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what does it mean......

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That moment when your mentally ill little brother who is possessed by the soul of a necromancer makes everyone at the conference meeting go into your secret chamber room where you keep your situationship’s severed head. Also your wife just killed herself.

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ok so jin ling is. not a well-adjusted child at all and is incredibly spoiled.

Which means that Jiang Cheng and Jin Guangyao didn’t do a very good job on the parenting their nephew front. We see enough of Jiang Cheng’s approach, and Jin Ling tells us flat out that Jiang Cheng yells at and threatens him all the time, but then gives him whatever he wants. So he’s combining his parents’ parenting styles in a really fun and bad way. 

The only thing we see of Jin Guangyao is him urging Jiang Cheng to go easy on Jin Ling and not be too harsh with him, and the general consensus is that Jin Guangyao is overly permissive and coddles Jin Ling. There’s a theory that this is so he can stay in power longer, and while he wouldn’t complain about that, I don’t think I buy it, and I do buy that he expects Jin Ling to be the next leader of the Jin sect. Otherwise, Jin Guangyao would have to produce an heir, which either means a) accidental incest baby 2! or, b) kill Qin Su and remarry. And since he hasn’t gotten around to that in the 10 or so years they’ve been married, I think it’s because he doesn’t want to, and so has decided to be ok with not having dynastic ambitions.

But! Back to Jin Guangyao’s parenting! I don’t think it’s because he wants Jin Ling to be weak and easily lead. Jin Guangyao didn’t get a real childhood. He was put to work young, and was exposed to the worst parts of the adult world from day one. He probably doesn’t remember a time when he didn’t know what sex was, he’s probably very confused to learn about children who didn’t have a list of chores as long as their arm at age 5. He learned his addition and multiplication tables by helping his mom calculate how many customers she’d have to take to pay for his school or pay off her debt or keep him from being sold. The concept of being a kid is probably something he is desperately jealous he never got to have. And when he gets to Qinghe, he’s given a very adult job as a teen. He and Huaisang are very close in age. Huaisang is a child. Meng Yao is not.

So I think his permissiveness reads more similar to when my mom got. Way. Too. Into. me going to prom (i didn’t really care. i was just there for the chocolate fountain) because she didn’t get to go to hers. Jin Guangyao gets to vicariously have the childhood he believes he would have gotten if his dad had just paid his mom’s contract and brought them to live at Koi Tower like he should have through Jin Ling. So of course he showers him with expensive gifts and wonder-dogs, cultivation training, free time, opportunities to go night-hunting. Of course he lets him play and have an extended childhood instead of enforcing discipline and giving him the sort of duties and responsibilities of a sect heir. On top of that, Jiang Cheng likes to yell and threaten to break Jin Ling’s legs, tell him to not bother coming home if he fucks up, etc, even though he doesn’t mean it. Jin Guangyao has been raised and trained to be a peacemaker, to talk down very angry men in positions of power, and to mediate between them and weaker others. This is the role he fulfilled between Nie Mingjue and Nie Huaisang (”Please don’t make your brother angry. I won’t be able to protect you anymore.”). So I don’t think he’s undermining Jiang Cheng, at least not consciously. He’s falling back into a role he’s been put into again and again and again. Is this good? No. Is it nefarious? Also no.

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For my foreign followers here's a short explanation of what happened in yesterday's elections:

1. You can be openly antisemitic, anti-european and pro-russian, be against abortions, want to make Poland officially a religious state and still get ~6% of all votes

2. You can openly support hitting children, be against abortion in all cases (most famously in the campaign - rape victims, also young girls), call rape an "uncomfortable situation", be for getting rid of the national health system and free education and still get ~15% of all votes

3. You can have criminal connections, write a book under an alias and praise yourself anonymously, lie publicly about having one flat but in reality have two more, scam an older man out of his flat promising you will be taking care of him and not do that, sell that flat to yourself without the old man knowing about it, put the old man in an old people's home making the city of Gdansk pay for his stay not attributing a single zloty yourself, and have a notary agreement for that same old man to pay you 20% yearly interest for the flat that isn't even his anymore and still get ~30% of the votes

There is no hope for this country I swear

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Jiang Cheng: The reason l have always felt so outcast from the other sect leaders is because apparently they are all in polyamorous relationship

and I didn't fucking know.

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from a utilitarian pov, the character who did the most good (ie. had the greatest net-positive material impact upon the world) was jin guangyao. while saving people on an individual basis is heroic and makes for more inspiring narratives, what ultimately improves the material conditions experienced by large numbers of people is institutional reform.

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Lan Qiren: I pray that my nephews won't share their father's weakness for women!

Monkey's Paw: *curls a finger*

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I’m ngl I be woobifying the shit outta 15 y/o Meng Yao like I just imagine him almost getting gang raped by Nie sect soldiers before being rescued by Chifeng-zun he’s like a delicate baby fawn to me just born and struggling to be able to walk, he could never hurt a fly he’s literally just a little guy just an itty bitty baby I don’t think he even has hair down there yet it’s all smooth like a porcelain doll which he practically is and he needs big strong men (lxc & nmj) to help him do anything

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Ukrainians holding their pride march in a subway because of russian bombs are immeasurably more powerful and real than any western tankie with a hammer-and-sickle or a Lenin profile on a trans flag.

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Jin Guangyao: Of course I have a lot of pent-up rage, you fool! I've been the same height since I was twelve!

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jin guangyao for all his brains and schemes is not immune to the sunk cost fallacy

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Lan yuan: My dad definitely went for looks, yiling patriarch s food deserves to be on fear factor.

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I think Lan Xichen was safe to Jin Guangyao in a way that nobody else was. Even though he had to hide things from Lan Xichen, he could let his guard down around him because he trusted that Lan Xichen would never hurt him. He didn’t have to worry about being attacked, physically or verbally, with Lan Xichen. Not just because Lan Xichen would never do that but also because he would protect Jin Guangyao from outside threats. I think that being around Lan Xichen was probably where Jin Guangyao felt safest.

It makes it all the more tragic that Lan Xichen is the one to kill him. But maybe it was a comfort that Lan Xichen had to be tricked to even contemplate hurting Jin Guangyao, that Lan Xichen was willing to stay with him because he never wanted to hurt Jin Guangyao. Maybe, if it had to be anyone, Jin Guangyao preferred dying by Lan Xichen’s hand.

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Meng Yao striving // stained // weighed down (sparks amidst snow)

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Biggest plothole is why didn’t Meng Yao have jewelry and many pretty clothes when I know in my heart Nie Huaisang was using him as a dress-up doll/dumping ground for things he didn’t wear anymore

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I have never seen this man in my life.

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