unicornmixedwithmagic

[unicornmixedwithmagic]

He promised her an year to make everything alright. But she didn’t know if she was going to be alive in an year.

He flew on 5th September and she couldn’t stop crying, no matter how much she fought, she didn’t feel how she felt when she was with him.

She loved him. She just wanted him to love her better.

No one would ever make her heart glow like him.

She missed him

But she had no option.

She cried like it was end of the world

#faraway #exboyfriend #imissyou

[unicornmixedwithmagic]

Am I only a lust to you?

He’s never understand what he made me feel. He’ll never know how many times he has made me feel home, and then turned it into a hell with his touch or words of lust.

It wasn’t clear to him if he loved me, or my body more. But it was very clear to me, the way his eyes explored her waiting for her naked skin to revealed from somewhere. Waiting to grab those parts of her body, which he claimed his.

It wasn’t love I felt anymore when he touched , it was privacy invasion.

-S

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[unicornmixedwithmagic]

22nd April 2019

Yes I told him, I wanted to grow old, and all the problems we were about to solve, which was all true but who was I kidding at all.

He loves me , so do I .

But Mia loves me like no one loves me at all.

-S

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7th March 2019

We spent five days together, and somehow it felt familiar and comfort. I don’t know if it’s a safe place, cause many times when I thought it was the safe place , you hurt me.

I’m going to forget all that in past, and keep loving you. I love you of that I’m sure , but will we make it to the future is still uncertain.

But for now I love you .

My bed without you feels empty, just like how I feel.

[unicornmixedwithmagic]

Just a thought

Maybe it was a majority of people who didn’t know how to love who made it mandatory for someone to love they need to trust you .

In all this chaos , they forgot the main point of love is that love is unconditional.

No one really understands what unconditional means, and some people say it doesn’t exist even.

Is it really that hard to find a person who will love you unconditionally?

[unicornmixedwithmagic]

Begging to differ, only to postpone.

You can’t talk to her,

But you Fuck her ass the first time

and doze off after playtime,

Giving her no love but waste her time,

She Spoke to him, even left him alone ,

Walked away home from his throne,

He said sorry, And cried on the phone

Begged to differ, only to postpone.

Next day

He fucked her at his home

And filled love in her honeycomb

Little did she know he waited for her to doze

so he could leave with his friends to roam,

Her naked body left on the bed in his dorm.

She wanted to believe the sweet lies

But the truth kept haunting her eyes

She remembered those tales he told

His friends about her career advice

She ain’t no model, she ain’t no model.

But that didn’t stop you from fucking her thrice.

She was mad to even think this was love

When he was just filled with lust covered with glove

Little did he know she noticed, him stare at that other dove

And that’s when she decided to resign ,

the position of a ladydove.

Not knowing how to stop feeling so low

She fought with him, for a hoe

She wanted him to grow

Into a funny fellow

She met when she believed in the rainbow.

Messing with her when she’s passed out.

Her love captured in a snapshot

Only expressed in a cumshot ,

Feeling like a big shot caught in jackpot.

Her eyes filled with tears ,

As she asked for the joyride,

To honour being his bride,

He said sorry to hid his pride,

And begged to differ, only to postpone the lied.

Dedicated To my present pain in life 2019, February 7th.

-S

[unicornmixedwithmagic]

30-08-2018

I have tried really hard to be patient with you even though I have zero patience, now it just feels like I’m slowly legging go, thinking I’m just giving you time , but who am I kidding , I’ll be long gone by the time you return.

-S

[unicornmixedwithmagic]

no sex

im so done, like literal done. i already feel like he wants nothing but to be physical.

i dont know why he cant understand the fact that i dont want to be physical with him.

sometimes i see the way he looks at me it scares me. i see lust.

its not like im not horny i am, but the way he handles me i jusst get turned off , feel suffocated af.

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27th September 2018

Starts with normal my age people going for travelling

And then suddenly turns into those people and their families.Travelling somewhere. It was some function I'm not sure what, farewell types because everyone was dressed up And for some reason all the floors stairs and all are lose, Like if you step too fast. They fall down and there is nothing below

Like the whole farewell was happening in mid air or something. So when I was running few stairs fell. And it's same with the bus

It was more like a flying bus

Too windy and everything

A girl and me have a fight over something I don't know remember why , but she was pretty pissed at something I did so she threw things at me And while throwing she slips and falls down in the bus. And then I'm sitting on the top seat and suddenly my seat starts shaking So I call dad he tries to help but he can't somehow and then he disappeared And then we stopped somewhere school like thing. Where we are supposed to change our seats

I see my parents there and I'm also there in the queue and then suddenly I plan not to sit in the bus because something doesn't feel right But when I try to escape from the queue Strange things happen

Like these school boys I ask them where the washroom is and then one of the guys just held his hand up to just touch my hand

And I felt invaded so I pull my hand back

And then I see my grandmother

She calls me near her, And some old grannies comes between us like near my grandmother to create distance or something , this grannie was looking possessed with like grey eyes and mouth also grey And then my grandmother tosses her away and I finally reach her. And then we enter a laundry type area where I was finding for a washroom and the cleaning ladies see us and still pour lot of water on the floor.And then I tried to climb up but I couldn't and we decided to get back to the bus

When another fat old lady comes swimming in the water, With same grey things

I call for my grandmother, But the water was everywhere and she was taking time to reach me, and the old wicked grins and tells me

When you lick a pussy you cum not hum and gives me an evil laugh

And my grandmother is nowhere to be seen

It's full water just old wicked and me and I wake up

I woke up and said my prayers crying

I know he's been protecting me

I love you Jesus.

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26th July.

I have already started binge eating so much . I'm going to die soon. Hate everything rn.

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11:00 AM, 17-07-2018

i have decided , i’m not going to involve him with my family till i move out from this horrible place they call home.

and so i had to blame him for things he didn’t do, he seemed like he was hurt to a point he would never look back at me. so it was a good thing i’m keeping him away from the fucking drama.

i mean how fucking heartless can my parents get, my kitten just died yesterday. and they think i did drugs, and even bought a packet of drugs.

i hate them for always misjudging me.

but enough is enough. i’m so done with it.

I have two more years , i need to be calm and finish it, until then i need to keep him out of reach.

i’m sorry boo. i really need to end this tie with my family.

as soon as this is over, i’m shifting out.

-s

[unicornmixedwithmagic]

It was a mistake

It was a mistake thinking for once my parents understood that I needed to grieve.

They thought I went to buy drugs to college.

It's just no use trying to give them any chance, every time I try to see them from a different light, they just fall in the same black light.

I just pushed my boyfriend away.

I'm pushing these so called parents too.

I mm pushing everyone away.

And grow for myself .

I need to prove myself to me. Not my fucking family.

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I miss you P , RIP P

I couldn't forget the time she tried to jump inside the toilet pot, just the morning before she passed away.

I carried her wrapped in the towel, to the vet, watched her getting cold, her paws , her ears and her nose.

She just kept passing out

I was next to her all the while and then she gasped for air again and again. And last gasp and then she kicked her right leg and laid there.

She was gone.

She was just gone, pepper, my kitten.

I bought her home on may 15

And July 15, she was gone.

I can only imagine. I can't accept the reality yet.

It's just so not possible .

I went with dad to bury her in a peaceful place.

And I came back just find my room empty. With food I ordered for her. But she's no more.

Who was going to jump on my face when I sleep

Who is going to bite me ?

Who is going to scream ?

I remember her telling me something just before she stopped breathing.

She is gone.

Who is going to tear my earphones

Who will eagerly wait for me to pour food in her bowl.

Two months with her.

And now she's gone.

I miss you so much pepper.

I loved you so much

I will always love you baby.

My baby. My poor baby.

-S

[unicornmixedwithmagic]

1 July 2018

Maybe this is the end of all. My plants have dried out like crazy. Like I'm cursed or something.

I just recovered from asthama attack. Which can be because of smoking or my cats. Anyhow I'm here. And I didn't give up.

I went for my 1st event, which on the second day I backed out.

2nd event I worked for 3days, and at the end I fucked it up.

I come home, and she keeps telling me eat properly and all. And then she doesn't feed me anything. She is mom.

Now I'm back from event. Like literally just got home today. And it's already a fucking mess.

I literallly ended up crying in some random mall. Yeah there were people staring but I couldn't care less about it.

My left chest hurt. Not continuously, but like someone is poking a needle kinda hurt.

I'm growing fat.

And what not ?

And my boyfriend is apparently getting kicked off from his own house by his evil relatives. Like wtf .

Nothing is right.

I don't know what and how we will survive this .

And then there is this gut feeling I have which makes me more insane. Cause I have never been wrong about it.

He told me he was going movie with his brother but I feel he went with his friends . Not like it's a thing I would be pissed about. But I'm not sure. But gut feeling is.

I already asked him I have a feeling you are lying to me about something. Not big but just small , and he said I'm honest and loyal to you.

And I don't want to accuse him of something even I'm not really sure about so I let it pass.

And just remember it's July, my fucking up month started. 😕

-S

[unicornmixedwithmagic]

Weird dreams at boyfriends

I saw weird things

I had dreamt about my family and him.

I just remember bit and papers of it though.

"We were at my old house , I'm with him, I went late. My parents didn't do anything. They went for bath and I was supposedly super horny. And want to watch porn and get naked. And I was naked in a while, and the door was slightly open and somehow my dad saw me, and that didn't really bother me."

"I was with my boyfriend, and I was beating up some kids who were bothering my sister, and then I was like hitting them, they were sneaky and called my parents out and that time I and him were with my sister outside the smoking area, when my parents came."

"I danced with a group of people and apparently our dance was nice"

Idk.

Weird it was.

I'm going crazy and my boyfriend was waking me up, but it felt like someone touching me wrongly. And I threw his hand whenever they came near me. He used to leave me for sometime and then he is back again.

-S

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Did he really care ?

I get it, people don't know how to show love. But this was more than that. How can a person keep hurting the other person and not even realise it . Are they really that blind or choose to not see it ?

Morning I was finding it really hard to breathe and I called him , and asked him can we go to the hospital like right now. And he replied yeah, I just have a work, I'll finish that and come. And then he called me after an hour or so. Asking where was I ? I'm like really surprised he called that early. Sigh I meant that sarcastically .

And then I went with a friend with whom he's been having strange problem. And he was asking me weird questions

I want your exact location, if you are inside or outside

I want your friend to leave when I come there

I don't know , why he is putting me in this awkward position.

And then that wasn't it. I was getting treated for what ever breathing issues I was having and he took of to the cafe near by to munch something .

I mean do I really have to be like I need you man I need you here with me ?

In the morning I was really done with his ass and now I don't know . It's like everything he is doing is hurting me . So bad .

He doesn't even know about my yesterdays black out.

He doesn't want to get into my world instead wants me to be in his world. In which honestly I feel like a alien.

Anyway.

-S