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I need to go to sleep because I work in…7 and a bit hours.

but I’m scared to sleep because of the constant nightmares I’ve been having.

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I'm trying (2K)

“I’m trying.” Eddie gasps out, the fabric growing damp under his face, he tries to make himself smaller, “I’m trying so hard, Buck.”

I came across the song I'm trying by Alexander Stewart earlier, and it made me nearly burst into tears. I've never had a song capture how I feel so well. I decided to write this story to help me process the emotions instead.

Sending you a hug if you resonate with it as well, or the story.

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I'm trying (2K)

“I’m trying.” Eddie gasps out, the fabric growing damp under his face, he tries to make himself smaller, “I’m trying so hard, Buck.”

I came across the song I'm trying by Alexander Stewart earlier, and it made me nearly burst into tears. I've never had a song capture how I feel so well. I decided to write this story to help me process the emotions instead.

Sending you a hug if you resonate with it as well, or the story.

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I guess it is.

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9-1-1 ▸ 4.06 jinx ↳ eddie & bobby heart-to-hearts (3.3/6)

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9-1-1 | 4x14: Survivors

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evan buckley the man that you are

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Starlight

buck/eddie | rated: G | 4K | complete | ao3

Summary: On a rare, starry summer night, Buck and Eddie discuss what ifs and make decisions about their future.

“Do you,” Buck says very quietly, so quiet Eddie probably wouldn’t even be able to hear it were they not inches away from being pressed together. It’s too hot out to be pressed together. Too sweaty, soggy, smelly, and their skin would chafe and stick together and probably hurt.

Eddie’s not sure he would care though.

“Do you ever think about,” Buck continues, his question also sticky and meandering and not meant to come out in anything but the secluded darkness of midsummer. “About you and me?”

Eddie swallows hard and doesn’t move. He breathes but there’s no air, no movement. He knows the question. He knows what Buck is asking. He doesn’t stop searching for the stars and all the shapes and figures drawn in connecting lines between them.

There are no lines for real. It’s all made up by people who have brilliant creative imaginations. People like Chris and Buck and Shannon. They’re the kind of people who see the lines, the animals, the heroes, the stories, and invent constellations.

Eddie just sees starlight. Raw, unconnected, faraway stars that were lost a long time ago. “What about you and me?”

Buck breathes slowly, soft inhale and exhale that sounds so loud, and why is it the only sound Eddie can hear? The city is hardly quiet even at this time of night. It’s not that late. But it’s still only the wafting air in and out of Buck’s lungs. The only sound that reaches him. “Eddie. You and me. Dating. Being together. Seeing if it works, if it fits. Do you ever think about it?”

Does the ocean think of tides? Does the forest think of collecting rain and sun? Does the fire know what it consumes? Do the stars know they’re dying, they’re phantoms, they’re already dead?

Something was left in a graveyard and it wasn’t a body. It wasn’t a person. Maybe it was a life though. A life together.

How could he ever believe things left in a graveyard could still be alive?

Buck didn’t even know. Buck never knew. They never got that far. Death and lightning have a way of shocking the system. But everything grows quiet afterward and locked back up once danger has passed. Eddie never said anything. Eddie cut out his thoughts, his feelings, and forced himself to move on and forget. Even though nothing could ever compare. Nothing else could ever fit.

Eddie can’t move, can’t look at him, but he wets his lips and asks, “Do you?”

(read on AO3)

for @daisyssousa and @tizniz

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apparently I missed this this morning: 80 days.

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Hello & welcome!

Please enjoy these little tidbits about me:

My name is Tanis

My pronouns are she/her

My pen name is Tizniz over on A03

I live in BC, Canada

I'm pansexual & polyamorous

I'm 30 (birthday in August!)

I've been writing since I was 10/11

My current fandom of choice is 9-1-1 — but I have written for various fandoms including Harry Potter, Merlin, Percy Jackson, Youtubers, and McFly

I'm a huge Disney fan (I have 3 disney tattoos)

I reblog whatever I want, so be prepared for random things on my dash!

I've been on this website for so freaking long (longer than most of y'all probably)

I do not tolerate hate, discrimination, or racism

Kindness is best and I will always choose it

I have depression, anxiety, PTSD, PCOS, diabetes, an auto-immune disease, vertigo, and other things wrong with me that the doctor's cannot figure out — don't be surprised if you see some posts about these

I tag text posts with 'tanis rambles' if you don't want to see my personal stuff/my non fic text posts, and my answers are always tagged 'tanis answers'

I'm always open for asks — whether they be questions about me or general, comments, or you seeking advice

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9-1-1 | Season 7 Buck, Bothered, and Bewildered

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Whalermelon sharks 🍉🦈

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listened to a song...nearly cried because of how much it resonated with me...promptly wrote a 2K story inspired by it.

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hey so like

hi, you. yeah im talking to you. You like my stuff from time to time and reblog once and a while, and I always recognize you in my notes. we’ve never talked, maybe you dont like to say much or you’re nervous or something. it’s okay, whatever it is. 

I see you. you mean a lot to me. sometimes when I’m having a hard day, I’ll notice your name once again in my notifs and it makes me smile. im not kidding.

I don’t care if you’re a “ghost” follower or you send me asks all the time. i see you and I love you so much, genuinely and truly. you are really important to me. 

thank you. thank you for being there. <3

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Oh, I see.