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i know it's hard to believe right now, but there is more to life than sadness and trauma and mental illness. there is love and joy and hope and so much more. there's so many incredibly beautiful little things to find happiness in every day you're alive, even if things aren't good right now. there are always sunsets to admire and movies to watch and dogs to pet. i know that life is hard, but it's full of incredible things in the everyday, things that tell you that you will be okay, that there is love always.

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big fan of the new apartment so far

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Happy Pride Moth, you beeautiful individuals!

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I was toxic to some, I was a blessing to others. Others I healed, others I hurt. I'm willing to admit that I wasn't always right.

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benson

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I was in a DBT program for a little over a year, and when I would text my therapist about self-harm urges and suicidal ideation, she would tell me this: “Maybe we can let the thoughts just be thoughts. Maybe you don’t have to act on them, they can just exist in your mind.” And as much as I hated to hear that then, here I am two years later, reminding myself and others of the same thing. It’s okay to have thoughts. It’s okay if you have thoughts of restricting or purging or bingeing. It’s okay if you have thoughts of self-harm or suicidal ideation. It’s okay if you have nasty intrusive thoughts. Thoughts alone can do no harm. It’s when you act on the thoughts that it becomes an issue. But you don’t have to act. You have the power to choose. And you can choose to let the thoughts just be thoughts.

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