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jeremy

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"I'M KIND BECAUSE I CHOOSE TO BE" PROMPTS *  assorted dialogue for remaining good despite it all, adjust as necessary

they've suffered enough.

i have seen the worst that humanity has to offer... and yet i'm still standing.

the world can keep knocking me down, but i'll get back up.

i don't give up.

i just want to live a peaceful life.

i don't want conflict.

there were nicer ways to ask that, you know.

i don't want to hurt anybody.

i still don't hate you.

i want peace at all costs.

if you would only try and see the world from my point of view.

i don't want to fight with you.

things always get better.

this isn't the end.

you have to stand tall.

the world is cruel, but i won't be.

i believe in you. i always have.

my morals are firm.

there's no harm in a little kindness.

just be gentle with them.

i mean well.

there's too much pain in this world. i don't intend to add to it.

i don't want to fight anyone.

don't you believe in yourself?

i'm not leaving them.

there is enough hate in this world.

i try to lead with love.

it's the right thing to do.

this doesn't have to end in violence.

why don't we talk this through?

maybe he's having a bad day.

i'm going to try again.

there has to be another way to do this.

this isn't the time to quit.

i've seen too many things go wrong. this has to go right.

i'm not giving up just yet.

kindness is not weakness.

you can do better than that.

i try to see the good in everyone.

you can't just give up!

you're a special person.

i deserve better than this.

you deserve happiness.

it costs nothing to be kind.

there's no need to be so mean.

if only you could see yourself the way i see you.

it's still a beautiful day.

there's always tomorrow.

are you asking me to quit?

tomorrow will be better.

you didn't mean that, did you?

maybe we should talk this out.

i will always choose to be kind.

despite everything, i just want to be good.

i do my best to see the good in everyone, no matter what.

you didn't have to do that.

that wasn't very nice.

do you have to be so rude?

a nice word goes a long way.

try smiling at them. see what happens.

you could try being nicer.

i deserve a happy ending.

don't beat yourself up.

don't talk about yourself like that.

i see the goodness in you.

life is truly beautiful.

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PROMPTS FOR A LITTLE JEALOUSY *  assorted dialogue for when you see the person you're interested in with someone else and go... hey wait a minute, adjust as necessary

are you two... together?

i should probably ask if you're single first.

who was that you were talking to?

did you two have a nice chat?

are we really doing this now?

what was that all about?

i don't like it when they touch you.

they need to learn to keep their hands off you.

are you trying to make me jealous?

you just gave me the impression we were exclusive.

who was that, anyway?

was that someone you know?

it's completely innocent.

were you flirting with them?

that was a little bit excessive.

they were flirting with you.

i'm not jealous.

i'm upset with you.

they didn't mean anything by that.

i just thought we had something going on.

they know i have feelings for you.

i hate it when you get jealous.

i'm two seconds away from throwing a punch.

they did that on purpose.

wait a minute... are you jealous?

you have no reason to worry.

i'm not interested in them, i promise.

they do get a little touchy-feely, i'll admit.

they don't mean anything by it.

did they just try to kiss you?

we're just really good friends!

you know i only have eyes for you.

please ignore them, okay?

it's not like i'm in love with you or anything.

they're just trying to upset you.

i just don't like it when someone else flirts with you.

i don't blame them, of course, but you're mine.

next time someone tries to hit on you, call me over.

i'll give them a piece of my mind.

they know you're taken, right?

i didn't want to get in your way.

clearly your mind is elsewhere.

if you'd rather be with them, then just tell me.

i need to know where we stand.

can we be more exclusive?

i just don't like it when they talk to you like that.

you have absolutely nothing to worry about.

if they make you happy... i can't stop it.

maybe i have a crush on you. so what?

there was a better way to go about this, you know.

you could have been a little bit nicer.

did you have to be so nasty about it?

i'm going to scream.

i don't want anything coming in between us.

you trust me, don't you?

if you trust me, you have nothing to worry about.

this jealousy of yours is getting a little bit out of control.

i love only you.

why do they have to hold your hand like that?

they couldn't keep their hands off you.

i hate watching you deal with that.

i should give them a piece of my mind.

what? me? jealous? never.

i think i'm allowed a little jealousy every now and then.

you're mine, and i want everyone to know that.

did you just... get jealous over me?

you said you weren't the jealous type.

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// can't stop thinking about this

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PROMPTS FOR ORDINARY THINGS THAT FEEL INTIMATE *  inspired by this post. these don't have to be romantic - you can specify romantic or not when you send them. in essence, these are simply intimate, affectionate moments to share with someone you love and care about. adjust as necessary, send 'reverse' for the reversal of the prompt

[ lean ] sender rests their head on receiver's shoulder

[ shop ] sender and receiver go to the grocery store together

[ brush ] sender brushes receiver's hair

[ tie ] sender helps receiver with their tie, either by putting it on or adjusting it

[ necklace ] sender helps receiver with the clasp of their necklace from behind

[ zip up ] sender assists receiver with zipping up a piece of clothing

[ unzip ] sender assists receiver with unzipping a piece of clothing

[ shoelaces ] sender bends down to tie receiver's shoelaces

[ swipe ] sender notices a smudge of something on receiver's face and gently wipes it off

[ braid ] sender braids receiver's hair

[ jacket ] sender takes their jacket off and hangs it on receiver's shoulders

[ puddle ] sender hurries to stop receiver from stepping into a puddle

[ drinks ] sender brings receiver a drink from a bar/their kitchen

[ feed ] sender feeds receiver's pet/s for them

[ cook ] sender and receiver cook a meal together

[ feed ] sender allows receiver to try a bite of their dish, holding their fork out for receiver to taste

[ teach ] sender, an expert at something, takes time to teach receiver how it works and how they can get better at it, too

[ readjust ] sender comes up behind receiver and readjusts their stance (maybe holding a gun, holding a golf club, aiming for something, etc.) to help them

[ makeup ] sender fixes receiver's makeup for them

[ bathroom ] sender and receiver go to a public restroom together and have a normal conversation in between the stalls

[ aloud ] sender reads aloud to receiver

[ refill ] sender refills receiver's glass without asking

[ massage ] sender notices receiver looks tense, steps up behind them, and massages their shoulders

[ listen ] sender listens to receiver explain something they're passionate about

[ silence ] sender and receiver comfortably exist in silence together, both of them working or reading or focusing on something different

[ food ] sender brings food over to receiver's house

[ hum ] sender hums along to a song receiver is singing

[ see ] sender sees something that reminds them of receiver and texts them a picture of it

[ admire ] sender stares at receiver across a room, silently admiring and appreciating them from afar

[ win ] sender lets receiver beat them in a game

[ puzzle ] sender helps receiver solve/put together a puzzle

[ carry ] after receiver falls asleep in an inconvenient place, sender carries them to a bed and tucks them in

[ kneel ] sender finds receiver sick in the bathroom ("tossing their cookies"), and kneels beside them, holding their hair back and cleaning their face

[ clean ] sender helps bathe receiver

[ wash ] sender helps receiver wash their hair

[ patch ] sender carefully patches one of receiver's wounds

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there was more to it and jean knew it. jeremy turned his hand this way and that, watching the cherry blur as he made his cigarette dance, and offered up a quiet, “redemption, perhaps.”

independent & selective portrayal of jeremy knox from the all for the game series. spoilers for the golden raven . . . est march 31st 2024 . . *captained by ethan, 23, she/her. you wanna see my carrd so bad

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nora you want to give me his backstory SO BAD

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coming out of the worst meeting of my life (that got extended from 2 hours and to 3) to seeing paperback copies are live... closest thing to a spirtual experience i will ever have

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thinking about making a jeremy backstory murder board... i feel like there's no way there's enough information to figure it out but just sounds fun

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There is a sort of constant battle between the two of them to the degree that they are fighting, but they are taking care of one another. When the sugar goes on the cheek of Patrick, Art takes it off with his hand in a very nice gesture of kindness -- and very intimate, I would say. But at the same time, they are really tense. And I think it’s about being jealous of one another, but at the same time wanting one another.

Challengers (2024) dir. Luca Guadagnino

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mike fa*st is not quite how i picture jeremy... but the blond curls... the scene where he's in the red hat and shirt.....

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nothing i say about jeremy can be trusted until i do a re-read but i don't wanna do a re-read until i get the paperback >:(

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[PRIDE]: after the receiver succeeds in a remarkable achievement, the sender cups their face and tilts their foreheads together to express how proud they are of them. @sordidery

jeremy couldn't deny the truth: if someone had told him that after his college career was over he'd be playing with a fox, he would have wanted it to be kevin. in fairness to him, anyone (who hadn't played with kevin previously) would have also wanted to play with kevin. however, he found himself caught in little moments where he felt immensely glad it was neil. this had turned out to be one of them.

night practices, at first, had seemed unacceptable to jeremy for two reasons. one, he pushed himself to his limit in practices that were mandatory so he could relax outside of it. two, jeremy believed his therapist when she pointed out the importance of boundaries. she likely hadn't meant with exy, but most things that applied to exy applied to life.

jeremy got the sneaking suspicion that neil had never seen a therapist, had unparalleled stamina from playing full-halves, and wanted jeremy dead. perhaps he had ended up on a team with a fox that was a crazy fool.

still, he couldn't lie and say it hadn't strengthened him and neil both individually and together. he couldn't lie and say finally completing a successful maneuver after all this time practicing wasn't some of the most fun he had ever had with their team.

when neil reached forward to tip their foreheads together, jeremy felt it. they were going to make a great team. "you were great out there. if we can keep this up, we might just win this season." he was pretty sure the grin on his face was delirious.

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[CHECK]: after an unexpectedly violent situation, sender frantically rushes to check if the receiver is okay, cupping their face to look closer. @jeanmor3au

jeremy knew what people said about the trojans, and he spent very little time thinking it. it didn't bother him when he stumbled across an article or a sportscast about how the trojans were too soft, he knew what he was. what kind of team he was leading.

but not letting your opponents get the better of you wasn't supposed to mean that they should say whatever they wanted and get away with it. this was twice as true when it came to his teammates.

he had been unwilling to let lucas's comment at the beach slide. he hadn't escalated it, but he wouldn't tolerate it. this time the comment had been far worse, and jeremy hadn't been able to stop himself on calling lucas out on it. he was willing to back away, but he had made the wrong call thinking jean wouldn't be pulled into it.

he had stepped in front of jean pre-emptively, he had meant it to signal that jean was apart of this team now and jeremy would defend him with whatever it took. lucas was already swinging though, so jeremy was the one who took the first hit.

everything narrowed down to the burst of pain. he only allowed himself a moment with it before he forced his hearing to come back and confirmed that one of the coaches was dealing with lucas. his hand reached out to touch his face, but jean was faster.

jean. how could jeremy have forgotten about him, when all this violence had occurred, for even a moment?

"jean," he wasn't sure if it was a confirmation or a question. "are you okay?"

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[ FOCUS ]: the sender, noticing the receiver has become distracted during a conversation, places a hand on their shoulder to redirect and focus their attention. @sordidery

it's the first dinner with the trojans jeremy has been able to make in awhile, so he would really prefer if he actually felt like he was here.

something about being back at the dinner table has him feeling like he's back at his family's place. laila and cat's place couldn't be more different than his family's, even at the dinner table. the mugs decorated with silly phrases, the knit coasters by cat's grandma and the paper plates they're eating off of is a contrast from the fine china he's sat in front of the last week. but he still can't help but feel like he never really left the mansion. two weeks of being alone in his room or alone in a group of people will have him thinking like that.

he goes through the motions, drowns out the conversation enough to be listening for his name, waiting to be called on to answer a question where he has to avoid the topics of exy, his relationships, his classes, himself.

his mind runs through the arguments he's gone through in therapy, lap after lap until he feels dizzy. it's just like exy, he tries to tell himself, you practice and then you go on the court and perform. except it's not, because there's no team beside him, behind him or anywhere. he tries to square his shoulders, toughening himself out for it. this must be what signals laila.

he feels her hand on his shoulder, blinks once, slowly. when he opens his eyes he finds his team. he straightens his shoulders without even meaning to.

"sorry," he tries to get it out fast, hoping they can move on. "i kind of zoned out? what were you saying?"

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what if your family was torn apart from something involving the sport you love and they blamed you for it and you hated being called your last name because it reminds you of them and then every time you go to play said sport you're likely forced to think about it when you see their, i mean your, name written across the back