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Dusk in my garden

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Today is the first day I've ever lusted after some cardboard.

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Are YOU a good person?

Nearly everyone thinks they are a fundamentally good person, and that their actions are in line with this self image. And anything they do outside of that is an out of character mistake, or deserves sympathy because of circumstances, or just doesn't actually matter.

And I do believe that everyone is a product of their circumstances, and even the worst people deserve sympathy and understanding (although not necessarily foregiveness or acceptance!).

I also don't believe in evil, or evil people.

So I don't judge whether people are 'good' by looking at whether they go around doing nice things. Most people generally do, and the ones that don't have probably had some fucked up stuff in their life.

I look for when people put themselves out to do good things. You helped your friend with some practical task when they were having a difficult week? That's nice, that's what friends should do for each other. But the person who does it when they were fully loaded themselves, but saw that they were struggling worse? Who cancelled their plans to do something fun, to help out their friend? That's the actions of a truly good person.

Or maybe they went with the friend to some event, to support them, despite having social anxiety and finding that a difficult thing to do.

There's a million ways these things get shown, big and little.

It's also seen in how people respond to things like Susan Boyle, where it was a social norm to either make fun of her, or just not think of her as a human being. Where no one's going to criticise if you go along with what everyone else is saying, and many would think you're being difficult if you express an opposing view, or just don't join in with those conversations. Where Susan's not even physically in front of you, and won't know what you do or don't say.

Every single person does some 'bad' things, usually without being truly aware of what they're doing, and no one is capable of - or should be - always putting others first. Every single person does some 'good' things, and there's a host of selfish reasons people do this, that go along with the positive reasons that they're aware of. So the above is what I think defines someone as genuinely a good person. (note - I use this to think about other people, especially people that I'm deciding I trust. I don't really use it to think about myself, because there's so much of our own behaviour that is hidden from us. If people we think are good people, think the same about us, that's a pretty good reflection on oneself, though.)

like every other week i remember susan boyle and how all the headlines about her were like this fat ugly piece of shit can SING!?! wat the hell was fhat about

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We used to have circuses with freak shows where they'd have severely disabled people just for the purposes of being laughed at.

But that was in the distant past and humans and society are all much better than that now and no one has a strong need to question their own morals and ethics, and certainly don't deserve to have others express disgust and anger at any of their behaviours.

Also, things can't be bad if everyone's joining in, and the certainly can't be bad if the person who it happened to got lots of money.

like every other week i remember susan boyle and how all the headlines about her were like this fat ugly piece of shit can SING!?! wat the hell was fhat about

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Self care matters

Keep your living spaces tidy and organised, people. It will help you feel calm and peaceful. More importantly, you won't spend half an hour looking for your drugs when you want them.

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lonely gate

I am overwrought, overdesigned, big black metal gate blew the budget and there's nothing significant behind. No one's making the effort to force my two halves apart and walk through to nowhere. Overblown ideas, old attempts at grandeur, no master crafter took pride in my creation, now no one remembers why I was created at all. I'm tied to that forgotten dream, feet piled far into the ground, set to watch grass grow through me, lost purpose, counting flakes of paint falling from my skin, feeling rust settle deeper within.

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I found this on facebook marketplace (in the UK) and I am so sad that I don't have any money to buy it with, or the type of office job that would build me up to believing this was a worthwhile investment for my productivity. Maybe one day. Everyone should have a dream.

Metronaps, Energy Pod. Office nap pod. VERY RARE. Cost over £11,000+VAT new. METRONAPS ENERGYPOD: the world’s premiere pod for short rest in the workplace. The EnergyPod combines luxurious comfort, innovative technology and timeless design. The zero gravity position, specially composed sleep music, gentle wake sequence of programmed lights and vibrations. The EnergyPod is powered by firmware developed around a simple principle: a 20 minute nap is beneficial for well-being and productivity. The countour of the EnergyPod takes pressure off the cardiac system with the elevation of the feet and relaxes the muscles of the lower back with a slight bend in the knees. The EnergyPod’s sphere provides semi-privacy without overly enclosing. Rotate the privacy visor for additional seclusion. Timed Waking - Gentle but effective waking as a programmed combination of lights, music and vibration is executed. Built-In Speaker - Specially composed rhythms play to facilitate relaxation and eliminate surrounding distractions. Listen through the built-in speaker or use optional headphones.

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I'm no scientist, but aren't horses knees backwards so they can run faster... or so they can cripple themselves more easily... or something? ergo, those beautiful legs are the wrong way round. Must be photoshopped.

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Why the FUCK do people KNOCK AT MY DOOR??

I didn't order any parcels. I don't know you. Stranger danger! I am not going to respond to your unwelcome intrusion.

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Tell me, are you a badfish, too?

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<3 (I'm a beginner, if anyone wants to give me tips on my photography or editing I'd be grateful) (I don't do much editing)

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The Wheel of Time is a hard sci fi magic system (which would have been fully explained if Robert Jordan had lived forever as he was supposed to) Discworld is sci fi (I count Strata as a discworld novel) it's not a head canon it's a real canon

I love that psychic powers are still "allowed" in science fiction. They're an acceptable part of the aesthetic. Like you can't have magic, but you can have brain magic, because it's more Science.

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I'm eating sorrow for breakfast

stomach aching from

the bitter hole it fills me with.

Always forgetting when I'm full

I stuff too much

it's far too much.

I'll slop the second course inside despite my horror

and spend the day

sleeping off my mistakes.

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Oh my golly gosh why does everyone have their facebook open to the world?

Going through 'people you may know' Mostly no, found a few I want to connect with and some long forgotten frenemies all fully open profiles Gonna stalk the old frenemies when I'm bored this week

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When sorrow soars from my mouth

And all my heart is withered in pain

I'll pull loneliness round me like a blanket

Tip my eyes downward and forget there's a sky

Some days one foot doesn't want to step forward of the other

One heartbeat hesitates to hammer inside my breast

And my thoughts curl and brown

And finally blacken to fall

In the soft ash of forgetfulness.

I shake myself

And dissipate into the wind.