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Hi!

hi again there my journal!! its been a while since my last words about everything.. its sept 2020, and we’ve been in wfh mode for 6 months! the whole world is desperate to seek the vaccine to cure this covid pandemic. i miss doing everything in a normal state. where i can breathe free without any mask. where i can go out without have to worry about social or physical distancing. where i can hug my friends. travel the world and meet my family and loved ones without having a fear getting the covid19 virus. 

seriously, this whole situation told me one thing. you may think and feel that you are healthy, but when the medical test results come out, it could turns out the other way.

so, today i am grateful. i am grateful that i am healthy, i have everything i need. i have a job, i can still have money to survive this situation. i am grateful that everyone that i know is on their best condition. 

don’t forget to wear a mask and keep healthy guys! this virus is real!

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Enjoying the moment. A new normal it is, I guess. We're more aware of the surroundings that's happening. . #newnormal #vibes #coffee #coffeeshop #kopinako — view on Instagram https://ift.tt/2Er2eXu

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Embrace all that is you. When you have no other photos on your gallery. You can only edit it with an aesthetic preset, and post on your instagram. Missing the wind, the coconut water, the smell of the sea, the vibes ocean bring, i miss everything. Tho you can travel now, but i bet we're still doubting the environment, thanks to COVID19. Oh well, we can't do much tho, keeping my mental in a good condition guess is enough. Right? #palmtrees #oceanbreeze #coconutwater #wind #staysane #mentalhealth #bali #balivibes — view on Instagram https://ift.tt/3al6RxU

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Hello mrs. corona, when will you go from earth? I miss my normal life back. Ku kangen sama pantai, gunung, jalan2 travelling, nongkrong2 cantek tanpa rasa khawatir, pergi naik transportasi umum tanpa social distancing, ku kangen olahraga dan bernafas lega tanpa masker. Udahan yuk coronces, cus deh ente dari muka bumi, lelah loh. Oke we've learned our lesson. We harm our earth for our selfishness, to the animal, to the environment, but that doesn't mean that we wanna destroy the earth. Udahan yak, you cepet2 minggat dari semesta yeh, amin! #dirumahaja #dirumahajamulu #berjamur #lumutan #kangentravelling #byecovid19 — view on Instagram https://ift.tt/3aaIkM0

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The face i made when stranger tryna seduce me to have a sit. Go find another bench to sit, would ya! Lemme enjoy my sunset, gracias #restingbitchface #needvacation #sunset #balibeach #savage #throwback — view on Instagram https://ift.tt/376RHe5

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Wherever you are, be all there! Life us about moments. Create them, don't wait for them. Enjoy every moment of your life, it won't happen twice. Will get back there soon, after the world heal from the pandemic. We might be shutdown now, maybe cause the world need time to break, to breath and restore its own goodness. Cepet pulih yah bumiku :) #life #momentsoflife #mothernature #enjoylife — view on Instagram https://ift.tt/3gDkpav

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A short story of my body's journey. Am i fit enough? I can say yes. Feed your body the greatest things in the world that you can give, and it will loves you back. Semoga bisa menjawab beberapa pertanyaan teman2 sekalian, hazegh.. #dirumahaja #ceritasehat #health #healthjourney #bodytransformation #mindbodysoul (at Jakarta, Indonesia) https://www.instagram.com/p/CARhM3dAbnp/?igshid=ngj0qz35jgjm

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My way to keep me sane!!!!

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Sometimes i wanna squeeze myself so hard and go back to a toddler. Where all i do is playing, screaming, laughing and eating without any stressful thoughts

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dealing with people that pretend to know everything while in the reality is they know nothing is more exhausting than running 40miles 

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I couldn't say a word to describe how i felt last 3 days. Those 3 days with you means a lot to me. You showed me that you're committed. You proved me that you are worthy to have me. You ditch everything and do everything you can in your power for me and me only. Once i joke about the ring, but you really are making it serious when it comes to buying, but i cannot take it this time 'cause i know, you have a lot already at the moment. Every day, in every night in my prayer, God help me to see that you are really are the one. God makes my faith go bigger and bigger on you. Help me, to become a better person. You've seen my worst, yet you never leave a sight of me, at all. I love you Yoga Suweca, so much ❤

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living a life with mental illness

well, what more can i say? yes i am having a mental illness condition that i have to find the cure soon.

i never thought that having a mental illness could really is kill your emotions. you become insecure, worried, overthinking, living with fears, guilts and so on. idk how, but i know someday soon this thing will shall passed out.

i know that my mate, trying his best effort to help me overcome this thing. every time my mental strikes in, he’s there. he may not say many words, but to just hearing his voice with his easy peasy jokes makes my heart feel the warmth. the same warmth that i get when he is besides me. 

i know that his proving me to everyone slowly, but this illness making me doing some cray things that he hated the most. i know that my ego strikes almost all the time, the insecurities that i have also making me crazy. but just so you know, i am trying my best to get it through. i am sick of having this mental illness strikes all over the places and ruins my emotions, feelings and even thinking. towards him and anyone else. i barely eat, every time i eat it goes straight away to the closet, as in puking. i’m exhausted by this mental illness. should i get a help?

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I don't have any words to describe how i feel, and there is no words that could explain it. I am just praying and believing very hard that we're gonna get there sooner or later. In Lord Shiva's name, astungkara amin.

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Never thought that he do exactly what i wanted. He showed me to his friends. His open up and telling his friends that i am the one he wanted. Slowly but sure, i can see know that he's proving that he is serious about it now. Astungkara ya Tuhan, aku meminta dan berserah padamu. Amin

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I surrender everything in you hand my Lord. What's meant to happen will happen anyway. Let the truth reveal itself. Bless all of us, if its the right thing to do give us a heart full of compassion. Help us to let it go, peacefully. Let my family be in peace. Bring back the joy, laughter and peace in my family soon. Let me be the one who can bring back those joy and peace. In your hands, will and time Lord

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Sometimes life give you many reasons to smile and sadness. Shiva my lord, I bow down only in your knee. Asking you for forgiveness, i am grateful for everything in my life, lead me to your light, make my faith bigger than my fear. You have never failed me and never will. You always grant my wishes at the right time. Lord, help me through everything life throws me. For my future husband, the one that i want and need to become the leader of my family, bless him. Enhance him, mature him, make him the way you make me who i am today. I know we're cousins, but i have faith that if you let us be, there's nothing in this world that can separate us without your will. Help him prove that he is worthy of me, to my parents and to all of my family. Bless us and help us along the process. I believe that i will be with him, just as you gave me faith that i will. I let it all to you to lead us the way, like you always do. Amin

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LDR

One thing that is so hard on Long-Distance-Relationship is communication. I know that he’s trying his best to keep communicate, while me i’m a talker. Its seem hard, but i believe with the tolerance and commitment we have for one another, its become more easier. We both doing our best to make this relationship works, with the blessings from everyone in our family, we pray that God grant our wish to become one. I bow down to you my Lord, please help us get through with it, this time with a right proper way, no drama, no betrayal, no lies, no whatsoever, no heart breaks.