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In highschool I wrote a story about a middle-generation of stellar travelers. Their parents were born on earth and left as children, and the middle generation will not live long enough to see their destination. They live their entire lives on the ship and I wrote about them trying to find their place in everything. They will never know blue skies and warm beaches and open fields with warm breezes. They’ll never know birdsong or crickets or frogs. They’ll never hear the rain on the roof of a dreary day. I never could find the right way to end the story. I wanted it to be a happy ending, but I didn’t know how to do it.

I realize now that it was a book about me dealing with depression before I even knew it. Looking back at how blatant the projecting was, it’s obvious now. It wasn’t then.

In the story, the middle-generation people are lost. They’re apathetic. They’re just a placeholder. The only job they have is to keep the ship running, have kids, and die. As the middle generation of people began becoming adults, suicide rates were skyrocketing. Crime and drug rates were jumping. This generation was completely apathetic because they felt that they had no use.

In the story, a small group of people in the middle-generation create the Weather Project. They turn the ship into a terrarium. They make magnificent gardens and take the DNA of animals they took with them and recreate them and they make this cold, metal spaceship that they have to live their entire lives on into a home. They take what little they have and they break it and rearrange it into something beautiful. They take this radical idea and turn the ship into a wonderful jungle of trees and birds and sunshine.

And I realize now how much it reflects my state of mind as I transitioned from a child into an adult while dealing with depression. You always hear “it gets better” and “when you’re older things will be easier” and I was so sick of waiting for it to get better. I was in the middle-generation stage. And I was sick of it. I was so sick of waiting.

When I was in highschool I didn’t know how to end the story. I didn’t know how to have a happy ending. I didn’t have the life experience then to finish the story in a meaningful way. I didn’t know how to make it better for these middle-generation characters.

But now that I’m older, I’m learning. That if you sit and wait for things to get better, it never will. You have to take your life and break it apart and rearrange it into something beautiful. You have to make the cold metal ship into the garden that you deserve. You have to make your own meaning. You have to plant your own garden.

You have to teach yourself that being happy is not a radical idea.

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The internet could change next week, and not in a good way

You may have heard about the efforts in Europe to reform copyright law. The debate has been ongoing in the European Parliament for months. If approved next week, these new regulations would require us to automatically filter and block content that you upload without meaningful consideration of your right to free expression. 

We respect the copyrights and trademarks of others, and we take all reports seriously to ensure that your creative expression is protected. We make this clear in our Community Guidelines. There’s already a legal framework that works and is fair: Today we take down posts and media that contain allegedly infringing content when we receive a valid DMCA (Digital Millennium Copyright Act) takedown request. We also provide clear-cut ways for people to fight back if they believe their removed content was not a true violation. These instances are monitored and reported and live in our biannual transparency report. 

The suggestion to use automated filters for issues of copyright is short-sighted at best and harmful at worst. Automated filters are unable to determine whether a use should be considered “fair use” under the law and are unable to determine whether a use is authorized by a license agreement. They are unable to distinguish legitimate parody, satire, or even your own personal pictures that could be matched with similar photographs that have been protected by someone else. We don’t believe that technology should replace human judgment. Tumblr is and always has been a place for creative expression, and these new regulations would only make it harder for you to express yourself with the freedom and clarity you do so now. 

If you access Tumblr from Europe and want to act, you can find more information on saveyourinternet.eu. 

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So, I want The Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo to be made into a miniseries by Reese Witherspoon’s production company. I want LGBTQ+ actors to be cast, and I want Gugu Mbatha-Raw to play Monique, the journalist. I am convinced that Rita Moreno would slay the role of older Evelyn. Give me someone like Jonathan Groff to play Harry. This miniseries could potentially get nominated for some Emmys if they made it. The book was that rich and is set mostly in 1950s-1960s Hollywood and would be such a gorgeous work for costuming and cinematography too.

PLEASE MAKE THIS TV SHOW!!

Am I right @ourdeathswillstopnothing or am I right?

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I’m a bookseller and I have my books like this at home. I typically remember the color of the spine. The only one that’s ever truly thrown me off is the hardcover of Station Eleven because it’s got. Green spine versus the midnight blue of the rest of cover.

On the other hand, all the different editions of let’s say, The Secret Garden, that I see on a monthly basis, I have to in my mind change it up from “What color/what does it look like?” to “Author’s last name?”

I spent the afternoon arranging our books by size and color (and it’s so satisfying and looks amazing) and my partner came home and stared in shock at the bookcase and then said “i’m a librarian, you can’t do this.”

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The poor birb is having an existential crisis over the “flower”

A hummingbird thought a man’s orange hat was a flower [x]

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“Darkness there and nothing more.”

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I’ve been seeing a lot of anti-Nazi ones, which is great, but I felt like we needed one to show our support for the Jewish community.  

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Went to a queer game night costume party dressed as none other than the magnificent Annie Clark aka St. Vincent.

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Make It Gay Marvel

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But how did y’all forget Paul Rudd in this post??

I agree john mulaney is probably an immortal akin to beings such as keanu reeves and jeff goldblum but he’s like a new born baby immortal who is looking at the long long expanse of a lifetime he has in front of him and is already tired

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I was at Target on lunch and a little girl looked at my bowtie and cardigan combo (I dress more andro/butch on occasion) and pointed at me while getting her dad’s attention. He said, “Yeah, I know! She looks like the Doctor, but we have to let her shop.”

Day made.

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Autumnal Asks

🍁 crunchy leaves: what’s your favorite noise/sound to hear?

❄ chilly air: are you a warm weather or cold weather person?

☁ misty mornings: what time do you wake up? What for?

👕 oversized sweaters: what sweater weather outfit are you looking forward to wearing? (Bonus if pictured)

🎃 carved pumpkins: what holidays (popular or pagan) are you celebrating this fall?

👻 ghost stories: what books are you reading, how are they?

☕ hot coffee: what’s your drink this fall?

👐 cold hands: anyone to hold them?

💀 spooky shadows: any increased spiritual activity?

🍎 apple pie: what’s cooking? (Or planned to cook?)

🔥 scented candles: 5 favorite smells

☔ hurricanes: what do you do on rainy days?

🌱cinnamon: what are your favorite spices?

🍂haunted hayrides: do you see your friends over the summer or do you have to wait till fall?

👺 monster masks: what’s your makeup/morning routine?

🐱 black cat: what pets do you have/want?

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Oh hey

Would you look at that? Another year in my life has rolled by. Huh.

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jvn hitting us with the facts

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