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This is how it happens.

The time is 8:30 p.m. The day is winding down and I’m snuggled up to my wife. As tired as feel after a long day started by waking up at 5:00 a.m. sleep is a distance unreachable by simply shutting my eyes and embracing it. So, i toss and turn a million times (occasionally stealing blankets), and try to find a position to just give up in. Eventually, it happens... My ever trusty cellular device becomes something like a villain disguised as a hero, saving me from the sleepless night I’ve been doomed to but also providing a reason to be sleepless. In my defense I just want a sweet escape from the boredom. So, into its tricky trap I fall. My descend starts by creeping on the news feed on Facebook, (watching videos and sharing my finds.) when suddenly, next thing i know, i feel like i can actually sleep. (hallelujah!) The time now is 3 minutes to 10 o’clock (p.m.). I lock my phone, place it on my end table next to my bed, find a comfortable position, and get ready for the sweet embrace that sleep has to offer. But... of course my brain chooses now to be the most active, and not like the good kind of active either, like money making ideas, or creativity. Nope! My brain needs to know what exactly what ‘20/20′ vision stands for. (it can’t just accept the fact that it mean perfect vision, it needs to know why 20 is the number). As i try and try to fight the urges to search this useless information (for someone like me), my will power is at it weakest state and it breaks. Again I’m staring at my phone in the palm of my hand looking at a plethora of answers to my question. Satisfied, (and luckily still a little tired) I repeat my: lock, place, find comfort routine. My brain has is no longer interested in vision. It seems I’ve finally allowed my brain to relax.. Not even close. Now its curious to know what Alanis Morissette has been up to in 2017... WHY??? I don’t even listen to her music. I just got a few lyrics from ‘ironic’ stuck in my head when i realized my phone helps me when i cant sleep but also helps me not sleep. (Isn’t it ironic?) A quick Google search returns results, and i guess i got what i asked for but that’s not the problem. The problem is I’m not really interested. as i realize a good portion of the 10 o’clock hour has ticked by while i ask google questions i honestly could live without answers to, i put my device down again, only this time, i shut it off. thinking that that should help me avoid situations like this for the rest of the night.. it didn't. my will power lasted all of 10 minutes before i was powering my device back on to ask google what ‘Autonomic’ means. Again, I don’t really care, but still ask. and seeing as I’ve just spent time turning on my phone to ask another question based on a song lyric stuck in my head, i might as well listen to the song. i open the YouTube app, find Dance Gavin Dance’s “The Robot With Human Hair Pt.4″ and give it a listen. Before i know it, I’m on a down hill plunge further and further from the sleepy destination i was heading towards. 1 video has turned in to 4, which has quickly became 10. 10 becomes 15, and at this point i don’t have the slightest clue as to how I’ve managed to find the videos I’ve been watching. I stay lost in my own dark world illuminated by a 5.3 inch LCD screen in the palm of my hand at 1:34 a.m., and realize: “this is how it happens.” At this point i accept my fate, and continue to lose my self in YouTube content. I don’t remember falling asleep and i definitely was not awake at 5 a.m.