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please use the name in the description whenever you refer to me on tumblr/social networking in general, it’d make me feel A Lot safer

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please use the name in the description whenever you refer to me on tumblr/social networking in general, it'd make me feel A Lot safer

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please use the name in the description whenever you refer to me on tumblr/social networking in general, it'd make me feel A Lot safer

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please use the name in the description whenever you refer to me on tumblr/social networking in general, it'd make me feel A Lot safer

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please use the name in the description whenever you refer to me on tumblr/social networking in general, it'd make me feel A Lot safer

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I THINK I'M, ACTUALLY GOING TO MOVE BLOGS NOW, YEAH

i do this too often but i'm way too paranoid about people finding me, eff

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i've reached a point in my life where i'm excited to sleep

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i'm enjoying animal crossing again :^) 

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i think i'm going to do the alias thing, i'm way too worried about people i know irl finding me on here. i don't know whether i should remake or not though? i mean that'd be the second time but i don't really want any obvious connections to be there. hm

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in more exiting news a toy poodle climbed me like a tree today and licked my face, that was a nice moment, very impressed with that little dude's ability to conquer a slightly crouched giant so easily

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THERE WAS LOUD KNOCKING ON THE DOOR AND THEN THE CIVIL DEFENSE SIREN WENT OFF GOODBYE I'VE HAD MY HEART ATTACK FOR THE DAY

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so this friday i have an appointment at the gender clinic and i'm really nervous/excited because last time i went there i got a second opinion (one of the final steps before diagnosis) and i was told to make sure to schedule another appointment 3 weeks after that (so, this friday) instead of the usual "eh, a month or so"

i really hope they'll start the whole medical examination business soon. i'm really hoping to start T in 2013 but that might be too optimistic, i don't know

i am scared though, i mean, hair loss/aging fast/acne, i'm not looking forward to any of those things (to the point that i already researched hair transplants just in case, you know), but maybe it'd be stranger not to be scared

some things though, gosh. someone here on tumblr i especially admire body-wise (not even in a sexual way just, yeah, that seems like a reasonable goal, i'd be really comf looking like that) started T recently and they look so good. fat restribution especially. i mean that alone would make me so much more secure? and not to mention the body/facial hair and the lower voice, fuck, i'm so glad it's getting close now, very scared, but mostly glad

i'm getting way ahead of myself but, i think i will document the medical process, partly to help others and partly because i think it's fascinating as heck. i do have to be careful with that though, maybe, only give the url/youtube channel out to certain people

wow this is way too optimistic i'm sorry, i'm sure i'm going to be incredibly disappointed friday but, for now i'm just, wow. wow

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wanted: cute boy to make out with me while watching thriller tv shows (bonus points if you press pause first)

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THEY ENDED THE FIRST EPISODE WITH A HUGE ASS PLOT TWIST AND THEN THEY PLAYED "I GOT 99 PROBLEMS BUT A BITCH AIN'T ONE" OH MY GOD

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JESUS CHRIST THE BLACKLIST IS ONE HELL OF A SHOW

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date a boy who’s a wolf. not figuratively a wolf literally date a fucking wolf. wolves are strong and cute and have powerful jaws for crushing the bones of men who harass you on the street. wolves are better than men in every respect. have you ever seen a man kill an elk with his teeth, howl at the moon, run at speeds of 35 mph. wolves CANNOT call you slurs