... ;U; Anyway, I think we made too much noise that a staff walked out lmao. We just sneaked away after the staff walked out to see what was happening HAHAHA. There were lots of loitering around outside USS too... I wanna go to USS... ;u; BUT!! Even though we didn’t enter USS, we managed to take a selfie at the USS globe hehe. 

It’s really rare for me to take a selfie lmao.

After the endless loitering, we decided to catch a show at K-Live Sentosa and I can promise you, this JYP Nation show at K-Live Sentosa was the HIGHLIGHT of that day. I totally don’t regret one bit going to watch the JYP Nation show. Even though I don’t know most of the artists (and by that I mean I only know Mark, BamBam, Jackson, Nichkhun, Taecyeon and Wooyoung) I still had loads of fun!! The show is really cool and I couldn’t stop being amazed and technology these days. AMAZING. I was so bumped to know that there wasn’t Twice though... Me and En are like huge fans of Twice’s songs... Hopefully they’ll add it soon and maybe then we will visit the place again!

After the K-Live Sentosa experience, we went to Sentosa and walked around for a bit. The sentosa part was really funny cause we were just walking around with no aim and then we got kinda lost and then we decided to head back to Vivo HAHAHA.

When we were back at Vivo, we went to the arcade and played the Dance Dance Revolution machine and Mario Cart!!! SUPER FUN!!!! As expected of arcades HAHAHA. 

That day was a really fun day and it once again made me felt how happy and lucky I was to be able to meet En in poly. I will always be thankful for the fact that I met her and became friends with her. I don’t know if it’s because of poly that I’ve changed or because I got more matured or because I got to meet En but I found myself to be more able to express myself properly. Before this, the me in the virtual world is way different from the me in the real world. I tend to sound really outgoing and hyper online but offline, I’m really shy and quiet. But I feel that the gap closed quite a lot after I got to poly. I’m not sure why that is the case but I feel that it might be because I have En who makes me feel rather comfortable. I mean, I still am quite different online and offline but the difference isn’t really a lot these days. And I’m really happy with that. There are really lots of things that she makes me feel thankful for but mostly importantly, I’m thankful that she calls me her friend.

ANYWAY, we’re going back to Vivo and Sentosa again this Wednesday so hopefully that post wouldn’t be almost one week late too lmao.

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16.09.23

AGUST D

It has been over one month since the mixtape has been dropped and also since Yoongi showed a new side of him which is Augst D. I can’t imagine how he feels about finally releasing this mixtape for the public to listen to. 

As a Yoongi stan, I’m really proud of him and this mixtape is probably one of the things I treasure most about him. This mixtape allowed me to learn more about him. He revealed a lot about himself in this mixtape and I think it’s a very beautiful thing. His thoughts, past experiences, feelings... It’s all hidden in the lyrics of the tracks in the mixtape. I honestly don’t know when is the day where I would stop being emotional about the mixtape. Whenever I start talking about the mixtape, I can’t stop easily. I’m just so proud of him for everything he has done. He joined the company and signed the contract thinking he would be part of a hip-hop group and wouldn’t need to dance and all but look at him now. He’s a part of a group that is known for their sharp and tight group choreography. A kid who had depression and social anxiety overcame it and debuted. He went through so much. The road to success for him really wasn’t a smooth one and I’m so proud of him for overcoming all these things and being where he is today. I’m so glad he finally has a large audience he can perform to and I hope for the audience to grow even bigger. I hope people appreciate him for the musician and person he is instead of just liking him because of the relatable things he says. I dare not ask for people to love Min Yoongi the same way as I do, because what rights do I have to make the love I have for him the “model way” to love Min Yoongi but I really hope people would see Yoongi for who he is, appreciate and think about the things he says deeply because then you’ll see what an amazing person Min Yoongi is. 

I never regretted deciding to stan bangtan and eventually making them my ultimate group because I learnt the existence of Min Yoongi who became my ultimate bias in a blink of an eye. I only hope for him to always grow as a musician and hope that he’ll always improve and be a person he would be proud of. 

앞으로 함께 갑시다 민윤기. 계속 응원할거야.

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16.09.21

Slandering Namjoon

I just saw a group of people on Twitter making up a fake song and slandering Namjoon, saying he made a song about r*pe. This angers me. Why are people so keen on wanting to drag down someone? Trying to mislead people and make them think that Namjoon actually did that? What kind of pleasure do they take away from that? I always told myself this: If you don’t like someone, just keep it to yourself and shut up. If you really hate someone, you wouldn’t want to talk to or about that person. But some people are just so keen on wanting to bring another person down that they’re willing to create fake news to do it. Why go to that extent? If they actually knew the person and that person is a straight up bullshit person to them, then maybe I’ll just shut up on that. Because they experience injustice first hand. But in this case, Namjoon probably NEVER talked to them before but they are just so keen on wanting to drag him down. It’s so annoying to see. 

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introduction

It would be nice if the first post would be more of an introduction post. 

This blog has been created for me to dump all my thoughts in a place, be it thoughts about idols or just thoughts about my life and how my life has been. Occasionally it could be both. I thought it would be nice for me to keep a journal of my life. And also because some of the thoughts I have are too long for me to share on Twitter.

I plan to have three main tag on my tumblr. 

#personal: things about myself, my day, just everything dedicate to me

#kpop: thoughts about kpop i have, be it just wanting to show off my adoration or things i feel about certain subjects of kpop

#mixed: i think most of my post would be in this tag but this tag would mostly be thoughts i have or feelings i’ve felt in regards or because of kpop

I also plan to tag my post with:

year (eg. #2016)

feelings (eg. #positive, #negative)

For anyone that happened to stumble upon this blog without knowing who am I:

I am sherry. I have a fanacc on twitter (ask me for my @ if you want to talk to me on twitter instead) and I am a kpop fan. I like bts and vixx. I don’t have an established tumblr as I’m writing this post but I have already created a blog that I’m planning to do up when I have the time. 

The reason why the url for this blog is thinking-panda because I like to associate myself with panda and this is a place for me to freely express my thoughts so yeah, thinking-panda.

Now, this would be a great place to end the introduction post, wouldn’t it?