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You know. I constantly feel like a burden. Like I'm something that needs to be put up with. I'm sure others feel that way, but not everyone. But it doesn't stop the feeling.

I can't take a joke, I get defensive and upset. I get angry over the smallest criticism, but it's not at them. I try to say it is but it's not. I'm mad at me for not being good enough. I hate myself most days and I don't know if that's abnormal. I take things personally and I replay every stupid thing I've done.

I constantly call myself stupid but I don't think people realize that I believe it. I'm o insecure to actually be Happy.

Right now I can't sleep because I feel like i did everything wrong today. Like I was useless to everyone and all the progress I made means nothing. I know I'm wrong but it doesn't stop the feeling. Or the thoughts.

Is this why other people cut? Is this why other people fight for no reason? Is this the reason I just couldn't see?

Is there something wrong with me?

Yes.

Am I normal?

No.

Am I useful?

Depends on who you ask.

I feel like I Haven't earned the right to be loved and I feel like I'm sabotaging it. And I'm not sure why...

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This HAS to go viral. This pathetic movie is abusing animals in order to film cheap scenes for human entertainment. The dog is clearly terrified but the “trainers” have no regard for her safety.

Please share and encourage your friends not to spend money on a movie that uses animal abuse to film!!!

http://www.tmz.com/2017/01/18/a-dogs-purpose-german-shepherd-abuse-video/

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OI!!! LETS MAKE TWITTER GO CRAY

what we should do is plan to spam Twitter to fuck with the inauguration :3 specifically to make gonald frump angry~ my Twitter is @taliana_wolfus and I will be following everyone's twitters if they reblog and say it or pm it or ask it at me so I know it. I will be tweeting about creepypasta homestuck books role play and many other things. let's grind his gears shall we?

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I can almost smell it omg

New jar, new weed.

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this blog hates donald trump

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Eeash. It seems im always bitching here. I should add things that make me happy to... maybe day journaling? Or dream journal?

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self-care reminders 

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trans lesbians are amazing, gnc lesbians are amazing, black lesbians are amazing, deaf lesbians are amazing, short lesbians are amazing, butch lesbians are amazing, brown lesbians are amazing, tall lesbians are amazing

pls rb and add more amazing lesbians!

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things to remember while drawing:

anatomy is great but dont stop because you cant get it perfect

not every picture has to be a masterpiece

try new things but remember its ok to draw things you like to draw

just because someone younger than you is “better” than you are does not mean you are untalented 

everyone sees things differently

be proud of what you can do because nobody can do things the same way you can

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Use pathetic six inches tall. Why is only my family can make me feel so small. I can face any foe. Fight any fight. But my own blood makes me flee in to the night. Age is a number that rolls right off. Till blood says I a kid and need to knock it off. Why does blood affect me in such a way? When anyone calls me these things I get them to let me be. So why can my family destroy me?

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So

I have 30 days to find a job. My brain feels like mush. I hate myself all the time and my meds dont help. I walked to look for work and ran our of water because in fucking stupid and had to get a sheriff to drive me home cause I was sun sick. My channels practically dead because I find excuses not to post. I drew for the first time in weeks yesterday and it looks like shit. Im only just now getting back into rping with my best friend and im havinf a hell of a time keeping it up because I just feel like im a failure at it. At everything. My comics dead in the water again because I cant make myself do anything. Whats wrong with me? Other people with my issues work and get happy. Why cant I? All I do is fill out applications call for jobs and watch youtube. Im going to end up living with my perants because of this shit but its just... so fucking hard to fight. Fml...

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Words

Words can comfort words can heal words can harm words are real.

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There are months where I feel like the only friends I have are the ones in my head.