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SOMETIMES I JUST WANT TO ENJOY SOME YOUTUBE!!! BUT NOOOOO THE ADS HAVE TO YELL AT ME ABOUT FUCKING WEIGHTLOSS. I don't care if your system will say i'm setting my bmi goal to low, I DONT WANNA FUCKING HEAR ABOUT THE WEIGHTLOSS MEDICATION (especially when i've seen an ad that said something lik 'if you thin medicated weightloss is cheating, would you say that a diabetic is taking the easy route with insulin?' like nothing against medicated weightloss but how in the world is that the same thing???????????) LET ME WATCH MY YOUTUBE VIDS IN PEACE PLEASE

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Me: Spends two entire days rearranging and redecortating my room Also Me: Puts my bed in the same place it was the time before, the place it has spent the majority of it's life Also also me: wow this is entirely new!

My Cat: why have you done this?

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Sorry if you have to see ads, here's my cat Cassie to soften the blow

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me: i'll never ruin my sleep schedule for a man again Also me: has once more ruined my sleep schedule for a man

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my nan says the weirdest shit sometimes, and sometimes its slightly homophobic

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There are so many ads that piss me off for like stupid tiny reasons, and sometimes I'll just fucking rant to my nan about it I might start doing the same on tumblr fuck you stupid ads why are you the way you are???

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know what's funny? was watching some youtube, thought I'd paused it when I walked away to make dinner. Came back, it hadn't paused, so I rewound the video. The cold open was the exact same clip in the video I'd gotten to, so I thought the rewind hadn't worked and I restarted youtube (and then had to rewind again)

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I hate being a young adult and unable to get a job. This isn't oh the job market sucks, it does, but I'm incapable of getting a job. The only sorts of jobs that would hire me are manual labour because I did the smart at the time thing of dropping out of high school. BUT i cant fucking work a manual labour job because I've got chronic pain problems. I've got fatigue. And sometimes I'm physically weaker than usual. I can't be trusted for those sorts of things. But I spend my days wishing I had a job.

But then you've got all the people that don't get that. All the people that see a young person that in their eyes is perfectly capable of working and they aren't. It fucking sucks

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why does my brain keep trying to convince me I'm pregnant? if i'm pregnant we'd need to tell the church, and science. science would need to know too

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my least favourite part of the american-centric internet is actually a really selfish thing. I have to experience mothers day twice a year, once with the english date and then I get bombared in the shops and with adds on telly about it, and once with the us date when its all over the internet

I hate it because I lost my mum when I was five and this fucking sucks man

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Thinking of doing a marylily honeybloods au. Lily as Honey, and Mary as Sadie. I can 100% picture Lily saying "ugh, not hot" about a lot of things actually. And I haven't got much of a grasp on Mary but I can see her being the sort of girl to fall into an isolated depressive episode

Honeybloods if you don't know is a super awesome lesbian vampire book by I. S. Belle. There's a description on the back that goes 'TWILIGHT meets JENNIFER'S BODY in this bite-sized sapphic vampire romance full of sweetness, snark, gore, and only one motel bed.'

Thoughts?

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the duality of staying at my grandparents is that they deeply understand my pain problems, and will encourage me to go rest, but I have to work so hard to be seen as their grandson instead of grandaughter

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“But if you forget to reblog Madame Zeroni, you and your family will be cursed for always and eternity.”

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To fall in love is to be changed. I'm slowly learning about DnD because he likes it. I do connections each day at midnight because he does it and its nice to compare results. I don't feel ashamed about my hobbies, and he actually asks about them. I reach out to my friends more because he reminds me to be more social

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REMEMBER THAT POST WITH CINDERELLA WHERE HER DRESS CHANGES TO THE COLOR OF YOUR BLOG?

THIS ONE DOES IT TOO!!

I found a bunch more!!

x

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well my sleep schedule is ruined, and for once its not because I was up late writing fanfic

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grief is a strange thing

i'll never watch supernatural, at least not on my own, because my mum loved that show and she never got to finish it or drag me into it i'll constantly re-read or think about the brother grimm fairytales because my mum would read them to me as a little kid i have a nostalgia for eastenders because that was the show i watched with my mum i cry when i listen to old pink songs, and get sad when i listen to new ones because my mum loved her music

grief haunts you and it never goes, your life is forever changed by loosing someone and it's not just because they're not here anymore