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March 8th, 2019 (posted on YT March 10th) - Update on how I'm doing post port surgery, where we're at with medicaid, and my treatment plan :) as always, thank you for your love and prayers!!!! I'm praying for you!!!

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March 8th, 2019 - Chopping off my hair

March 8th, 2019 - International Women’s Day (coincidence, I think not!) Jenny and I went to get our hair cut, her to go back to her usual and me to try something I've never done before: PIXIES! I never thought I'd be able to pull off a pixie cut but @beautybyloricass has proved me wrong and I gotta say... Not mad about it. It's giving me a leather jacket, dark lipstick vibe :)

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March 6th, 2019 - Port Surgery

March 6th, 2019 - God has such perfect timing. On Ash Wednesday, I went to the hospital to have surgery for my port-a-cath placement. (A port-a-cath is a device placed under the skin on the left side of the chest. It is attached to a catheter that is threaded into a large vein - thanks Google) This is an ingenious invention that takes away the process of finding a good vein to inject medications through, so you get pricked less and when you do get pricked it always works. I hope whoever thought of this is enjoying a wonderful life because as I’m writing this (on April 3rd) I have been in treatment for a month and I have needed to use the port dozen times already. It’s where they draw my blood for labs to check my blood count and other special tests, and it is what they use to introduce the chemotherapies as well as the targeted immunotherapies. 

One thing about me is that I love water and one of the things you are NOT allowed to do before surgery is drink water up to 12 hours beforehand. My surgery was scheduled at noon which meant my being up for 4 hours and NOT being able to drink anything so naturally, the night before at 11:59PM I downed my entire 22oz water bottle.

The next day my brother, John,, brought my sister, Jenny, and I to the hospital at 8:30am. The check-in was fairly quick and I was brought to the back for labs/bloodwork and went to my room where 5-6 people told me “I’m going to ask you the same 20 questions that a handful of people are going to ask you right after I leave.” I appreciated that cause it was repetitive, but it was fine because everyone was so incredibly nice and friendly. By 10:00am they brought my siblings back to sit in the room with me while we waited for my surgery time of 12:30PM. 

Right before surgery, Jenny was able to lead us in prayer and that helped to calm me. Then they wheeled me down the hall, then sedated me and I honestly was only awake in the room for maybe... 1 minute before I was out. Prior to surgery, the doctor had said it would be a 30-45 minute procedure and I would stay for maybe an hour more to wear off the anesthesia. When I woke up, I was in the recovery room; apparently, it took a little over an hour and post-procedure I slept for another 1 1/2 hours to work through the anesthesia. Around 3:00pm they brought me to a visiting area where my siblings were able to join me and it took another hour of resting, taking some medications, and eating some water and crackers before they let me go.

When I got home I was able to take a nap before we went to Mass for Ash Wednesday, which was great, and I felt like it was so fitting that I would get my port in which would mark the real start of my treatment on the first day of this penitential season. Now I knew my treatment was going to last until mid-July, well past the Lenten and Easter seasons but I prayed that this Lent would be fruitful, for myself, my family and all those whom God has brought into my life, especially the intentions that people have shared with me and those He places on my heart. I feel God has been so intentional with the timing of events and how He has prepared me to accept this and walk with Him. So incredibly grateful for the gift of faith that He has given me and how He continues to make Himself so present to me throughout this journey. One of the ways in which He does this so poignantly is through all of your constant love and support. Thank you all for your generosity and kind messages, it is always so touching to hear from you. Please know I am praying for you all :) Have a blessed Lent!

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Maria’s Happy Snail Mail :)

March 4th, 2019 - This is my “People are so kind it makes my heart hurt with happiness” face. Thank you @mariashappysnailmail on Instagram for using your talents to light up people’s days :) I’m touched that you’d take the time to make this for me!!!! It’s beautiful and I love everything about it!

Fun Fact, Maria was one of the very first people I took a class with at CCBC my freshman year. Speech 101...that was interesting lol 

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February 27th, 2019 - "Sometimes we need someone to simply be there. Not to fix anything, or do anything in particular, but just to let us feel that we are cared for and supported." #quoteoftheday #cantstopwontstop talking about how much I love these women who I know will always be there for me!

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February 25th, 2019 (IG) - "Felt cute, not deleting because why would I? Feel cute, people. Advertise it. Celebrate it. It's cool. God likes you. I like you." - @audreyassad

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February 22, 2019 -  Jenny and I did a fun photo shoot at the mansion at CCBC before the art gallery reception and I didn't realize but in most of my pictures I posed with my hands in my hair in some way, I think I'm subconsciously holding on to it cause it's gonna be gone soon. I'm thinking about whether I should cut it to a pixie or just shave it off before I start chemo... Decisions, decisions...

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February 21, 2019 - I went to the hospital for tumor board where my dad, sisters, second mom (AKA Momma Daschbach) and I got to speak to and hear from the nurse navigator, head oncologist, and plastic surgeon. Much of it was information we already knew but explained more in depth and cohesively put together, which we all appreciated. Throughout the appointment, the specialists explained how and why chemo would be best as the first step of treatment due to the size (3.5cm), stage(2) and grade(2) of my tumor, followed by surgery. Over the next two weeks I'll be preparing for chemo and will start the the process the first week of March. It's getting real now that I know more of what's to come and it's been a lot to take in in a day but I'm keeping it together...for the most part :/ I'm bracing myself for the pain and keeping your intentions before me-it makes it easier knowing that I can unite my sufferings with Christ and offer them up for you. Thank you to everyone who has reached out and offered their time to help me in any way, it's always touching getting your messages! And as always, thank you for your love, support, and prayers! I'm praying for you. :) - sincerely, Jane

P. S. without planning it at all, we all wore outfits in the same color scheme so naturally we took photos!

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February 19th, 2019

UPDATE : Hi everyone! Thank you again for your incredible generosity and your continued prayers and support! It's such a blessing to know I'm not alone on this journey and I have this beautiful family and community who are encouraging me! Over the weekend I applied for medicaid. Originally I had ruled this option out because I make too much but I didn't consider the fact that over the next few months my income is going to change because I'll be working less, and possibly not at all, for some time. With that in mind, I applied with the help of our wonderful friend who broke down the process and made the intimidating application understandable and go relatively smoothly. We got the notice the other day that I was enrolled but that they need further verification. I checked with the hospital and they don't have me in the system yet so at this point we're just waiting for my medicaid card to come in the mail, for my next pay stub to come in so that I can provide that, and hopefully we're in the safe zone. God is good, YOU ALL are amazing, and I'm praying for all of your intentions, those that you have shared and those that you hold in the silence of your hearts. God bless you! - sincerely, Jane 💕

P. S. Thanks Texan Tardognos for the fantastic pin and gifts :))

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February 15th, 2019 - Sometimes when life gives you lemons, you just gotta glam up and have a photoshoot to get your mind off of things :) I love my sisters so much and I'm so blessed to have them beside me on this journey

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February 15th, 2019 (YT)

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February 15th, 2019 (IG: first post 3 days after diagnosis) - As many of you know, this past Monday I was diagnosed with breast cancer. I have been through a rollercoaster of emotions these past few days but your love, support and most especially your prayers have given me courage, comfort, and peace. One of the toughest challenges right now is money because I don't have insurance and I make just that much more than the low - income bracket that qualifies for medical assistance. My sister set up a #GoFundMe and amazingly within 24hrs your generosity raised $5k!!!! I can't express how incredibly grateful I am. This is going to be a difficult battle but I'm blessed beyond words to be surrounded with such love. I'm trusting in the Lord and His faithfulness. He is my strength :) 

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period drama + ladies turning down marriage proposals (requested by anonymous)

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