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[thisisafreens]

A girl disguised as 'me'

She wears her traumas like war paint. Wipes her tears before they even have a chance to roll off of her cheeks but sometimes the circumstances make it too difficult to gulp back her tears, she's a human afterall. She makes beauty out of sorrows like it's a piece of art. She keeps herself a bit hidden and her walls a bit high. She has a soft heart and a pure soul. She has healed herself more times than you can ever imagine. She often questions her worth and asks herself "what thing worthy of love can be found in me?". Her sadness sometimes is like an eternal flow of water. She's constantly tormented by her heart and mind.

She loves the fact that no matter what happens, she still remains sensitive and full of love, that no one can ever take the softness away from her. She carries grief like a warrior and cries over losing a pen. Her tears escape frantically over very silly things, for her heart has been burdened from all the times she wanted to cry but couldn't. Nobody comes to her mind when asked 'who cares?' so she stayed sobbing under a table when she found no one who cares. She carried pain on her shoulders, and her heart only became softer. She was beautifully out of place. Her eyes carried grief like an art of unspoken love. She smiles despite all the pain her heart carries.

I think it's time for her to stop bringing flowers to the grave of the teenager she used to be. It's time for her to treat herself with softness and gentleness when things are hard to bear. I want her to know that being soft and kind is her superpower and not her weakness.

-Yasmeen

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"In degenerate times, modesty is an act of rebellion."

-Afreen Razvi

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Note to self: you're on your own kid, you always have been.

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“The ones who notice the storm in your eyes, the silence in your voice, and the heaviness in your heart are the ones you need to let in.”

— Word Porn

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“The trick is to care about everyone while not caring what they think.”

— Unknown

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“Perhaps one did not want to be loved so much as to be understood.”

—George Orwell, 1984

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“Grief, I've learned, is really just love. It's all the love you want to give, but cannot. All that unspent love gathers up in the corners of your eyes, the lump in your throat, and in that hollow part of your chest. Grief is just love with no place to go.”

—Jamie Anderson

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but this body is home, my childhood is buried here, my sleep rises and sets inside, desire crested and wore itself thin between these bones —I live here.

—Lisel Mueller, "A Nude by Edward Hopper"

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“I am worth more than every thing I went through, but that worth came from everything I went through”

Zainab Gaffoor

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“starting to accept the hurt i caused myself”

— i created a perfect monster for myself. i let you do everything to me. all the things i had promised i won’t ever do to myself, all the things i promised i won’t ever let be done to me. i let you take out your frustration, your tired, your sad, your everything but happy out on me. i let you reserve your happy for someone else and i hoped that someday you would share your happy with me, at least a little bit of it. but i forgot, i let you give me your worst and i had no right to expect anything but that from you since you never had a best, at least never for me

[thisisafreens]

There are leaves that survive deserts

And frosted leaves that wither cold

Beauty in its extreme forms life

And nature’s graces firmly hold

Just as sunshine builds and blesses

So do hail and rain and sand storms

Falter one wills at times and falls -

Every season will be wild and tame

As no two souls are such the same

So does a breath breathe deeper

faster or warmer or colder another

Does not mean that it is any less.

[thisisafreens]

Your scars are not imperfections,

Crying doesn’t make you weak,

Listening to yourself doesn’t make you selfish,

Loving yourself doesn’t make you a narcissist,

Laughing your heart out doesn’t make you look weird,

Singing along to songs while walking doesn’t make you look like a hippie,

Cutting out the wrong people from your life shouldn’t make you feel deserted,

Doing what you feel is right isn’t making the wrong decision,

Burning bridges that connect you to places you want to forget isn’t called being detached,

Sharing your feelings doesn’t make you vulnerable,

Being you doesn’t mean anything to anyone but means more to you,

If you do something for yourself,

It is for yourself,

No explanations are needed to be given.

-afreen

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A person that keeps consoling oneself by saying, 'I can't do it', again and again convinces oneself of their own worst lie. A person standing by the shore looking at the sea spends majority of his life thinking that he would drown if he jumped in, what he doesn't realize is, how will he ever learn to swim if he doesn't jump in ?

-Yasmeen

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A husband and wife's relationship is a lawful one that is forged by God's command. In presence of the witnesses, the conditions of marriage are accepted, which one remains faithful to, for the rest of one's life. People nowadays, in order to maintain affairs of the heart, puts one's lawful relationships into peril. This then makes the rights of a marriage, worthless. Remember one thing, on the day of judgement, rather than our affairs of the heart, we will be answerable on how we maintained the rights of our lawful relationship. In fact, we will also be questionable for it.

-Yasmeen

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I have come to realise that you may not be where you wanted yourself to be but where Allah wants you to be and there's such incredible level of peace and satisfaction in knowing that your journey is planned by the eternal lord. There's so much more than your imagination that Allah is capable of. He is the all knower. The all mighty. The supreme. The all seeing. Try to apprehend his being by understanding him better. He might not give you what you want but try to have absolute blind faith and trust in him and have patience that he is going to provide you with that with which you will be satisfied. He is going to compensate you because your were satisfied at a time when being satisfied with was not easy and that perhaps is all I hang on to.

-Yasmeen

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“I guess we are both angels in each other’s stories and demons in out own context.”

— Afreen Razvi, Letters to My Bestie

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“If you are going to write hijabi in your bio, live up to the haya standard of this physical reminder of modesty.

When you write hijabi, know that you are not just representing yourself, you are representing Aalimas, Hafizas, Mu'alimmas , you are representing the great warrior women that represented Islam in the hardest of times, amongst the worst of crowds, you are representing Ummah-tul-mou'mineen , you are representing Mother Mary (may Allah be pleased with them all), you are representing every single woman that lived and died symbolising modesty.

Understand the value of the term hijabi it’s a label only the most dignified modest women are entitled to. Your wardrobe has more depth to it than making it a mere fashion statement. It’s a cloth representing honour. It’s a clothing that belongs to honoured women.

You represent me, you represent yourself, you represent us, you represent the women before you and the girls that are to come after all of us. Living upto the standards of haya as a hijabi is not a mere necessity, it’s a responsibility.”

-Afreen Razvi, Symbols Of Honour