varsh101101

[varsh101101]

I'm 23 years old jobless i dont know what I love except music yet I haven't started taken any step towards it or started pursuing it full-fledged but does it stop anyone from achieving their goals and or am i holding anyone from doing anything am i stopping anyone from doing what they love I'm not annoying anyone with dumb questions or opinions why should everyone assume of come to a conclusion that if a girl is idle at her home or figuring out her life should only get married well she can travel she can take time to figure out or even simply sit idle I simply get blamed my everyone including my closed ones saying that it's my fault that I dint figure out so everyone will pressurize me to get married wow what an amazing logic even if I'm 25 or 30 none of them are going to provide for me or come and love their life for me so why do you they care and why do they make overthink even more and why do they trigger my anxiety I'll fix my mental health I'll fix my sleep cycle I'll fix my insecurities I'll fix my life I'll then figure out my career or higher studies or whatever it is how convenient it is to joke around or even seriously bring this topic that you should get married or you can get married you  can have a convienient life and you can do reels you can have fun even after marriage you can study after marriage or you can just chill even if i want to get married early it should be my call so don't let the world or your family or your friends make u feel guilty le sad about that you aren't doing anything productive or you are jobless or you are idle you ll shine at your own time own pace there s no race there s nothing that you can't face . I'm not saying that getting married is bad it's completely an individual s choice but every damn thing if i dress up for myself and for taking pictures I'm interested if i sincerely work for my house or if I'm religious I'm interested whatever I do or say if I'm angry it's a bad thing if I'm sensitive it's a bad thing then what should I do just mask my emotions and be pretentious i don't want to be that even if i mask my emotions in the end nothing is changed I'm only getting hurt i don't know who are my true friends who would be there for me no matter what who really cares for me understands me and how many will just comment or like this post on sympathy or for name same its just a rant and this post is only for me and about me life doesn't end in 30 i myself is a bigger critic I get tensed easily i overthink a lot I ll blame myself I have so many regrets and every one are just adding fuel to the fire and what I'm just a marriage material now i choose to ignore it defend it but I'm not gonna defend or ignore or give a damn about it and I'm not here to prove my talents and skills to everyone I know when I'll get my life on track people with unsolicited opinions can just shut up and not only the grownups even people around my age would love to joke about my life and just have the audacity to say it's just a joke well I can laugh only few times and what's with it would anyone ask a guy to get married I know they ll pressurize a guy to find work but I'm pressurized for both more than pressurizing it's all those jokes and sarcastic comments makes me furious my parents are supportive but they would also say things like the job should be convenient even after marriage next it's your wedding we ll come to your house after wedding you would serve us well right and my siblings and my cousins are on my nerves if you don't find a job or go to work immediately obviously they ll talk about your marriage it's all your fault u wasted 2 years of your life and I'm ready to the face the consequences and getting married just because a person has to find their goal is the stupidest and dumbest thing ever don't let anyone trigger you or irritate your or don't take all these things into head everyone are here for a purpose and everyone are going to do it if not do what you love