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Love is more than three words mumbled before bedtime. Love is sustained by action, a pattern of devotion in things we do for each other every day.

Nicholas Sparks (via thoughtkick)

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Entry #1

You told me that you loved me on a Monday. You told me that I’d taken your whole heart. You told me that I’d found you at your darkest, and you thought that I’d given you a start.

I told you that I loved you on a Monday. And the sad thing is I believed that you did too. I believed you when you told me that you loved me, because I wanted you to know I that I loved you.

The thing is, you thought that I had asked you, if you loved me. In that moment, where time and space stood still. And you whispered, “Do I love you, yes I love you.” But what I’d asked wasn’t about me at all. We were watching an old movie that I adored. We’d shared one too many drinks, and it was late. What I’d asked you wasn’t really if you’d loved me. But I think I realized it much to late. When you said it, I didn’t want to correct you. I didn’t want you to feel embarrassment. What I’d asked you was “don’t you love it?” about the movie. But you repeated that you loved me, yet again.

You said that you loved me on a Monday. And the thing is, you said it more than once. You said it as you fell asleep next to me, In my bed, where we’d laid for far too long. You were asking me to cuddle, and I did. Though I hate being that close to anyone. I watched your eyes flutter, as you whispered. That you loved me, oh how fickle is love? See, I’d already thought about you in that way, but it was something that I never planned to say. It was something that I’d keep inside my memory, it was something I never thought I’d hear you say.

You told me that you loved me, on a Monday. And I’ve hoped since then that it was something true. You said you’d not loved very many women, and for some reason I wanted to believe that, too. And you fell asleep next to me, and you stayed there. At least until I’d followed you in sleep. When you left, you turned on my bedroom fan for me, because you know that I get too hot in my sleep.

I keep playing it over in my head. All of the sweet nothings that you said. Everything I can’t believe, like you being in love with me, because possible lies are something that I dread. You told me that you loved me on a Monday. And the crazy thing is that I said it back. And I know that we’ll never talk about it. Because it’s something that we can’t take back.

So I’ll hold onto when you said you loved me. And save it for a random rainy day. For when I’m feeling sad and blue, because I really do, love you, but I know you don’t really feel the same. You made me feel so lovely, for a moment. And on a Monday evening, no less. And then the next day you repeated it and I knew, that I would never say it back again. I can never tell you that I love you. Because that makes it something I believe. So I’ll just keep it to myself, while you say it to someone else, and maybe someday you’ll say it to me again.

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Movies feat. serial killers, spree killers, and other things like that

70 Movies (biographical and not) with serial killers characters.

*movies in italic are biographical movies*

*♥ = personal recommendation*

The Cabinet of Dr. Caligari (1920) ♥

M (1931)

Murders in the Rue Morgue (1932)

The Most Dangerous Game (1932)

Mystery of the Wax Museum (1933) ♥

Shadow of a Doubt (1943)

Arsenic and Old Lace (1944) ♥

Bluebeard (1944) ♥

The Spiral Staircase (1945)

Monsieur Verdoux (1947)

The Night of Hunter (1955)

The Bad Seed (1956) ♥

The Devil Strikes at Night (1957)

Psycho (1960) ♥

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