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people are going to accuse me of being opposed to the existence of erotica or dark fiction, and they won't even care about understanding me deeply enough to know that creating my own erotica/dark fiction for years on end was what helped me understand & deconstruct my distorted hypersexual trauma response, and begin to develop an attitude of self-compassion for it

people are going to accuse me of blaming the world for my younger self's actions, and they won't even care to consider how long it took me to be able to hold anyone but myself responsible for the many sexual harms I was put through, at the hands of various systems that were not designed with my sexual wellbeing or health in mind, and that I stood absolutely no chance of navigating safely as an unwell, unsupported child

people are going to accuse me of being an advocate for censorship, and they won't even realize that they are attempting to silence me while I attempt to express my opinions & raise awareness about societal structures that I believe are responsible for causing serious, unrecognized harm to extremely vulnerable people, and that I'm absolutely confident can be reasonably reformed & regulated without restricting anyone's freedom of self-expression

but I'll keep talking about it anyway

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yeahhh I totally LOVEDDD reading internet fanfiction as a kid. I loved being predisposed to childhood hypersexuality because of numerous instances of CSA. I loved being given full, unrestricted, unmonitored access to the entirety of the internet by my negligent parents. I loved being so isolated & mentally ill that I became totally dependent on online spaces for social interaction & escapism.

I loved discovering what "yaoi" was and accidentally reading my first rape fic of my favourite characters not long after. I loved reading about 30 year old men preying on 15 year old boys and actively defending it because that's what everyone else was doing. I loved reading graphic, explicit, novel-length erotica of underage characters that were only a few years older than me. I loved taking a whirl at writing my own erotica at age 11 and getting constructive feedback from my favourite (fully adult) erotic writer. I loved not being able to avoid encountering stories about cheating or casual sex even though the subject confused & upset me so deeply in a way that I couldn't make sense of and spiralled into a several-year OCD fixation that I had to claw my own way out of.

I loved reading the entirety of Dipper Goes to Taco Bell as a joke and never being able to look at Dipper & Mabel the same way again.

I especially loveeeddd being introduced to all of these things as perfectly normal parts of "fandom culture", and having whatever reservations/boundaries I did still have slowly eroded away over time by older people who befriended me and introduced me to increasingly gratuitous levels of paraphilic fetishism. I loved not being given an informed choice of whether to engage with these things or not. I loved not being able to have a normal gay/sexual awakening like other teens. I loved how quickly my innocence was taken away from me. I loved spending years of my life trying to untangle my distorted hypersexuality from any native, genuine feelings or desires. love love loved it.

in case it wasn't clear, this post is sarcastic.

The fact that kids nowadays want ao3 to be censored— guys. Guys. Where is your sense of adventure? When I was 12, and homeschooled, and had unlimited internet access on my second hand laptop, all I felt upon discovering ao3 was unmitigated joy. A whole platform where people can be fucking weird and post toe-curling novel-length diatribes about ANYTHING. How beautiful is that?

And then you, the reader, can just jump in and post your own weird shit? And people might comment just to say “nice job!” Or “where the fuck is the next chapter” on your 20k coffee shop FNAF AU? Bro. Them’s the little things that make the internet worth anything.

Ao3 is so beautiful. I love scrolling past indescribably disturbing descriptions. I love knowing they have a place to be posted. I love knowing that, should I feel the urge to indulge, I can do so with no repercussions.

Mi familia. Mis amigos. Por favor. Take a step back and be grateful that not every facet of creativity has been locked behind an algorithm.

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I don't know how to handle it man. they don't know how to say anything that isn't brazen misinformation that they absorbed from a tumblr post without fact-checking. they shamelessly project their own experiences onto the politics of foreign countries with all the confidence of an extreme stunt tightrope walker. their biggest concern about any given political issue basically boils down to whether or not they'll still be able to read horny whump fanfictions on AO3. and yet I still wish I could dissect their claims for long enough or provide enough factual corrections to give them pause for even a fraction of what they are saying. it really is my sisyphean curse

me trying not to be disappointed after another micro-debate crashes and burns because I made the mistake of entertaining the opinions of people who are stuck in intellectual comas

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me trying not to be disappointed after another micro-debate crashes and burns because I made the mistake of entertaining the opinions of people who are stuck in intellectual comas

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This blog is one several-year-long conversation with myself and you are all just along for the ride

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me trying to contribute to a political debate with my many nuanced, insightful, informed opinions

me trying to get anyone to actually listen to, consider or engage with those opinions

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but what if instead, a teen watches pornography and doesn't even realize anything is wrong?

what if, as many real-life cases have shown so far, teen boys start expecting to be able to choke girls without asking, or push past a girl's "no" or physical resistance, or associate arousal with women crying, afraid and in pain? what if they're not "scared" of it at all - but excited to do it for themselves, and don't feel the need to seek permission from anyone?

what if teen girls have become so accustomed to normalized sexual violence that even they don't see anything wrong with it? what if they're taught that it's "no big deal", or "not to be a prude", or to always prioritize their male partners' pleasure, despite their own fear or discomfort? what if they don't see a boy's interest in sexual violence as a warning sign until it's too late?

would a "safe" adult permit a teen to watch porn? if so, would they attempt to discourage the teen from watching violent pornography - or would they simply sit back and let them browse porn sites freely? would they trust that the teen would be able to identify sexual violence and avoid it, or come to them and ask questions about it if they needed to? why would a conversation about sexual violence & boundaries only come after porn exposure, in this hypothetical?

what if the adult they spoke to about it saw nothing wrong with the disturbing content the minor saw, either? after all, many adults see violent pornography as simply "kinky", so how would the adult justify to a teen the fact that some things in porn are violent enough to be genuinely frightening? would they claim that the sex shown in porn is "different" to regular sex - and if so, why? how?

what "trustworthy" adult would entrust the online porn industry to educate a child about sex? can we even trust porn to do so without influencing their sexualities, imprinting sexual scripts, encouraging sexual violence, or eroding their boundaries & self-protective instincts in the process? if porn is a sexually educative tool - what, exactly, is it teaching teens about sex?

well, we only need ask the victims of porn-influenced sexual violence to find out.

here's an alternative to consider: what if the revolutionary conversation adults were having with children was that porn - and the various acts depicted within it - didn't have to have anything to do with a teen's developing sexuality, and that they could have a completely fulfilling future sex life without porn usage being a part of it? what if porn was no longer seen as a representation of, or learning resource for, natural, healthy human sexuality? what if there was another way?

what if porn was recognized as both being informed by, and informing, sexual norms - in a society where sexual violence is a sexual norm - and what would a generation of children turn out like if raised free from this norm's influence?

I think teens need to be able to go to trusted adults and say “I saw something in a porn video that freaked me out and now I’m worried I’ll have to do it too” and then the adult can say “it’s ok to be nervous about sex, but remember that you don’t have to do ANYTHING you don’t want to do, ever, no exceptions” and this should be an ongoing conversation to remind young people that sexual desire isn’t monolithic and they are not uniquely weird, cowardly, or undesirable for expressing their feelings, and they deserve sexual partners who prioritize consent & autonomy always

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honestly capitalism and feminism are mutually exclusive. you really think that a system in which everything is value, in which everything must become a commodity, a system that is extractive and parasitic and that follows infinite growth, is a system in which bodies that can produce children will ever be free? you think poverty stricken girls will just stop selling sex? you think trafficking will ever end, as long as you can put a price on a human body, on a man's pleasure, on a woman's degradation? you think porn is going away as long as someone is willing to and has the means pay for it, the profit motive to create it, by force if necessary? you think our bodies will ever be emancipated as long as we must give birth to enough workers to serve as fodder in the labor force and extractive wars and keep the machine running, expanding, and destroying everything there is to love about being human? who is going to foot the bill? capitalism must always have its underclass, both economic and sexual. or is it only you, my friend in the imperial core, my bourgeois friend with food in her belly and a roof over her head and no fear of losing either - is it only yourself you seek to emancipate?

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Everyone in every sexualized image should get to sue anyone who distributes it in a way that causes them distress (regardless of what theyve signed in the past😍) and win. We can all agree on this because we all love consent. This won't be a problem because everyone in porn loves what they're doing and is delighted every time it's distributed right?

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sorry mutuals for reblogging your insightful posts & adding my assortment of Accursed Knowledge to them

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on the note of Lana Rhoades, one of the most sickening, morally repugnant things I've ever seen amongst self-proclaimed "gooner" circles has been men who actively fetishize women's trauma related to the porn industry. in porn, you not only can't revoke consent, but you are punished and humiliated further for even trying to.

porn-consuming men make an absolute laughing stock out of women who try to leave - and as they continue to masturbate to these widespread, un-erasable recordings, they will take sadistic pleasure out of it, too.

I'll put my screenshots of this phenomenon under a cut because it's extremely upsetting.

these two below are the most malicious examples I've seen. they're captions for pornographic videos of both of these women, overlayed over other videos/tweets of them discussing their trauma/struggles with the industry. Lana is crying in the clip. it was also circulated as a demeaning meme and visciously mocked.

But women watch porn too! But men are filmed and objectified in pornography too! I only watch amateur porn, there people produce pornography with love for each other!

The usual responses after hearing how the porn industry is built on exploitation, profits from rape and trafficking, eroticizes misogyny, normalizes violent sex, and leaves lasting psychological damage on both consumers and performers.

Honestly, what do you even say to that? I am often just left stunned by the ignorance, unsure where to even begin, but I want to have a strong response.

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in all forms of pornography, violation and violence is unavoidable, inescapable - and anonymous consent is unprovable & unrevokable.

porn consumers do not usually realize this. as a baseline, very few are informed about the coercion & trafficking that defines the industry behind the scenes. fewer, still, are willing to educate themselves, or even question or contemplate the nature of the material they are being shown. and yet, the grounds for scrutinizing porn are all around - for those with eyes to see.

this analysis will discuss: - violence/violation in 'fetish' & 'taboo' pornography - violence/violation in 'vanilla' pornography - violence/violation in 'amateur' & 'solo' pornography - violence/violation in 'recreational' pornography

you go to the homepage of PornHub, and "step-family", "teen", "painal" and "extreme" videos are amongst the most popular. you might have some suspicion as to why. the women performers involved either seem to greatly enjoy these abusive acts & scenarios - but if they don't, their "tears" can be part of the appeal, too. if you're disturbed by that, you might spend time trying to find something "vanilla" because it seems tamer. but even when you strip away all the subgenres, kinks, toys and gimmicks, you may notice that the violence is still there.

in fact, if you pay attention, many men in porn look just about ready to kill the woman in front of them -- were it not for their sexual preoccupation, and the rolling cameras. even in considerably more "vanilla" content, this murderous rage is only barely contained: a swift slap across the face/breasts that comes out of nowhere, a momentary choke or a restraining posture, a woman being hurled over a shoulder or pulled by her hair as she's moved into position, a woman gagging while having her head pushed down onto a penis. (you have to wonder if any of these acts were pre-disclosed in the woman's contract, or are simply industry standard.)

the women might seem like they're having fun. the smiles, sexy poses & outfits, moans, dirty talk and laughter might all be very convincing. but that's part of the "performance", right? the "product" being sold is primarly the fantasy of easy sex with promiscuous women - as well as all the revealing shots of their unobscured sexual assets. as much as the tone of the content might try to convince you otherwise, you can't imagine many people being able to genuinely enjoy what they're put through. and when they're getting paid to do it, how can you really tell...?

well, maybe that's just how "studio" stuff is. so maybe you try "amateur" stuff instead. certainly, it seems to be some of the mildest stuff out there. you might notice that the women don't show their faces in a lot of them. yet, the camera's focus remains on them, their bodies. you wonder if their male partners are casual or their established boyfriends, and if so, how the women would feel about the videos should their relationships fracture or break up. you wonder how it would feel to have your intimacy monetized, your naked body marketed as goods, your personal sex life voyeured upon by complete strangers.

(later, you may find out that women's faces not being shown in porn is a red flag for trafficking, and a "lack of identifying features" might prevent a woman from being able to make a content removal claim.)

but you can still move further away from all that stuff. there are solo pornographers, who only upload masturbatory material. though, "putting on a show" is still a sex act, and all sex acts require informed consent. but how can your consent be "informed" if your photos & videos are available to purchase, view & download by literally anyone the moment they hit the internet -- and you have absolutely no way to know who any of those people are, or judge if they're the kinds of people you can even trust with your sexual intimacy in the first place...? in fact, why would ANYONE think it was safe to share media of real sex involving real people to a wide-open audience who are granted near-total anonymity??? when did this become so normal?

that being the case, you may wonder if anyone even needs to watch a stranger have sex or masturbate in order to gratify themselves. humans never needed that before pornography was invented. and even if we did need porn, surely there would be some kind of limit as to how much would have to be produced before our self-stimulatory needs were all provided for. especially since much of the substance of porn seems to be highly monotonous, and largely uninventive.

but the porn industry is not shrinking. it is growing. it keeps producing more of the same ad infinitum - indoctrinating more girls & women in the process - and its only variance is defined by the splintering off into ever-more cultivated niches, to cater to the interests of ever-more demographics. considering that, porn starts to sound less and less like an "artistic expression of human sexuality" or a "natural tool for self-pleasure", and more and more like... a... massive industry exploiting human sexuality, human arousal, and human women for profit. if you're catching on by now, you may wonder if the act of selling & buying of sexual intimacy is even healthy or ethical at all.

well, alright, but. there are still countless people - couples too! - who independently & autonomously upload explicit erotic photography of themselves to the internet, completely FOR FREE! no profit incentive forcing them to override any potential personal boundaries. surely if there's a form of real-life porn that can be good, THIS is what it's going to be. just some sexy, sexy pictures of natural, fun, loving, human sex for people to get their juices flowing to. finally - the option of guilt-free porn!

...but, no. the women are all still skinny, curvy, feminine, and wearing makeup/lingerie. and the focus is still very much more on the women and much less on the men. and the women are still posing and emoting very much like they do in regular porn. the interactions between authors and commentors seem to be characterized by anonymous dirty talk/roleplay, or proposed hookups, or overt harassment, or -- well, a whole lot of the sexually violent behaviour you were trying to escape in the first place. it has just been rebranded as "kink". and a lot of male members of online "hot wife" couples are... captioning the photos with things like "my wife is my favourite pornstar 😋"? oookaaayyy.

and... what's this...? according to many women, there's a huge trend of intimate content being shared online non-consensually - either leaked from their private pages, or shared without the woman's knowledge, sometimes after a breakup for "revenge". so, without knowing any of these people personally, HOW would you be able to prove, beyond any reasonable doubt, that this imagery is being hosted consensually?!?!

...you can't.

so what's it going to be? knowing all of this, having seen it with your own eyes, would you still be willing to defend your continued porn use, or will you take steps to cease it/find an alternative? would you still be willing to defend the porn industry, or will you finally educate yourself on its true nature & many victims? would you still be willing to defend the medium of pornography itself, as it exists in our modern culture, informed by historical context, coloured by male supremacy, financial exploitation and rape culture -- or are you ready to open your eyes, and see porn for what it really is?

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The refusal, especially among liberals, to believe that pornography has any real relationship to sexual violence is astonishing. Liberals have always believed in the value and importance of education. But when it comes to pornography, we are asked to believe that nothing pornographic, whether written or visual, has an educative effect on anyone.

-Andrea Dworkin, Letters From a War Zone

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straight up it took every ounce of mental processing power i had available to try and rationalize how often the people joking about rape, mythologizing about a cabal of ftms dedicated to making false rape accusations, watching rape porn, describing their fantasies of committing rape (overwhelmingly directed at ftms and lesbians, but sometimes other mtfs or homosexual men), and would then turn out to have actually raped someone, often a lot of someones, and then these supposedly life ruining accusations were barely a blip, while their victims were the ones near harassed into their own graves...

yes, it took the full and constant application of my very active mind to maintain the rationalization- the delusion -that each and every time it was a surprise, an outlier, that these behaviors cannot and should not be analyzed as the warning signs they are, that these behaviors were in fact "sticking it to the man", that they were subversive in a world where a confessed rapist can be the sitting president of the united states. it was the mental equivalent of having to scream LALALA I CAN'T HEAR YOU I DON'T SEE IT LALALA at a decibel level that could rupture human eardrums, mental gymnastics to the degree of feeling as though i had a slowly growing brain tumor as the contortions of my broken fucking cult brained logic strained to hold back the very simple truth:

this is rape culture. one of the most reliable predictors of male violence in the modern age is extreme misogyny, expressed through and encouraged by misogynistic online subcultures. there is no difference between this and the radicalized youth of 4chan whose fantasy of shooting his classmates is only a fantasy until the day he packs his father's gun alongside his school lunch.

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tumblr chucklefuck: I love systems of misogyny 😈

woman: I think those systems are extremely bad actually. I think they hurt women.

chucklefuck: wow. so you think women are victims? 🤨

chucklefuck (5 minutes later): lol yuppp I checked her blog and she talked about JK Rowling without even wishing death on her. not even being subtle about it

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I think one of my motivations for running this blog is to be able to make posts that would've made me feel sane if I had seen them made by someone else 3-5 years ago