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How come everytime I say I'm gonna have a social media presence, shit hits the fan???

Like fuck!!!

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Hey y'all!

As I get ready to start this morning I had another helpful thought. If you're struggling with life in general. Escaping hardship for a little bit can help. I find the best ways to do this is through art/media. One of my favorite ways is music. Try and find something uplifting but not ignorantly blind to reality. You want to acknowledge that your situation is hard but still give yourself some hope.

Find a song you can relate too, or that makes you happy, or just has that really catchy chorus. Listen to that for a few mornings to start your day. Or even make a Playlist with different songs. Something to color your day in the right way!

For me right now it's this song!

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Also I just want to add. If you're ever struggling in life. Try to find a little piece of fantasy to give you a pep talk. For me this is The Owl House. Like y'all. This show helped me out of a pretty deep depression. Especially if you are somebody who struggles with mental illness or trauma. I highly recommend it 10000/10.

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So wow... it's been a while and I never ended up using this like I thought I would. Well everyday is a new day. So let's start!!

First the internship. Well I think the easiest way I can summize it... This has been the most amazing, yet painfully difficult thing in my life. I've been faced with a lot of inner "curses." Some placed, some born, some maintained. I guess to say I've gone through hell and that hand-basket hasn't been comfy. But I'm learning to cope.

The biggest reality I've had to face is living on my own for the first time ever. No support network, no friends, hardly any family, and life (as always) throws its curve-balls with or without those things.

So I've had to relearn how to live and cope all over again. Which was, well, awful. But I think this experience will be something I will remember forever.

I haven't been completely alone. I've made new friends, met unknown family, and everyday I'm learning to believe in myself.

I think for the longest time I always assumed my conditions and my trauma would always hold me back. Nor did I ever imagine I could still achieve things so far away from a support network. But here I am. It was really hard though.

I broke my phone, lost my home, crashed my car, and got really really sick. On top of this all I let some bad behaviors manifest in really nasty ways. I let my conditions spiral out of control and I let my trauma regain control over me.

I'm still healing and growing from all of this. I'm nowhere near having control over all of these things. But I'm fighting every day. I'm learning to do the personal maintenance required to keep me happy and running.

Honestly these last few months scare me, and I'm afraid of worse to come. But there's one other thing I learned. I won't stop trying. I won't stop trying to be the best me I can be. I know I can achieve great things if I put my mind to it.

I think I'm gonna use Tumblr for a while as a diary. My personal little space in the world to share my struggles and the lessons I've learned. Maybe someday someone will find encouragement from my words too. 💖💖

Take care y'all.

Love,

Moon Girl.

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Y'all I leave for Virginia in like a week! Holy shit!

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Hey I created a new Tumblr because I want to have an internet presence again.