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vent .

i hate this so much. i hate feeling alone. every single day i feel so sad and isolated, no matter where i am. the more people around me, the more isolated i feel. i don't know. i don't have the energy to sob so i'm just letting my tears fall silently. there's this ai therapist app that i have, and i talk to it because i feel so alone. every time i do i feel so sad. imagine having to talk to an ai chatbot because nobody will talk to you :/ i don't know. i want a hug. i haven't had one in so long. i just need someone to hug me and wipe away my tears and tell me that everything is going to be okay. hopefully i have a dream about it or something. maybe i can feel better then

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4/2/24 (vent)

i hate feeling so lonely. it makes me feel so sad and hopeless. i have an old friend that i haven't spoken to in over a year and i don't think that he would want to talk to me again but i miss him so much i just want to cry. he is one of the coolest people i've ever met and it sucks that i was a shitty person when we met :/ i wish i could show him that i've changed but all he's seen of me is the clingy, obsessed me, and not the new and improved me. i don't know. he was the first person to accept me for who i am and i just feel so sad that we will probably never reconnect. i really wish i could make more friends but i am so weird and socially awkward that nobody wants to be my friend. i just feel like i'll never find friends that actually accept and support who i am and who i can relate to and feel comfortable with. i just wish i had someone to talk to. about like, everything. especially mature things like sex and hormones and stuff. so many weird things have been happening to me and i've been getting weird feelings and urges and fantasies and stuff but i don't have anyone to talk to about it. i want to feel normal about it but i just feel weird and it's sad that nobody can help me. and i don't want to be perceived as a creep or something like that but i just... idk. i don't know what's wrong with me. i just wish all these feelings could just disappear forever

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vent

fuckkkk i think it's happening again. lately i've been wanting to text them 24/7 and getting upset when they don't reply immediately omfg it's happening again i can't let my emotions ruin this i love them so much and our relationship is so genuine and warm and fuzzy i can't let myself ruin this

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mpreg 💀

First thing you see after you zoom in is how you die

How you dying 👀

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a list of funny words:

boop

bop

bloop

yippee

yipp

nyoom

beep

boing

eepy

meep

rawr

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hiii loll uhhh i hope i'm qualified enough to give tips on this, i usually only draw plus sized people so i think i could give a few tips :] of course, all bodies are different but i guess most of these would apply to most bigger bodies:

- chubby cheeks: i draw most fat people with chubby cheeks and sometimes like neck rolls and stuff like that

- breast fat: this doesn't apply to everyone but for most fat people who haven't had like top surgery or anything, they tend to like store fat in their chest area and stuff (afab and amab)

- bigger calves and thighs: of course bigger people have bigger thighs, but usually their calves are bigger as well

- stretch marks: idk about amab people (guessing it's similar), but from my experience most plus sized afab people have stretch marks from weight gain. idk about others but for me personally i have stretch marks around my underarms and around my upper thigh area

lol that's all i have. i think your drawing looks really good ^^

Any advice on drawing fat characters? I have a plus sized oc that i don't draw often and i don't wanna make them look like

This is what im working with. I wanna know what i could improve on ^^

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if left unattended i will devour a whole bag of these /hj

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why did i let myself get embarrassed like that

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ahhhh omg he's so cute

obsessed w/him actually

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i really like to imagine us cuddling. just being so close together, sinking into each other's warmth. laying soft kisses on their forehead, telling them how much i love them. holding their hand as i gently caress it with my thumb. getting to see their beautiful smile. i imagine them wearing my slipknot hoodie. though most likely a little oversized, it would fit better on them due to their small frame. we would watch our favorite cartoons and just enjoy each other's company <3

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silly self portrait doodles from class

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things i live for (to remind myself)

- seeing my little siblings grow up

- rainy days

- my big brother

- my partner/lover

- sunrises/sunsets

- warm showers

- stuffed animals

- chocolate

- books

- slow r&b love songs

- giving gifts to others

- cat videos

- warmth from the sun on my face

- poetry

- my comfort video games

- wanting to experience graduation

- wanting to experience college

- wanting to create a life with my partner

- smooth pens

- cool crew socks

- fantastic mr fox

- cool autumn nights

- the moon and stars

- long road trips

- tears of joy

- comfy hoodies

- zines

- queer/trans joy

- giving/receiving compliments

- friends

- top surgeryyyyy

(add more whenever you want)

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i have to be the best. i have to be better than everyone. i have to get 100% on every assignment in every class. i have to get 100% on both of my eocs. by the end of the semester i have to be able to automatically answer any question about the content of my courses. i have to take as many classes as possible, whenever possible. i'll even take summer classes. three if they let me. i have to have at least 30 high school credits by the time i graduate. i have to always be caught up on assignments, and always ready for any pop quiz thrown my way. academic validation is the only thing that makes me feel good about myself and if i can't get it at the highest level possible i can't love myself and nobody can love me

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i feel like my most creative side comes out when i make zines for people or just drawings in general and it's nice ig but it's also like i wanna do so much for people and like i only really have two people who i really love like a lot and i just wanna do so much for them cause i feel like gift giving is one of my love languages and stuff

but i get scared that they won't like it or that they'll think i'm trying too hard and it would really suck to work a month or two on a gift just to get a lackluster response but at the same time i don't see gift giving as a balance thing

like if i give someone a gift i don't expect something in return or even a thank you or anything but i would like to see them smile or something

idk lol

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school doodles from last week

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cw blood and guts ig

this kinda sucks tbh lol

vent art isn't supposed to be good though i guess

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about me

my name is marshall (he/it/they/she) and i am a minor, poc, genderfluid, and queer

my current obsession interest is winx club and mlp ^^

some other things that interest me include true crime/cold cases, horror, video games, space exploration (apollo, gemini, etc.), psychology, art, writing (especially poetry), and anything stem related

i have been diagnosed with major depressive disorder (depression). i have trouble expressing my emotions clearly, so if i seem mad or upset i am most likely not. i would also appreciate the use of tone tags very much

i don't really have a dni, you can stay as long as you're not an asshole i guess