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going outside feels like a little treat now, yet i still dread it

anything ANYTHING to break up the constant cycle of boredom the constant time loop that robs my energy, friends and life

i think i'm doing well by hiding it to most and i'm doing well to cope but i think i'm actually loosing it now

when i'm home alone i hear sounds like the door opening and floor/stairs creaking. my brain promising me an end to the silence and loneliness only for me to reach the front door and have that hope ripped away from me.

i sound dramatic. i am kinda being that way. it's just being alone a lot. but it weighs on you after a while. i'm literally hearing things now.

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i feel like vines are leaking out my stomach it hurts

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holy crumbs /pos

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everything’s pointless and none of this matters so why fucking bother /neg

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oh!

check out ngl

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sometimes idk why i even bother bc i always fuck up anyway

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all my behaviour reflects hers and i literally cannot talk to people without being scared im being like her

i have to be the "adult", i have to make sure everyone else is in line or else, i have to be the one on top of everything

and i end up being too much and too controlling, even to my parents

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trying to keep my anxiety at bay by doing school work bc if it distracts me in the day it can distract me in the evening too ig

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cw eyestrain

vent art

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sorry abt the cringy ass hazbin audio and capcut template, but idk how else to put it ngl

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im tired of being scared i just want to be happy

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i hate this fucking country

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i’m 5 months clean but i keep getting urges and idk what to do anymore

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I DID IT YIPPEE

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todays the day i block them.

i got less than 5 hours of sleep. i am terrified. i am trembling. i was trembling last night. i am fucking terrified.

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ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh