unprofessionaldoodler

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thank you, aqours.

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thoughts and feelings bonus

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hello. state of the union... or blog... or blogmaker??? i guess

i usually don't make posts on here that isn't art (or polls about art apparently), but i've been having this... feeling? i guess? that maybe i should post more... personal things?

i don't care much about numbers, but i will admit, it makes me a little... sad? maybe? that my art (that isn't fanart) usually doesn't get any attention, especially since i've been on here for so long. i haven't even reached 100 followers and this account is over 10 years old. and don't get me wrong, i'm grateful for the people that did (and do) decide to follow me!! but idk, sometimes it just feels like i'm posting into the void. and sometimes, there's comfort in that. but i see the more popular blogs i follow on here get questions about their ocs and stuff and i get a little jealous, ngl.

but it's kinda my fault though. i don't make any posts outside of my art, and that's mostly because i don't think i'm particularly interesting. and i'm also pretty introverted and shy in real life. i just don't really like talking about myself in general. but you guys don't really know me, and the only time i let my personality show is through my tag novels. (plus, my art isn't good enough for me to be mysterious.) who knows, maybe i am interesting.

along with making more personal posts, i was also thinking about making little introductory posts for rem, too. i did this a looooong time ago, but my ocs have changed a little bit since then behind the scenes. in fact, i've been working behind the scene for years trying to give rem a complete story - character concepts, episode concepts, character arcs, an overall plot, things like that. maybe i should post more of those too.

another thing i've thought about doing is using my youtube channel more often. i've thought about talking about rem on there, maybe doing some art challenges, or maybe a sketchbook tour. i mean, i have some tiktoks i could post on there as shorts. that'd be better than posting one video a year.

i don't know. it's just that... i've had the concept for rem for such a long time, and i feel like i need to do something with it, but... i don't know. ideally it'd be a tv show, but i have no audience. maybe i should go back to the comic i did forever ago???

(and also, another small side thing - maybe i should try talking to people on here [everywhere, really] more often. it wouldn't kill me to gain some mutuals and/or some internet friends, you know?)

anyways the reason why i'm making this post to begin with is because my 29th birthday was a couple of days ago, and now that i'm pushing 30, i feel like i've made virtually no progress with my art or my audience. i know i'm not necessarily "running out of time," but it feels like i am. i think the solution is to maybe put myself out there more. the thought terrifies me, but i'm not sure what else to do.

anyways, if you read all of this, thanks. let me know if you wanna be friends or something ig

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the other three

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red gem wink

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heard!

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ride a wave~

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oyasuminasaaaan

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if you have ocs it is so so so important that you have Barbie Time™ (drawing them over and over wearing all sorts of different outfits)

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Having your own OC as your Blorbo is great because you will never have to see a bad Fannon brainrot take or awful but inexplicably popular ship involving them, but also I Have To Do Everything Myself Around Here Augh

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motto zutto be with you

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coworkers off the clock

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chuuni episode concept ig

bonus - when i thought about making the chuuni a boy. who knows - maybe they can be chuunis ~together~

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my thing i haven’t made is so good 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥