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Morning reflections: Am I a good boy..?

I ask myself that often. Am I a good sub for Master, am I really doing the very best I can, not holding back and pushing myself as hard as possible?

The very honest answer is.. I can probably do more. I can clean more, I can argue less, I can develop my body and just be better. It’s hard to look at other subs online and see how much they are willing to give and do, it’s honestly amazing the length some go to.

For me it’s always been an uphill battle though, it’s very difficult for me to just one day wake up and say “today is the day!”. I am just not wired to be like that, putting my depression and anxiety issues aside, I am just a pretty lazy and carefree person in my core, it’s nearly impossible for me to get myself excited to do something or find the right motivation.

The right motivation is of course Master, and don’t take me wrong, serving him gives me insane amount of motivation compared to before. Master is the reason I wake up every morning so I can make him breakfast before work, Master is why I go to sleep at decent hours and not just let my insomnia control my life. Master is why the house is cleaned everyday and why I picked up woodworking.

In truth being a sub is probably like everything else in life, some people are just going to be better at it, or more correctly, everyone will excel in some areas more. My strong side is probably more of the sex/scenes area. I can take pain without resistance and ask for more, and sexually I became a total cock-hungry boy compared to a lazy, selfish bottom.

At the end of the day, I don’t need to judge myself, it’s not my job. Master tells me when I am being good or bad, and he mostly tells me I am doing good work and a good boy.

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Whaddya know? @fuzzbutt07 and I made the funny papers…

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Alpha_Dog at Daylesford Chillout Pride Parade 2016 in Victoria Australia

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Service Animal Shutter and K9 Unit @alphagunny at #TBRU.

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I’m at a bear run, about to head to a bdsm playspace, wearing a puppy holding a riding crop t-shirt. This about sums up my life. Today is the last day of #TBRU and @alphagunny is taking me and @ksbearhunter to Esprit de Corps for some serious bdsm play.

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David and John having an intimate moment as they share their pipe smoke.

Chicago, IL March 2013

#bear #beard #leather #fetish #pipe #smoke #lifestyleportrait (at Chicago, Illinois)

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“Dog Park”

Featuring: Gunnar

Photographer: Hero Pup

I hosted a potluck in the “fruit loop” of San Diego, near Balboa, for the Fetish Men San Diego group and it was a lot of fun. Good people and company. I asked people to cook something and bring it.

It’s actually pretty fun getting to gear out a bit in an open setting. It was a bit secluded-ish so we could just enjoy being ourselves.

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Very important petting guide~

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AlphaDog at Daylesford Chillout Pride March 2016

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Hey! He did the thing! I’m so proud of him!