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Omg

I just noticed that the employees at the coffee place wrote on our cup and our hands are now covered in black smudges from the marker 💀

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Listening to hyperpop while being cramped in the back of our dads car ✌🏻

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okay finally coining this cause I can’t find it anywhere

Visceraphilia

the paraphilic attraction to internal organs, such as the heart, lungs, intestines, etc.

viscera (vih-seh-ruh): the internal organs in the main cavities of the body, especially those in the abdomen.

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From ask game: 🌧 🥛

"🌨 or 7: Are you a system? If so, how did you find out you are one?"

Yes, we are, tho I'm the newest and our syscovery was years before I formed lol

From what I understand, Maggot was originally told it was just psychosis, and then our mom learned about DID and OSDD and brought it to Maggot, and he confirmed that those sounded like our experience, and I guess that's it? Like I said, I'm the newest, I haven't even been here for a year, so I don't know most of the details of our syscovery

"🥛 or 20: What's your favorite thing about being part of this community?"

It's been great for our moral OCD tbh, being around a bunch of accepting and understanding people who don't attach morals to every little thing they do or don't agree with

Quite healing tbh

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Bro our back is fucked from that car ride T-T

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how about,,, 38 + 27 !!!!

"🌷 or 38: Are you in any radqueer discord servers? Do you like them?"

Yes but I can't say whether I like them or not because we join discord community's and then never open them after we join 😅

I joined them with the intent of interacting and wanting to make rq friends but unfortunately our anxiety has kept that from happening :')

"🐇 or 27: Do you use subliminals? Do you make them? Do you see effects from your sublimal usage?"

No, no, and N/A

Maggot (Our host) has recently become interested in them though. He hasn't used any yet but he's wanting to learn how they work because we don't actually know how they're supposed to work or what they're supposed to do lol

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💖 for the ask game! ^3^

"💖 or 28: If you identify with transIDs, what is your main reason?"

Well I mentioned this a little bit before but most of ID'S are transharmful and I ID with those because it gives me an outlet that's safe and doesn't involve real people getting hurt, it also gives me a community of people who think and feel similar :3

Also I'm nonhuman and a fictive so that's the second biggest reason for why I ID with a lot of my ID's

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Eugh

We're gonna be in the car for the next few hours and our back is killing us 😫

Well, since we have nothing else to do, here's the ask game again if anyone wants to send us asks (Maggot is also doing this if anyone wants to go to his blog)

Please

We're so bored 🥲

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ew

sensory issues are acting up

i want to burn all our clothes

they feel like sandpaper

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Hey guys! Here's some transplural advice I got from a cisplural friend ♡

(This can also work for any other transIDs, so listen up, you mentally ill fucks! /lh)

Strap in, this is a long post.

With any disorder (did, osdd, bpd, mdd, hpd, autism, adhd, the list goes on), the general cause is changed brain chemistry through neuroplasticty.

Neuroplasticity is defined by psychologists Matt Puderbaugh and Prabhu D. Emmady as “the ability of the nervous system to change its activity in response to intrinsic or extrinsic stimuli by reorganizing its structure, functions, or connections.” Basically, just how your brain adapts. And of course, the fast pass to large scale neuroplasticity is trauma, but it’s not the only way to change your brain chemistry. In fact, you change your brain chemistry in minor ways every day. Every time you encode a fact or a name into your memory, that is neuroplasticity. Your brain changes structure every day.

No matter what people say, trauma is never the only way to develop a disorder. Most people just never have the will to do what radqueer people do to transition. It takes a lot of work to change your brain THAT MUCH, but it is possible. Power to those who fully transition, genuinely.

All the people that tell you to fake it til you make it are completely correct. Turns out that our brains really like repetition, and by repeating a type of behavior over and over, it'll start to happen naturally. Think of it like a road in your brain: It'll start as a dirt road, but the more it's used, the more likely it is to be paved!

To make this process go faster, you need to take care of yourself. (I know, it's kind of a bummer. I got upset too.) Sleep 8 hours, eat a balanced diet, exercise, and stimulate your brain with something that ISN'T brainrot (read a book, whore.) After that, your brain and sheer willpower will take care of the rest!

Anyway, good luck faggots! And feel free to correct me in the comments/reposts if I'm wrong, but provide proof, please.

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Transtestosterone / TransonT

A transID when one identifies as/feels as though they should take/be on testosterone

There is also this version I made with a slightly different color palette, I couldn't decide between them, so you can have both lmao

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🌷 and ⛸️ if you feel like it ! 🫶

"🌷 or 23: Do you use any xeno-transIDs? (Like xenoabled, xenogender, xenoage, etc.) If so, list them!"

Not at the moment, no, maybe in the future I will tho :b

"⛸ or 40: Infodump about your favorite ID- para, transID, gender, therian/otherkin... anything!"

Oooouuuu it's hard to choose which one for this

I'll go with Transroadkillcleaner

A lot of people want to be doctors or teachers or whatever, meanwhile I genuinely want to have a job cleaning up roadkill lmao

I don't know how to fully explain it tbh

I'm fascinated by roadkill, I feel drawn to it (I also want to be roadkill and/or collect it, I really like roadkill XD)

It's probably a really weird thing to be this interested in, but oh well lmao

Maybe it has something to do with being a nonhuman, I'm also dead/undead (the line is blurred for me) in source, so that might explain the wanting to be roadkill part *shrugs*

Also here is the ask game for anyone interested - https://www.tumblr.com/velvette-deer/788999448752766976?source=share

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🦋 + 💝 if you can do both? If not, 🦋?

"🦋 or 8: What is your most "controversial" transID? Why do you identify that way + what do you think people should know about that identity?"

Probably most of my transharmful ID's.

I have quite a few, so I'm not sure where they would rank, but I would assume the most controversial ones would be my transmurderer ID's (I have multiple lol), transdoxxer, transsuibaiter, transdeaththreat etc.

I ID with all of my transharmful ID's because I'm an anger/rage holder and a grudge holder (as in those are my main roles in our system), and I also experience homicidal ideation.

I'm basically just a ball of rage lmao.

I guess the main thing I want people to know is that this is my outlet. I have dark and violent thoughts and feelings. I am not ashamed of these things; I quite like a lot of these thoughts and feelings, and I do not feel bad for it. Yes, I do very often want to act on them, but I don't, because it would be wrong, and I'm aware of that. Transharmful terms are a good way for me to express these things in a way that harms no one. It's also a good way to find a community of people with similar thoughts and feelings. Thought crimes don't exist. I shouldn't have to feel ashamed and hate myself for that to apply to me. (This part kinda rambled, tbh I might copy and paste this part into a separate post cause it's something I think about a lot lol)

"💝 or 9: What transID do you want to transition to the most, if any?"

Oooouuu this one's hard, I'm gonna say that at the moment some of the main ID's that I would like to transition too are transpopuradqueer (let me be famous please 😩 /silly), transbonecollector, and transroadkillcollector

I have quite a few, so it's impossible to just pick one lmaoo

Also here is the ask game for anyone interested - https://www.tumblr.com/velvette-deer/788999448752766976?source=share

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BIG radqueer ask game :3

🌸 or 1: How did you find out about the Radqueer community? What made you join?

🍦 or 2: Were you ever an anti? If so, what made you change your mind?

🕯 or 3: What is your specific blankqueer label, if you have one? (and want to share it, ofc)

💭 or 4: Do you identify with/as any transIDs? Which ones?

🍑 or 5: If you identify with transIDs, what is your favorite of your transIDs?

🛼 or 6: Do you have any paras?

🌨 or 7: Are you a system? If so, how did you find out you are one?

🦋 or 8: What is your most "controversial" transID? Why do you identify that way + what do you think people should know about that identity?

💝 or 9: What transID do you want to transition to the most, if any?

🧃 or 10: What would you look like if you fully transitioned to all of your IDs?

🤍 or 11: If you had to choose, which transID would you not want to have (as in, which would you not want to identify with)?

🎈 or 12: What is your favorite flag made by someone in the rq community?

🍰 or 13: If you're trace, tell us why, or how you found out! (You can also infodump about your trace ID!)

🕊 or 14: If you're transage, tell us why, or how you found out! (You can also infodump about your transage ID!)

🍭 or 15: If you're transharm in some way, what do you think the reason for identifying as your transharm ID is?

👼🏼 or 16: If you are in fandom and/or are a shipper of any sort, what is your favorite ship? Drop some art you like of that ship!

💘 or 17: If you're plural, how do other members of your system feel about radqueers?

🩰 or 18: Who are your favorite rq tumblr users? @ them!

🎠 or 19: Do you ever get antis in your askbox? How do you respond to them?

🥛 or 20: What's your favorite thing about being part of this community?

📖 or 21: What's your least favorite thing about being part of this community?

🍪 or 22: Do you think you'll ever leave or "grow out of" this community?

🌷 or 23: Do you use any xeno-transIDs? (Like xenoabled, xenogender, xenoage, etc.) If so, list them!

🌐 or 24: Have you ever transitioned to any transIDs? How did you do it (if you want to share)?

🍓 or 25: What transIDs are a squick (personal discomfort) for you? Would you mind sharing why?

✨ or 26: Do you follow any religion (mainstream or neo/xenoreligion)?

🐇 or 27: Do you use subliminals? Do you make them? Do you see effects from your sublimal usage?

💖 or 28: If you identify with transIDs, what is your main reason?

💍or 29: If you have atypical dysphoria, is it more social, mind, or body dysphoria?

☁️ or 30: If you are a trans-mobility-aid-user, tell us about what mobility aid you want! Would you decorate it?

🔅 or 31: If you are a cis-mobility-aid-user, what do you think of folks who are trans- the mobility aid you use?

👗or 32: Do you have any contradicting identities?

💌 or 33: If you are cis- neurodivergent, mentally ill, etc, how does seeing folks who are trans- your disorder/syndrome make you feel?

🐭or 34: If you are cis-disabled, how does seeing people who are trans- your disablities make you feel?

💓 or 35: What would your ideal relationship look like?

🧴 or 36: Are you an artist (writer, digital/traditional artist, painter, musician, etc.)? Share some of your work, if you are (and if you are comfortable doing so)!

🌼 or 37: If you are severi- anything (wanting a disorder/disability to be worse or not as bad as it is), why do you identify that way?

🌷 or 38: Are you in any radqueer discord servers? Do you like them?

🧁or 39: Does your username have meaning? What does it mean? If it has no meaning, how did you choose it?

⛸ or 40: Infodump about your favorite ID- para, transID, gender, therian/otherkin... anything!

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I found my transroadkill terms on pinterest >:D

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I WANNA BE YOUR FRIEND BUT I AM SO SCARED TO DM YOU!

Aww, that's ok! We've got really bad anxiety, so I can understand that

You're more than welcome to talk to me through anon asks tho!

Just know that my response time varies since I don't front very consistently, sometimes I'm out for most of the day, other times I go a week without fronting lol

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Can you make a flag for transharasser ?? /Nf

TransHarasser ;

A transharmful id where someone believes that they should be a harasser or someone that is harrasing someone, for whatever reason.