unnamedkitty

[unnamedkitty]

what is your favourite season?

when nature awakes, and flowers're in bloom

beautiful songs are sung by the birds

gorgeous spring, the light of the moon

is giving its charms, during evening walks

or time of the year when everything's green

and nice smelling flowers grow everywhere

everyday holds the beauty you've never seen

summer feels like earnest mother's care

or maybe it's fall, with yellow and red

hot chocolate, duvet, and rain is falling

when the sun shines and you still in the bed

so much worm feeling are forming

or beautiful winter, when everything's bright

you gaze at the red cheeks of your lover

it's dark, in the light you see snowflakes flies

new year with family along with your friends

I love all and every one of them.

Life is beautiful and you are

[unnamedkitty]

"never met a wise man, if so it's a woman"

- Kurt Cobain, territorial pissings

[unnamedkitty]

I think that day has come

day when I can't sleep at night

when I shiver and I cry

and have nobody on my side

and when we see each other

that one final last time

please don't think of me

cause I'm a liar and a thief

all I've got are my last cigs

anxiety is eating me

never think of me in good light

'cause all my life is one big lie

'cause I'm harmless when alone

with no one by my side

- your dear nobody

[unnamedkitty]

come and take me

take all things that I posses and not

don't be shy feel free

you don't have a single thought

spread my legs and try to choke me

you'll impress your friends

don't forget to have a smoke

after all that mess

later people say I'm guilty

all my clothes were open

and you are really pitty

you can go like nothing's happen

you can do this things again

"oh it's all nature it's not bad"

but my father tells I'm whore

they'll blame me, but what's for

you can do this things aggain

and be fine, 'cause you are man

- your dear nobody

[unnamedkitty]

I'm gonna kms so badly

- your dear nobody

[unnamedkitty]

What a nice day

Every day is the day full of exciting events

It's the song of the birds, the wind in your hair

Voices and laughter of friends

It's fine dining on your table made by your mom or your dad, or a mate

It's all the nice compliments that you, have ever get

The eyes of people you loved their voices and their support

The art that you've made the songs you will never forget

The voice of your mom, her love and her care, her kiss is so soft...

Worm bubble bath, a bunch of sad songs, you have been thinking about your past

And now you're laying in there, your veins cut, for long you won't last

Blood slowly mixing with water, in only 10 minutes you will be dead

On the next day nobody noticed, they're all thinking you are just sad,

You need some time to overthink, to think about your life

It's just a phase, they've said altogether, you'll get over, and then you will strive...

A few days after you died, they've found you, found you razor, found your note... to your younger self?

They took it, gave to your mom and she read it, all to herself:

"Dear me, I'm so sorry,

I wish you never had to experience this.

I wish you've found a little more strength to get over.

Oh child, I'm so fucking sorry, please.

I wish you've never imagined you dead.

I wish you'd found at least one, really good friend.

I'm sorry again, sorry for letting this happen to you,

Sorry for not being here when you needed, sorry for losing you.

Wish You understand how much You love mum, how much You love me,

The world is beautiful, yet you can't see.

I wanted to say sorry to mum, for letting her see what I became,

For letting her read every word that I wrote, the sentences I've never meant to say.

And now there you go, my soul left my body,

The only thing that I've left is the signature

- your dear nobody"

She bursts up in tears, she shakes and she reads

Again and again and again and again

The paper is wet from her tears

She blames it on herself, she thinks it's all was her fault,

But I think it's mine

Yet I didn't manage to survive

To say, how bad she was wrong...

Your little sibling today went to school, they still can't believe you're dead

They still do not talk, do not eat, and cry in their bad

Still to this day your favourite pet waits for you to return

But at least not today, they'll proceed staring at the door

And now you understand how massively you have been wrong

How many people care, you've ruined your life and it's all your fault

You lay 6 feet deep and against your believe

Somebody cared, somebody grieved...

- your dear nobody

[unnamedkitty]

I'm sorry for being too pussy, I promise I'll be better

- your dear nobody

[unnamedkitty]

I wish you knew how to hate me so i don't have to chase you

[unnamedkitty]

moth

can't wait to get stabbed in the back

can't wait to stop hurting myself

physically or emotionally

it all hurts the same

like a moth that tries to get close to a candle

and then burns to death

- your dear nobody

[unnamedkitty]

your eyes

when I see sunshine

reflecting from your eyes

I lose ability to speak

I sure hope that you will be fine

that you're not sick and feeling nice

you're my world, and I am in it just a freak

when I hear just a single word

and see the movement of your lips

oh I would sing you my own song

if it weren't for my shaky fingertips

- your dear nobody

[unnamedkitty]

it's all you

so now it's time to say

to say what's in my head

but all these thoughts are the only way

to cope with what I have

these voices in my head, they'll kill me

for better or for worse

but please I just want you to leave me

yes it would hurt, so please do it with force

you are the only thing that makes me wanna live

you are the one who makes me feel alive

yet you're the one who makes me grieve

to feel that I cannot survive

oh my dear, you're the light, you're the sun

with you I've learned to love my life

to love the rain, to love the sky

yes, you made me wanna strive

yet now I want to end up dead

to not wake up, to kill myself

to be alone, to be forgotten

yet to be loved and to be wanted

- your dear nobody

[unnamedkitty]

learned to talk

the only problems that I have, are all inside my head

the fact that I can't talk, the fact that I am sad

when I'm alone I overthink, for hours straight

and after those years I finally understand

when I was young I learned to walk

I learned to say the words

but didn't learned to talk

- your dear nobody

[unnamedkitty]

thoughts

I can remember this pleasant night

it felt to me like it all was alright

but now, that I replay it back in my mind

I think it was awful and stupid

the lines that I said with the mouth of mine

even though I thought it was fine

looking at you I saw your spectacular smile

yet here I am unable to rhyme

hate this feeling that I always had

when in the morning I wanna be dead

or when this voice inside of my head

tries to convince me that they are my friend

but no I hate them, they make me feel bad

especially when I lay in my bed

hundreds of words that they have said

they all make me feel so fucking upset

- your dear nobody

[unnamedkitty]

Personal sunrise

So I've got us tickets for stars staring competition

We're gonna win it together, you and me

We'll win money, and pay for your tuition

Please don't forget, my time for you is free

You're my will to live, Your laugh's my only strive

I'll buy your favorite ice cream and tell you as a surprise

That you're my world, I'll love you all my life

And then we gonna meet our personal sunrise

- your dear nobody

[unnamedkitty]

Truth that they deceive

It feels like truth that they decieve

They try to tell me that they love me

I want to, but I can't believe

They talk with everyone besides me

Oh it's hard for me to leave

So yeah I'm jealous

Jealous of not having friends

Jealous of not talking

Feels like I just need some meds

I am dead man walking

They're having fun without me

They spend their time together

Yet I'm not invited to the party

All I hear is words in air

That phrases: "oh you're great",

"oh you look good, and you're good friend"

But please don't lie and tell me straight

That's all just a means to an end

- your dear nobody

[unnamedkitty]

Thoughts of mine

I've never thought that I'm capable to love

I've never thought that I can be myself

I've never thought that I can make somebody laugh

All I'm capable of doing is waiting for somebody's help

At least that's what I thought

And now I understand that I was right

I'll never touch your skin, so beautiful and soft

I've lost that first and only fight

And with it I've lost the war

I thought that I got rid of thoughts about you

But when I see a face that's similar to yours

I loose my mind, and at that moment all I want is to...

Is to see the sky line at the sunrise and feel remorse

- your dear nobody

[unnamedkitty]

I love the fact that my birthday is in summer

Throughout all my school and uni years, almost nobody has ever wished me "happy birthday"

And I always knew how little to no friends I have

- your dear nobody