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This might just be the strongest manifestation of some form of autism I have where i simply don't understand why people don't think the way I do, but I feel like im surrounded by opinions that are "I simply don't like this" presented as "this is cosmically evil" and I can barely stand it.

I already feel like everyone hates me so I have to go back to holding in all of my discourse-able takes again I think

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I already feel like everyone hates me so I have to go back to holding in all of my discourse-able takes again I think

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I think if I was able to be in a position where I feel safe I could have a really cathartic/traumatic panic attack, but I dont so I cant.

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Last post is almost 1:1 how it was with Raven except I had a knife

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jenny makes a new friend

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To expand, "That Weird Place" is not really, like, a space most of the time. Its mostly images and feelings and is really abstracted, but its still like, a place. Its really really hard to explain to the point I question if its almost more of an alter in and of itself.

Labyrinth house is mostly a place that shows up in dreams a lot. Seemingly endlessly tall/deep. Lots of balconies, stairs, hallways, and unfinished walls. Kinda like a mix between the backrooms and sword base, but its usually still has like actual functional rooms and living spaces when it shows up. I've had dreams of traversing through it knowing exactly where im going and just ending up in a mostly normal bedroom, usually other people are living there too.

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"That Weird Place We Cant Explain"

"The Labyrinth House"

We used to think we couldn't really do headspace dinner worlds stuff hut my room is consistent and also the supermarket and also that one weird place we cant explain but also we remembered the labyrinth house that shows up a lot too

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Remember, hating things that are popular and people like does indeed objectively make you a better person, maybe even the best person, you can even be some kind of "uber" person if you hate enough things from the past and focus on pushing into the future.

We all know nostalgia stalls progress and is a sign of An Evil Manner Of Thinking, so let's forget all that and Accelerate and Purify Ourselves instead :)

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Sometimes you just gotta be naked.

Art trade piece for @eulavapor.bsky.social. :3

Uncensored Version

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the thing they dont tell you about DID is that it will offer you zero proof of its existence without you actively and specifically looking for it, so you will simply feel like a faker the entire time and idk if there's anything to do about it

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If it's not clear, we're posting here tonight because we're not exactly Eula right now and I dont want to invade her space too much on bsky.

In some ways I hate being more aware of these things recently, especially since I never wanted to front in the first place. It's still hard to believe changing is a thing that happens to us at all, but I'm sure we've been over that by now. Sorry about the sudden shift in mood, from what I understand that's kind of how all this works, so, yknow.

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spent some time looking at therapists again but every time i do i realize how much i hate the idea of a stranger asking me about shit i dont wanna have to think about

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dissociation day in a more traditional sense, don't know what to do with my night.