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I don’t know if someone has said it before but in my head Betty has abandonment issues cause her father abandoned her and I have proof:

First of all, for what reason would she say “leaving like a father”? Like, it’s a very specific thing for her to say and really sounds like she’s bringing this back cause James KNEW she had this trauma and he betrayed her and LEFT her to be with Augustine anyway.

There are a few things in Cardigan that made me believe that her father leaving really affected her self esteem. “And when I felt like I was an old cardigan under someone’s bed, you put me on and said I was your favorite”. Betty felt abandoned and unwanted and James showed up and made her feel loved again. “Baby kiss it better” is one more proof that she was hurt and James was really important, helping her heal and feel good again. Another thing is said in Cardigan: “You drew stars around my scars and now I’m bleeding”. James helped her, she felt wanted, special, and then when he left everything came back even stronger cause he kind of confirmed that nobody really wants to be with her, he was just pretending, he didn’t mean any of that, she’s replaceable and no one really wants her, he left her just like her father did.

But I feel like she had this hope that this time it would be different and MAYBE James really liked her and would regret everything. And considering that Betty is writing the song in the future, she knows what happened in the end and when she says “I knew you’d miss me once the thrill expired, And you'd be standin' in my front porch light, and I knew you'd come back to me, you'd come back to me and you'd come back to me and you'd come back” really sounds to me like she’s talking about this hope, the fact that she keeps repeating at the end of the song “you’d come back to me” sounds like she’s trying to convince herself that he would come back to her, she’s trying to hold on to this thought of a happy ending.

I have no ideia if I’m mad here but I really feel like all these lines couldn’t be there for no reason and it just makes so much sense to me LOL

@taylorswift

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Ok, but can we talk about just how unloved Feyre was till she entered Prythian?

Reading the first three books, we've always known their mother was cold and Nesta let her go out hunting in dangerous woods (I know, I know it's oft repeated), and their dad loved Elain the most.

But ACoSF, from Nesta's perspective just makes it so much clearer?

• Their mother

Their mother was clearly a cold, scheming woman, and she trained Nesta to dance, and basically become a smaller image of herself, like a protégée. Elain was the doll to be dressed up. Feyre hardly came into the scheme of things because she was so little, and basically nobody took notice of her. Like, she didn't matter, at all. Nesta would marry a prince or something, and Elain would marry for love. But cmon, at least talk about Feyre.

She literally tried to organize Feyre's birthday on a different day than the actual one, and then forgot. And called her strange and withdrawn for having been born on the longest night.

• Their father

Their father treated Elain like a princess, in Nesta's own words. She says Feyre was more his princess than she, Nesta, was. But he too, barely said anything about her hunting. Feyre goes to Prythian, and he says Go, Leave Us. Like seriously, you want to speak up then?

At the end of the War, which ship does he come on? The Nesta. Honestly, Feyre and her dad have a negligible relationship.

• Her sisters

Nesta and Elain have always been closer. It genuinely bothers Nesta, that Elain 'chose' Feyre? The two elders, excluding her, using her as a sack of money when they were humans, and failing to notice her suffering? To the extent that they didn't know she couldn't fucking read? They actually think Feyre will bring any harm to them, and Nesta is always, always protecting Elain? From her own sister? Nesta's explanation for spending Feyre's money: "I knew you could always get more." That's so... ugh.

Little Feyre, staying behind to beg the creditors to not kill her dad, or smash his legs. While the elder two, ran off to hide, without a thought for the youngest, the only one who stayed?

Yet Feyre loves them all. Doesn't understand Nesta, maybe, but loves them and has never, not once said anything remotely as hurtful as Nesta has said to her. (I would like to say at this point, that I'm not a Nesta Anti. I admire her, and I relate to her depression and certain thoughts, but there are a few things I cannot forgive her for)

That is why the Inner Circle is her family, her true Court of Dreams. That is why she fell in love with Tamlin. The first time she truly felt loved and wanted.

Feyre and Nesta have one of the most complex relationships, and fingers crossed, that they'll be closer now, but being the youngest in a family and watching everybody, everybody choose someone else over you, treat you like shit, and then use you when it benefits them just sucks.

This is why I remind you to not hate Feyre. To not call her Tamlin 2.0. That is the most disrespectful thing you could say, and I can't see anything similar between Feyre and Tamlin. At all. She tries her best, to do what she thinks is right. And ok, maybe sending her to Windhaven to train was harsh, but the intent was not to harm?

Feyre has died, loved and lost, been imprisoned, abused in so many ways, depressed and so much more. I stan Feyre Archeron, because she is strong, and if I'm half as strong as her at 21, I will be beyond happy.

(Let me know if I quoted something that was not canon. That said, not to be rude, please don't come at me and hate on me for expressing my views and what I feel about Feyre. I feel the SJM fandom is the most toxic fandom out there, and it makes me scared of saying what I think, because it starts fights, and I honestly don't have the energy to fight)

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Okay, there is something I want to address about why Elain and Azriel do not feel right together. As you read, please keep in mind that I do not know what will happen next in the books. These are just my thoughts on why the ship that shall remain nameless does not work.

Elain has always been seen as the pretty and quiet one of the three sisters. The one that makes a lovely housewife, but nothing more. Even her own mother saw her as nothing more than beautiful.

Because of this, Elain needs someone who will see her. Truly see her. Someone who will see her as more than just pretty. A partner who will see that she is smart, funny, strong, capable, etc. Someone who will empower her to grab hold of her potential and take charge of her life.

That person is not Azriel. He has not pushed Elain. He has only shielded and coddled her as much as everyone else does. He does not truly see her.

Azriel struggles with a deep self-loathing. He is desperate to find love, but doesn't see himself as worthy of it. He also does not accept himself.

Because of this, Azriel needs someone who is completely and utterly his. Someone who helps him accept himself and who isn't afraid of the things he does for his job. Someone who doesn't make him hate himself more and who finds comfort in his shadows. Someone who loves him as he is and is only his. Someone he can find peace with.

That person is not Elain. She will never truly be Azriel's even if she "chooses" him. She will always have a small part of her that is tied to another male (Lucien). He would also forever know that he was her second choice (Greyson was the first). Plus, he will never truly accept himself with her because he would think he was tainting her.

If Sarah makes these two endgame, I will read it and hope she addresses these issues. But as it stands right now, they just don't fit. Especially not with the patterns of her other endgame couples.

P.S. I will not be taking arguments on this. I am just sharing my thoughts, not trying to start a fight. Thank you!

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Shawn Mendes aesthetic!

Reblog or fav if you like!

Enjoy!

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So when @taylorswift said “nobody physically saw me for a year” was she just talking about that time of her life or was she planting an Easter egg for 2020 too?

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Oi amigos do Twitter

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My sister and I are SO excited for Folklore, I mean, first we were like WHAAAAT and now we are like YAAAAAS and we just can’t wait

@taylorswift just thank you very much

@taylornation

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God, this didn’t age well

@taylorswift hope to see you next year

I’m DYING to finish my TS LOVER FEST costume IM SO EXCITED TO MY FIRST @taylorswift CONCERT

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@taylorswift

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Hey Taylor, just a daily reminder that we are very thankful for everything, for all of your songs and for you in our lives 🤍✨ @taylorswift

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Oh i really miss the curls

Taylor Swift - Speak Now World Tour Live

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Let’s try then lol

reblog and make a wish! this was removed from tumbrl due to “violating one or more of Tumblr’s Community Guidelines”, but since my wish came true the first time, I’m putting it back. :)

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Don’t you guys sometimes just want to reach out to Taylor like just talk to her? It’s so frustrating that she’s so unreachable. I vou tag her a million times and she would never notice you know

@taylorswift I don’t know why I keep trying

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So I was rewatching Miss America for the millionth time and just wanted to register here that I’m SO proud of this woman and I admire her so much and I just want to BE HER when I grow up... I mean it. Obviously I won’t be able to be like half the woman she is but it just makes me so happy to know she’s out there, speaking out for what she believes, doing what she loves and just not being quiet. I love you so much @taylorswift. Thank you for being such and inspiration to me, I wish some day I’ll be able to thank you enough for everything. Thank you for your songs, that have been with me since I was like 8 years old (I’m currently 16 btw), thank you for everything you’ve taught me, just thank you.

I was going to the Lover Fest in Brazil this year but then everything happened. I’m really looking forward to the day I’ll finally be at one of your concerts, it will be a dream coming true. Once again, I love you so much and I’m grateful for you. @taylorswift

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It’s GOLDEN like Daylight

You gotta step into the daylight and let it go... 🤍

@taylorswift

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black lives matter. they always have.

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I really can’t believe I’ve waited all my life for a chance to go to a @taylorswift concert and I was finally going this year and then everything happened I’m just sad