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[uni-nika]

“Do not fall in love with people like me. I will take you to museums, and parks, and monuments, and kiss you in every beautiful place, so that you can never go back to them without tasting me like blood in your mouth. I will destroy you in the most beautiful way possible. And when I leave you will finally understand, why storms are named after people.”

-Caitlyn Siehl

[uni-nika]

I will love you as by lemony snicket. I'm so emotionally attached to this

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Cr- vilesaaa via Instagram

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[uni-nika]

Them : what does that mouth do?

Me : keep shut as I'm an introvert.

[uni-nika]

These days,

A lot has been going on in my head.

I cry myself to sleep

My nightmare stories are only known to my pillow and bed.

All those Past memories and thoughts keep flashing back

I keep questioning,  the time , distance and even myself

Did it all happen because of something that I lack ?

I wanna say a lot to you and scream up everything that's keeping me up all these dark nights

I type the text and delete again and again

Wondering if I can still cry to you , if I still have those rights.

Wish I could tell you how I can't stop myself from falling for you everytime we text

I can't help myself loving you , and idk what's next .

I said I won't get too close , or I'll again end up with a broken heart

But here we are, me trying to hold my heart so it doesn't shatter , trying my best so that our ways don't part.

Wish I could send you that long text I wrote

Telling you how I can't let you go

How I lie to you , my friends and even me

That I'm moving on, when I'm clearly not.

Yes I don't want to let go of all those nights where we stayed up till 3 am and talked about our dreams and hope

Yes I don't want to let go when you told me we'd run in strawberry fields and go to our fav flower shop

Yes I don't want to let go of the time when you called me mine

Guess in a corner of my heart I still want to be called yours , and you as mine.

Yes I wanna say it all to you,

Empty all of my thoughts and emotions to you

But I'm scared

Scared of being a stress for you

Scared of lighting up a new argument

Scared , what if you distance yourself? And leave me with my slow yet painful death?

So I drink up the wine called tears and pain,

to lessen the pain of the painful drug that's you.

All my efforts to let go of you,  go in vain

I just want you , no I don't want someone new.

Tell me if this act of mine , will lead to my doom?

Or will someday, in this frozen field deprived of the sunshine of your love ,

Will roses bloom?

Again?

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I love the darkest parts of you, how can I leave you now?

"When you make someone fall in love with the darkest parts of you, there’s nothing you can do that will scare them away. They will be yours forever because they already love all the fucked up bits and pieces of you."

"I have never pretended to be a good person. But what I did do was create my own fucking morals to live by. I will keep killing every deranged individual who resides on this goddamn planet if it means children don’t have to die, and you don't have to live in danger."

"What you’re seeing now is what I see every day. No matter how far I run, how hard I try to escape you—you’re everywhere I go. You’re everything I see. Loving you is like being trapped in a house of mirrors, little mouse. And I’ve never felt so at home while being so lost inside you."

"Love is an enigma, and it's redefined "

"No matter how far I run, how hard I try to escape you --you're everywhere I go. You're everything I see. Loving you is like being trapped in a house of mirrors, little mouse. And I've never felt so at home while being so lost inside you."

"I love storms—I just don’t like to be in them. I’d prefer to cuddle up under the blankets with a mug of tea and a book while listening to the rain fall."

H.D. Carlton, Haunting Adeline (Cat and Mouse Duet, #1)