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I'm in so much pain and I need to be unconscious immediately or I'll kms

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sometimes i wish id die in a freak accident because im too cowardly to do it myself

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The whole, "K*lling urself is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" bullshit is spouted by the ignorant lucky ones who have only had temporary problems. Some people's problems are permanent so maybe try offering actual help and support to them rather than regurgitating an overused phrase that means nothing to people with real struggles.

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*displays textbook symptomatic behavior of my own disorder that I am well educated on* what’s my deal why am I like this

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btw guys managing your symptoms also means apologizing for things you didn't mean to do. sometimes you do things because of your disorders that you genuinely didn't mean to do, but if it hurt someone you still have to take accountability and make up for the hurt you caused

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every year i reach new lows and wish i killed myself earlier

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the “i wanna go home” never leaves my head even when i’m physically sitting in my bed

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‘I want to disappear right now’ I think to myself every time something even slightly upsetting happens

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If the vibes r off I will assume you hate me and want me dead

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The devil couldn't reach me so he gave me severe abondamment and attachment issues

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"It is what it is" i say as i vomit from anxiety

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i feel so left out. like everyone around me knows how to be a human and i don’t.

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Every time I let someone know me I regret it

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big fan of anything that shuts my brain off for days

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God I want to relapse so much. im such a fuck up. I hate myself why is my bpd so bad today. why cant I just be stable i don't want fo live like this anymore