thursdaysidjit

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i can be normal about the men on my tv i can be normal about the men on my tv i can be normal about the men on my tv i repeat as i rock back and forth in this padded cell

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y’all ever hear a song and the singer sounds like what you’d imagine a character to sound like and now it’s not the singers song anymore it’s the characters. yeah.

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“omg i love your style!”

oh my god thank you! it’s not mine tho i’m autistic and have no sense of self so i just mirror my babygirls <3

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attention all!! i was stupid we’re married now i was in love and too autistic to tell! thank you very much.

i just think that every stone top lesbian needs a pillow princess bsf who they can homoerotically overpower just to prove that they can.

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we’re married now lmao

homoerotic friendships are great in theory

but how am i supposed to behave after wresting said friend shirtless on the ground in the middle of campus.

are there regulations? after she grabbed my chain? where is the line?

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y’all i woke up with significantly less cartilage on my ear than i fell asleep with

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in another universe, it doesn’t hurt to hear your name. in another universe, your name leaves my lips everyday, always following the words “i love you”

in another universe, you stayed to hear it.

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i loved an angel and it made me weak

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in another universe, my childhood dog isn’t in a chain around my neck and you aren’t buried in another city. i see your name written in places other than stone and i didn’t have to leave you behind.

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this would mean that i’d probably become unwell and far too active on here again too so if that motivates you enough to convince me not to

y’all i fear i want to watch supernatural again

i have such horrendous parasocial relationships with everyone in that television show and idk if it’s because i started watching it at such a traumatizing part of my life but it feels like it is engrained into my soul and i hate it i HATE IT but i need to watch it again i need to feel that familiar burn

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y’all i fear i want to watch supernatural again

i have such horrendous parasocial relationships with everyone in that television show and idk if it’s because i started watching it at such a traumatizing part of my life but it feels like it is engrained into my soul and i hate it i HATE IT but i need to watch it again i need to feel that familiar burn

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yeah i’m fine lol im just tired [covered in blood and mud, visibly unsteady, standing barefoot in your kitchen at 3am]

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thought i was safe from the “if you grew up with an angry man in your house, there will always be an angry man in your house” scenario as a lesbian and then i got my fucking cat

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call me rupi kapur or whatever the fuck her name is

i could write a book of poetry solely with the words my wife says in her sleep

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i could write a book of poetry solely with the words my wife says in her sleep

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being handed my 19 year old sisters medical paperwork at the pediatrician is both humbling and empowering

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alright pal maybe you’re not from around here but we have an arrangement in these parts where i’m allowed to rummage through my car and talk to myself loudly at 3am WITHOUT a gun being aimed at me