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I’ve got no where else to post this other than here. I’m drunk and so upset. Just found out that the people I thought I was friends with after Holland are meeting other people from exchange without me. These other people don’t even know eachother but they all know mr and I’m not invited. Like fuck, am I that bad? Fuck. Fuckkk. Fuck. It’s my birthday and you’re not even inviting me to this reunion? Like wow i thought we were friends....my other friend. Y best friend, is too busy studying for exams and coursework we both have. When I mention we both have this due she’s like nah because I don’t study every hour of the day like her - like sorry I’m depressed and can’t bring myself to do anything other than cut and hatemyselg - didn’t realise this meant my deadlines stopped existing and weighing on me - fuck this!

WORST BIRTHDAY EVER - CUT MYSELF FOR THE FORST TINE IN 2 years AND ALL MY FRIRBFS HATE ME

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His name is Steven Udotong.

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I had a dream that the new Meme was ultralight camping elitism and all you do is post pictures of bare-minimum camping setups and talk about how cool you are for being able to survive in that

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women in small towns be working for pyramid schemes and salons

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Yes or no tarot

Hope you like 🌸

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ladies don’t forget to fill up your water bottle and put it in the fridge before you go to bed tonight so you can have a drink as soon as you wake up tomorrow. men you can die i guess

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Sometimes you make me feel lost, like I didn't mean anything to you. Other times, you make me feel like the prettiest woman on Earth. Why the fuck are you like this? I hate the confusion. Save me.

//things-never-spoken//

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self care for when you hit rock bottom

i fucking hate self care posts made by neurotypicals so here’s one from someone who Actually Gets It

-can’t shower or take a bath? me either. dry shampoo can make your hair look and feel cleaner, and baby wipes or makeup wipes work great to get the top layer of grime off your skin.

-can’t wash your sheets and make your bed? i feel you. push your blankets out of the way and shake the crumbs off your sheet. it will at least be a bit more comfortable.

-can’t even change out of your dirty pajamas? been there. hit yourself with some febreeze and a lint roller. if you can, brush your hair. if you can’t, hair ties and bobby pins are fantastic.

-can’t make anything to eat? same. if you can, there’s no shame in ordering food. in fact, it’s probably better you eat something rather than go hungry. if you can’t, try and find something that comes pre-made or takes minimal effort to make. at the very least, drink some water.

can’t respond to messages or reach out for help? yeah, i get that. set an alarm for a few hours from now and respond to any messages you need to once you’ve given yourself time to prepare. if they’re Important Messages that need Professional Responses, you can find fill-in-the-blank format rough drafts on google. as far as personal messages go, don’t feel bad for sending a mass “I’m sorry, I’m in a personal emergency right now. I’ll get back to you as soon as I can.” response to everyone.

-can’t even sleep because it’s so bad? asmr videos always knock me out, personally, but i also watch a lot of bob ross. just try to find something quiet and soothing to use as background noise and take your mind off it, or at least give you a more peaceful environment to think about it.

-can’t go for a walk/drive? try opening the blinds or curtains. you’re still exposing yourself to the outside world. baby steps. (i also play animal crossing or sims; it may be virtual but fuck it. i went on a walk.)

-can’t go into work/school? let people know. let your coworkers or classmates know it’s an emergency and you can’t make it. give yourself up to two days, but then you have to go back. ask to have your work emailed to you so you know what you missed.

-can’t brush your teeth and wash your face? makeup or baby wipes and gum or mouthwash. don’t let yourself physically rot bc you’re rotting emotionally.

-remember that you’ve been here before. if you survived then you can survive now. that’s what this is about- survival. you don’t have to be living your Best Life. right now, it’s more than enough that you’re alive.

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“That’s the thing about kindness. The best way to spread it is chaotically, lawlessly and randomly until everything around you starts to be madly beautiful.”

— Juansen Dizon, The thing about kindness

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i want 2 be breathtakingly beautiful the kind of beautiful where people see u once and think about u for the rest of the day

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“Here’s how you stop being average: When you wake up in the morning and need to brush your teeth, and you have that thought, “Oh, I should actually floss too,” then floss. When you go to make yourself breakfast and you have that thought, “Oh, I said I was going to eat healthier,” make the healthy choice instead of the unhealthy one. When you go to head to train for work and you have the choice between taking the stairs or the escalator, and you hear that voice in your head that says, “Oh, I said I was going to be more physically active,” take the stairs. When you get into work and you sit down in front of your first task, and you have that thought, “Oh, I said I was going to work on being more productive,” turn off all distractions and get to work—instead of browsing Facebook, for example. When you leave work and you’re exhausted and you have that thought, “Oh, I said I was going to work on my book this week,” don’t go to the bar. Go home and work on your book. When you get ready for bed and you feel like winding down, and you have that thought, “I said I was going to read more instead of watching so much Netflix,” pick up a book instead of opening a web browser. Being average is a choice—that’s what a lot of people don’t understand. You know what you need to do. And a tiny, faint voice in your head reminds you of what you need to do, or what you had said you were going to do, a lot more often than you might realize. Start listening to that voice.”

— Nicolas Cole (via smallmitgirl)

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Liquid diet

I want to try a liquid diet for the next 7 days and was wondering if anyone had any advice for liquids to consume and how to keep going for the 7 days and maybe even longer