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The boy’s father was gone. I think I forget to mention, that he has an older brother. The Brother was 18 years old, when the boy was born. His father died, when he was 6. He was working hard in a factory, working on train and machine parts. In the meantime, he spent 2 years in the army, find a girlfrien and, when the boy became 12, he got married. The moved close to the city, where the boy was living, with his mother and stat to build their house. The boy spent a lot of time there, to help on the construction site, for a year. The boy changed school, and in the new class he found new experiences, new friend, but he was always very intoverted, but friendly. He was very good in sports and creativity, but he was always carriynf that coursed pack, what he got from the father. He closed himself subconsciously into his imaginery world, and did not pay to much, enough attention to the surrounding world. He was not intersted in the classroom too, so his grades wasn’t good, but it was the least important for him. Not for the mother, who sometimes tried to discipline him by fury, or a stick, but when she witnessed no improvement at all, she just asked the brother, to do something, So he did! Hit the boy with belts, whips, and fist.Instead of taking him to the psychologist. So the boy just started to fear again, and in the deep of his heart, he was loving his brother so much, but despite this emotions,, he just start to avoid every single meetings with him, because he never knew, when he get the next splash on the face.He was just 6, when he started to smoke cigarette first, and drunk spirits secretly at night, when the mother, and the brother was sleeping. After a longer cease (because of an illness), the boy just start to drink and smoke again, in the elementary school. He got very dangerous friends, mostly just out of the prison, but somehow, he has a kind of luck to find those among them, whose has still a good inside. They were talking a lot, and he was learning many things about bicycles, fishing, aquariums and slingshots.

The boy was actually just alone. The mother was deep in depression, The brother has more important business to be occupied with. The boy was alone and he didn’t even suspect, that he is missing something very important. The real family! He was living like a driftwood, on the surface of a lazy river. No goals, no plans for the future, no love, no model to follow, no father, no self esteem, no confidence. Just hanging out at night, drinking, smoking. The boy was lost.

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This is my second

I mentioned a life of a Lost Soul. These tunes (roman numbers), what I share here is represents of certain stages of this life.

The I. My Bubbles actually an introduction.

The II. Crossing lower places is belong to the childhood. Not so happy I must say.Deeply poor financial state. Home without water. Alcoholic, violent father made the mother and son shaking with fear, all along many nights. The father tried to kill them regularly. The little boy, not even 2 years old was hanged out of a window, by his ankle and the mother was intimidated and threaten, that if she feed him, he’s going to be killed. They were escaping one day, secretly moving to another city. They felt safe already, but after a couple of monthes, the father found them again. First, He was very sober and promised everything and confessed, he was bad and evil. He regretted everything, just let him cam to them and together again. The mother has a very soft heart, so after a longer conversation, she felt pity on him and let him to move into the new flat. The peace longed for a couple of weeks only, after everything just started again. That was bad and dark times. the boy witnessed immensely intensive violence, how the father broke his mothers nose, and many other big fight. The fear was continuously present. One day, the mother had no other choice, but to leave the boy with the father for 2-3 hours. When she came home, he found the boy alone, in the corner of the room. He was pale, shaking with fear, unable to speak and move, for hours. She tried all her loving kindness to encourage the boy to say something, but all her effort was in vain. Takes very long time for the boy, to relax enough to start living again. No one knows, what is happened and the boy’s mind buried deep the terrible memory of the case. All his life, he has no idea and for long years, he has not any memory of it at all. Just later, when the mother mentioned the event, felt the fear and panic again. Not what was happened, just the emotional shock was shaking him always and it was the same afterward all along his life.

So, after a few years, the mother finally want to divorce from this man, and the man want it too, because in the meantime he found a new lover, and want to live with her in another city. The news of the decision was a real relief for both of them. So the life turned quieter and calmer. The boy slowly grow and became teen. The time of Awakening of an Ego

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Hello! I’ve heard, this is The Site, place, where everyone can be honest. I am here, to be honest. I’m a reincarnation of a lost soul of Many. The goal of my existence is representing Them, whose has been sinked into sea of the forgotten lifes. They are the victims of the gradual growing of capitalism, the endless supply of humans, the growing of interests, the technical development, the ever faster rhytm of the life, when You have no choice, because the System is rendered You to being a slave and piosoned You with the feeling of shame, if You don’t have the latest technology, or the trendiest clothes. Not to mention the expenses of the daily living. The current system is NOT really efficient... The goal of my existence is to stand up for everyone, who has the similar lifeway, than The Lost Souls has. The goal of my existence is nothing else, than to encourage, other, still alive but feeling lost(!) Souls, to act and never give up, and to try how to stay meaningful, passionate, powerful. Every Life Has A Meaning! But! You must see further than your nose! ... Non of You wants to be Lost Soul, but it is not always up to You. The circumstances has very serious influence on everyone’s life. There is no exeption. Just bare luck! At least at the very beginning. Not your choice, where, and what kind of family You want to born into. Your father, Your mother also given. Your language, the colour of your skin, your childhood environments, rich- or poorness also not choosen by you. You just start to live, because You’ve been born. This is common in all of us! So, it is not reasonable to think, One is more, better than others, just because he/she has the luck at the beginning... Maybe You are not a Lost Soul! Maybe You are, but non of You destined to be, or stay like that. We can always make things worst, and better too. Never too late to start something, which is truly You! Never too late to find a Goal! Goal! Goal, which is includes Your and the human society’s interests... I know a Life. Every person has its bubble, and every bubble has its special athmosphere of its inner world. Every person is a kind of fossil of their past, and every Past is a Path, through time and space. Every path leads somewhere and everyone has personal path. That is what You walking on. Look back, it is Your Past. Take a look on Yourself! The dried mud on your boots, from the swarm couple of miles back. Hopefully the age of competitions are over, and the time of collaboration, the empathy, will come... You have to change!!!! You have to think deeper, wider, further! You have to do something to find Your place in the hopefully emerging New System of all simultanously living human on the Planet Earth! You have to understand, what sustanability is about! I believe, WE ARE ABLE TO DO THIS TOGETHER! ... I know a Life! One of the Lost Souls life... I’d like to tell his story, for the deeper understanding of the message. Possibly many of You will recognize the similar challenges, surroundings, family backgrounds, then his. Never think, You are too old! Never think of Yourself, like unable to do something! If You feel, You have more, than You can express in your current life circumstances, change! Or radically, or step by step. Easy to say, I know, but necessary anyway, You gonna become the next Lost Soul, who has the remained hidden ability for the happiness and for a better world... Sounds like a religion? It is not! Just pure logic, science, psychology, wisdom, experience, reasonable thinking,...  I can’t help directly to all of You, but enough to start to act, and people will follow one-by-one. I know a Life! I witnessed all its moments, and harvested all its wisdom. I‘d like to share this life, from the beginning... This was an introduction I continue it next time Thanks for Your Precious Time!!!

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I’ve been given a body

I’ve been given a soul

I’ve been given The Music

So I give It to You All

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Hello! I’ve heard, this is The Site, place, where everyone can be honest. I am here, to be honest. I’m a reincarnation of a lost soul of Many. The goal of my existence is representing Them, whose has been sinked into sea of the forgotten lifes. They are the victims of the gradual growing of capitalism, the endless supply of humans, the growing of interests, the technical development, the ever faster rhytm of the life, when You have no choice, because the System is rendered You to being a slave and piosoned You with the feeling of shame, if You don’t have the latest technology, or the trendiest clothes. Not to mention the expenses of the daily living. The current system is NOT really efficient... The goal of my existence is to stand up for everyone, who has the similar lifeway, than The Lost Souls has. The goal of my existence is nothing else, than to encourage, other, still alive but feeling lost(!) Souls, to act and never give up, and to try how to stay meaningful, passionate, powerful. Every Life Has A Meaning! But! You must see further than your nose! ... Non of You wants to be Lost Soul, but it is not always up to You. The circumstances has very serious influence on everyone’s life. There is no exeption. Just bare luck! At least at the very beginning. Not your choice, where, and what kind of family You want to born into. Your father, Your mother also given. Your language, the colour of your skin, your childhood environments, rich- or poorness also not choosen by you. You just start to live, because You’ve been born. This is common in all of us! So, it is not reasonable to think, One is more, better than others, just because he/she has the luck at the beginning... Maybe You are not a Lost Soul! Maybe You are, but non of You destined to be, or stay like that. We can always make things worst, and better too. Never too late to start something, which is truly You! Never too late to find a Goal! Goal! Goal, which is includes Your and the human society’s interests... I know a Life. Every person has its bubble, and every bubble has its special athmosphere of its inner world. Every person is a kind of fossil of their past, and every Past is a Path, through time and space. Every path leads somewhere and everyone has personal path. That is what You walking on. Look back, it is Your Past. Take a look on Yourself! The dried mud on your boots, from the swarm couple of miles back. Hopefully the age of competitions are over, and the time of collaboration, the empathy, will come... You have to change!!!! You have to think deeper, wider, further! You have to do something to find Your place in the hopefully emerging New System of all simultanously living human on the Planet Earth! You have to understand, what sustanability is about! I believe, WE ARE ABLE TO DO THIS TOGETHER! ... I know a Life! One of the Lost Souls life... I’d like to tell his story, for the deeper understanding of the message. Possibly many of You will recognize the similar challenges, surroundings, family backgrounds, then his. Never think, You are too old! Never think of Yourself, like unable to do something! If You feel, You have more, than You can express in your current life circumstances, change! Or radically, or step by step. Easy to say, I know, but necessary anyway, You gonna become the next Lost Soul, who has the remained hidden ability for the happiness and for a better world... Sounds like a religion? It is not! Just pure logic, science, psychology, wisdom, experience, reasonable thinking,...  I can’t help directly to all of You, but enough to start to act, and people will follow one-by-one. I know a Life! I witnessed all its moments, and harvested all its wisdom. I‘d like to share this life, from the beginning... This was an introduction I continue it next time Thanks for Your Precious Time!!!

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I’ve been given a body

I’ve been given a soul

I’ve been given The Music

So I give It to You All